#excerpts from my diary

I want to say that I deserve better, that I am not getting the love and attention that I need. But what do I deserve? How am I supposed to know what I deserve? I don’t think love is supposed to be this way, but what the hell do I know? I want him to show me that he loves me, just like he did before. I am tired of words, it feels like I’m wasting my time.

I want to cry but I can’t. Why do I have do feel this way? How do I know when it’s time to let go? How am I supposed know what is best for me when he is all my heart knows about? This makes me so confused.

I think that I deserve more love than I am getting.

- excerpt from my diary (12/4-2017)