On my exam day I wore a pull-up because I was afraid of not being able to go to the bathroom normally (it’s called paruresis). It was a really long exam and was summertime so I needed to drink a lot to stay hydrated… We were something like 80 students in the room… I tried so bad to pee normally but I just couldn’t, things were getting very bad, it started to hurt a lot… At one moment I got up and went to the teacher to ask a question about an exercise… I felt I needed to let it go so bad that I literally peed my diaper while I was talking in front of him and in front of everyone. It was so embarassing and satisfying at the same time. Fortunately it didn’t leak but I was afraid the pull-up wet bulge was visible After that I felt so much better
Ohhh and I also have many other experiences at my University and school trips but I don’t want to annoy you.
~Ella came home from ballet around 8pm, and was exhausted as usual. She just started dancing 6 days a week for 5-6 hours per day at a prestigious ballet academy. She was gaining confidence and moving up in the levels, and at 15, a successful career as a ballerina was starting to take shape.
And, just like many, she had a way to relax, or a sort-of vice when she comes home. She wears diapers to bed.
“Ella! Come have your night-time shake and then let’s get your teeth brushed and pjs on!” Ella made her way to the kitchen, slurped down a Pediasure shake for protein and to keep her body healthy after dancing so much, and trekked down the hall to the bathroom.
Her mom came in as she was brushing her teeth. “Ok honey, I’ll meet your in your room to help you get ready.” Ella spit out the last of her toothpaste, “k mom.”
Tonight would end like the majority of her nights had ended since she was a toddler, and she didn’t mind it at all, in fact she looked forward to it.
She finished in the bathroom and walked into her room to see her room finishing up sewing a new pair of pointe shoes for her tomorrow. “Okay, I’ll put these in your bag, but don’t forget to save your old shoes, I want to save the ribbons and elastics off of them.”
Ella just shook her head and started to take off her tights, leotard and cover-up. She threw them in a laundry basket by the door and threw on an oversized t-shirt.
Her mom was standing by her bed and pat the end of her mattress calling Ella over.
Ella lied down at the end of her bed with just a t-shirt on, and her mom walked over with a diaper in one hand and powder in the other.
Her mother slid the diaper under Ella’s booty and started to powder her all over. “Mom, do you think it’s weird that I wear a diaper to bed still?”
Her mom just looked at her and said, “no honey, don’t think of it like that..”
“I mean, I only actually NEEED it like twice a month, right?”
“That’s right baby, it’s just for your relax and get comfortable.”
Her mom could not be more right . Ella did find comfort in her mom diapering her every night. She was able to relax and de-stress after her intense training she has been doing since she was young. “Well, I mean, what happens when I get a job at a ballet company, and I move away?” Her mom just smiled and taped the tabs of her baby diaper closed. “Well, I guess we will cross the bridge when we get there honey!”
She helped Ella pull her T-shirt down and pulled back the sheets for her to jump in.
Ella waddled over to the dresser to put her retainer in and take her contacts out. The crinkle under her t-shirt followed her all the way over. Her room smelled like a baby’s with the remains of powder in the air.
She smiled, happy and relaxed, and waddled back over to her mom and slipped into bed.
Her mom covered her up and kissed her head.
Ella rustled for a few moments in her diaper, and drifted off to sleep, not worrying if she had an accident at night.
