#trolls
Remember when trolls were lucky? They were cute little fuzzy haired collectables that you kept on your desk at school, to fulfill superstitions that you might pass a test you didn’t study for. Pink hair, blue hair- I think they even had their own TV show. My friend Kathleen even bought me these troll earrings, either because she knows I used to love these trolls, or because she thinks I’m super tacky.
As I’ve already mentioned, I have a deep fear of YouTube. A real problem seeing as how I’m a comedian, and the whole world goes there to check me out. I CAN’T handle the comments. They are painful. And even though I know it’s one of the Four Agreements, “Don’t take it personal,” it totally hurts.
I don’t like drama. I’ve never been a good arguer. I consider myself very diplomatic. I can always see both sides. Maybe that’s why I stick to self-deprecating jokes. If you’re a hater, it’s my way of beating you to the punch. In general, I don’t like debating. I don’t have full faith I’m right about anything. I remember in high school, I was selected to be part of the Grade 10 Debate. It was a debate where four students would argue against another four students on a selected topic, to be performed in front of the whole school. I wanted to keep the event light and fluffy. I opted for: “Chunky Soup: Fork or Spoon?” (It seemed like a loaded question, as per all the commercials we couldn’t fast forward through back then.) Unfortunately, I was out voted. The debate went to euthanasia.
So up until this point, I’ve been a coward with internet hate. I block people on Twitter, and in general I completely avoid YouTube. My mentality has always been, “Why should I learn to deal with hate? Why can’t others just learn not to hate?” (I’m SUCH an idealist, eh?) My friend Steph Guthrie has an AMAZING Ted Talks called “The Problem With “Don’t Feed The Trolls.” She makes a far more powerful argument than I do, and I suggest you watch it. (Hopefully I know how to post links right, cuz this is it.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KHEkR5yb9A
So this week, I’ve decided to face the trolls. I asked people on Facebook to send me mean comments they’ve received, and I will attempt to put a positive spin on them, and/or defend your honour. Here we go:
YouTube commenter:
“I bet she has some meaty beef curtains.”
Christina’s Positive Spin:
He probably doesn’t have a lot he can bet. Maybe a stamp collection from 1987, a comic book or two, his mom’s underwear… And to be fair, beef is delicious and everyone needs curtains. Especially at sunrise when you’re hungover.
YouTube Commenter:
Is that a laugh machine? Sounds like a sit come in the 60s.
Christina’s Positive Spin:
Hey, don’t bring Canadian TV into this. Don’t hate the player, hate the game. Also, what’s a “sit come?” Interesting how these “critics” manage to show their level of intelligence.
YouTube commenter:
Oh yah baby… you can squirt cum over me anytime. Puddles everywhere. Yum Yum.
Christina’s Positive Spin:
Who needs a positive spin on this one? YOU ARE IN, BUDDY. (Something tells me it’s C.O.D. though.)
So after an interesting session sorting through my friends’ trolls, I decided it was time to face my own.
I got a mean message via tumblr during my Tinder blog. He/she (Internet haters REALLY don’t want you to know who they are, eh? I can’t even decipher gender) wrote,
You’re fucking annoying.
Well, that’s not very nice. Usually I just ignore/block Internet meanies, but this one, I decided to respond:
Then why are you reading this? Go find something you like, ya facking idiot!
(Even when responding to trolls, I feel the need to utilize italics.)
When my blogs got featured on the Huffington Post, I was terrified of the comments. One of the first “burns” I got was:
“What is this? Miley Cyrus’s diary?”
Well… Have I got news for you. One woman’s insult, is another woman’s compliment. I’ll take it!
But now it’s time for me to face my real fear… my YouTube comments. Of course all my clips are super old, because I’m too scared of the site. The worst part of these trolls is that they have the power to shut a creative person down. At least it does for me. I don’t want to share half the stuff I think of. I have scripts that just sit in my computer. I have sets I’ve never put on YouTube. What’s the point? People are just gonna hate it all. I’m a total weeny.
I quickly drop a shot of Strawberry vodka in my glass of sparkling water, swallow that and my pride, and go seek out my haters. Are you ready?
YouTube Commenter:
“This bitch sucks. I’m pissed. I was watching the brilliant Russell Peters and then clicked on this lame-wade. You wasted my time. Go back to comedy 101, although I doubt it will help. You monotonous bitch.”
Wow. It’s everything I thought it would be and more. There’s lots of nice comments too, but guess which one I focus on? Positive spin…? There’s a link to me on Russell Peters’ page? Ouch. Who takes all this time to write and spread such hatred? Oh yeah. Somebody with no real name, nor real face. Since I’m currently trying to dive into the world of standing up to bullies, I decide to write a reply.
“Cool. You sound like a real winner! Do you have a real name? A real face? Why are you hiding from your own words?”
Then I went to bed. I’m not going to lose sleep over internet hate. (Though I probably will have nightmares over it.) When I woke up in the morning, I saw the craziest thing on my computer. Someone ELSE stood up for me! Somebody I don’t even know. He wrote a reply to her slander.
Check THAT out! It’s an INTERNET MIRACLE! This guy is a true hero. I actually want to BE this guy. I immediately start looking up my comedian friends on YouTube. I’m going to do for other comics, what this guy did for me. I’ve spent all morning throwing positive feedback on clips. I want to be your troll, but a cute, fuzzy lucky one, like the toy. (Emphasis on the fuzzy these days.) My next move will be updating my Yelp page. I’ve told so many businesses I’d write nice things about them, but currently the only review I have up is on this mean yoga studio who kicked me out for drinking coffee before class. (A COFFEE! It’s not like I walked in with a flask.) Isn’t it weird how we’re more prone to resort to the Internet when we’re angry, rather than when we’re pleased?
