It’s been a while since I last posted. I want to dive more into CGl and talk about my own personal struggles so I’m as transparent as possible.
Here are some quick updates about me:
I am no longer in a relationship with my old Daddy. It was a rather toxic relationship for my mental health. It seemed like the perfect relationship from what I spoke about, but I felt really alone and ignored. It would be deemed an emotionally abusive and manipulative relationship. (I will touch on these types of relationships and how to feel safe in little space)
I’m currently in a much better relationship and it’s really positive and supportive. I love him dearly and I have a promise ring. We are committed to one another and want to make our relationship work. We unfortunately are not a CG/l dynamic. I spoke to him about it when we first started dating, and it just wasn’t a fit for him to have me be so dependent on him.
As for my own personal relationship with CGl/DDlg, it has been a huge struggle. Little space didn’t feel safe anymore. It felt tainted with memories of pain and hurt I felt and just being alone. Tonight though, I pulled out my old My Little Ponies and brushed their manes. It brought me to such a safe place away from how hard vanilla life has been, all the stress, depression, anxiety, and loneliness I feel on a daily basis. It finally felt safe. I’d been yearning to bring out some toys and just play. I felt in my current relationship and situation where someone one closest to told me to, “Grow up soon,” I could never be who I truly am. I’ve been strictly out of planned and safe little space for over a year now. Of course I’d fall into the exciting bubbly feelings every once in a while, but never where I sat down and had time to explore what it meant to me now. I’m going to talk to my boyfriend about adding it back into my life and if he wants to be a pet to some degree, but my thoughts are he won’t. After tonight, it feels like sowmthing I NEED. I have been so overwhelmed by everything and so shutdown, I never feel at ease, and tonight I finally felt it while being alone.
Little space has been a struggle ever once my last relationship and how vanilla my boyfriend is for everyday life. I want to make this account more active and maybe even turn it into a website associated to help others while they’re just googling. I will be more active and here to share my thoughts and opinions. I feel at ease right now speaking about this and can’t wait to explore it more.
Thank you for still following or even reading this is you chose to. I know it’s a lot! I appreciate your support!
To all the Daddies out there taking care of your littles every single day. You are a blessing to the world. Thank you for being so kind and taking care of them, being there when they need you, kissing their boo boos, tuking them in at night, making sure they’re taking care of themselves too, committing yourself to them, being loyal, loving them, and everything else you do every hour of the day. It means more than you’ll ever know!
I know this day is for all the Fathers as well, but I think Daddies get to be celebrated today too! You’re unappreciated by the general population, and I think whomever is a good and truly caring “father figure” deserves to be recognized today too. This post was not meant to take away from any parent out there. It was meant to include those who don’t truly have a day (besides everyday!) dedicated to the appreciation we all have for them! I personally do not have a father nor a father figure, and the most influential, preodiment, and positive male in my life is my boyfriend. Today no only do I dedicate this day to my single mother, but also to my boyfriend. He has helped me through a lot of loss and sadness, and has been such a support when I needed him. I know it’s not a “father and child” relationship, but he, like many Daddies out there, desvere to be celebrated for all their hard work and sacrifices and commitment to their littles. Here’s a day to you, in a non-traditional sense! I hope you have a great day, stay safe!
*Chatting with Daddy about falling asleep last night*
Me: Daddy I was really sleepy!
Daddy: I know you were
Me: but I wanted to sleep with YOUUU
Daddy: I knoooooow
Me: *makes squeaking noises* When I go so sleep I imagine I’m cuddling with youuuuu
Daddy: AWW!!! That’s so cute!!! Oh my gosh! Cutie!
Me: *is a blushing mushy pile of soft glittery goop*
Daddy: Get back here missy
Me: Princess can’t come to the phone right now, leave a message after the beep. *BEEP*
Daddy: Hello princess. I just wanted to say I love you so much and I miss you. You are so beautiful and amazing in every way. I wish I could talk to you rn. Daddy misses his little girl. I love you baby girl. Message daddy when you can speak because speaking to you is my favourite thing to do
Me: *squeals loudly* *internally screams and cries remembering how lucky I am to have Daddy* I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!!