I’d like to start a revolution. I doubt that’s in my power, but maybe, just maybe, we can take a little time to write something positive about a person or place today. Don’t let the trolls win. I’ve already overplayed “Shake It Off” obvi, so my new anthem to kick the haters is Kiesza’s “No Enemiesz.” You should blast it right now.
FACK! I can’t be a cheesy person, eh? But like a 60s sit come, there aren’t not many of us left.
Using my fingers for things other than rings,
Walkinsauce
My troll is at it again…. trying to take down this tumblr. What a pain, hopefully it will get resolved soon. Don’t understand why they don’t spend their time doing something useful as its a lot of wasted time on life.
So as usual… Troll on twitter and trolls on tumblr.
Maybe they are trying to wipe me away from complete social networking…. they must dislike my writing that much xx my presence must disturb them that much. Weird.
——–Finally it has been resolved ♀️
The Daily Caller is a trash publication that conservatives should be ashamed of. I wish that I had something more positive to say about young conservatives, but judging from the young conservatives that work in the media, the young conservative activists I read about, and the young conservatives on Tumblr, I’m feeling pretty cynical about the future of conservatism.
It’s mighty kind of you to let me live in your mind rent-free, anon But seriously:
i understand being obsessed with mittens but yeah fuck off anon
I think it’s pretty weird that people constantly think that bringing up racism or “problematic” things in a given media means that your orchestrating a full out boycott of it. People did it with SU and Agent Carter and now when people were talking about Frozono’s wife and how she’s staying a disembodied force of sassy one liners in the year 2018 and pointing out the dehumanization of that automatically means now tumblr is “at it again” trying to boycott Incredibles 2. Like why does people talking about racism make you so uncomfortable that you come to those conclusions.
So I’ve Started Reading Vast Error
Let me just say, I have ideas and interesting thoughts, especially between the Sylph of Rage Taz Pomme and the Bard of Breath Arcjec Voorat, I mean I have thoughts on the whole bloody thing and the dynamic of each troll and how it fits so nicely together piece by piece by how their aspects both clash and compliment each other but let’s take it slow and heck maybe you’ll see more from me on the topic of the best spiritual successor to Homestuck I have ever laid my eyes upon.
Anyways, so from my understanding Slyphs are kind of a healer/support type of class for lack of better terms they help or try to help through their aspect, so seeing a Sylph of Rage in here is very interesting because oftentimes you don’t see Rage as being well… helpful honestly. Yet from my reading and understanding Rage players tend to be people who get things done, people of passion, people of emotion, people of anger, people of rage, and most importantly people of Focus. And yet here we are with Taz who apparently is in probably one of the most unhealthy states a Sylph of Rage could be in as stated by her Denizen whose interaction suggests she needs to be broken down before she can actually help through her aspect keep this in mind for later.
Next up we have the Bard of Breath, you know the Class that passively destroys things specifically their aspect, now in the case of Arcjec I feel like he’s already destroyed that “freedom” and his bard abilities are well on passive display of which he is coming to terms with because it can be used for good when not let to go off on its own… like he was… for several years. From what I’ve read this is a Class aspect that needs to either be contained, put on a kind of metaphorical leash, or… OR and get this be given focus.
I don’t know what’s happened in their past, nor do we all, the story is still ongoing and the pieces are still being put together but, we know something bad happened between Taz and Arcjec. Part of it could of him passively destroying the freedom they once had, part of it could be the things Taz did that caused the whole fallout amongst most of them, we don’t know, but we can clearly see the negative traits of the Bard already at play here, unlike in Gamzee’s case where he started off chill and then WENT TOTALLY OFF THE FING CHAINS. This causes me to think that due to being a Bard of Breath and hey there could be more pieces to the puzzle and more negative things to play here, and heck he could even potentially when utilizing his power properly destroy the freedom that the antagonists currently have thus screwing them over, but we don’t know how that’ll play out yet.
So here we have Taz and Arcjec, who surprisingly compliment each other as dysfunctional as they may currently be it seems to be, amends are being made to some degree as the story progresses, and He like the Previous breath player in Homestuck John both seem to be the first ones who actually enter the game, so that’s interesting but besides the point. Anyways, the person giving him focus, the person forcing a change onto him, a person forcing things to happen is none other than Taz, who btw is the only one who I believe could get him off of his butt and get him moving whether he liked it or not. She in a very Rage-like manner did, in fact, end up helping him through well… Rage. Unlike the others who can and will move on their own Arcjec needs motivation, he needs direction he needs a push, he needs an eye to be kept on him, otherwise, he destroys the freedom around him as well as to some degree identity but that’s more of a heart players thing.
Their dynamic is fascinating and it seems wounds to some degree are starting to mend, and I want to see more of this dynamic because when you look further it is almost like the perfect pairing in this regard and it has me kind of floored. I could talk about the other perfect pairings and how they fit and then start writing up a shipping wall of canon and non-canon relationships like the heir of heart I apparently am but what am I? Nepeta? Meulin? Heaven forbid… although… I wouldn’t be against it. Needless to say, I am fascinated and desire to see how all these dynamics play out and heck I may even end up talking about personal character issues like what is currently going on with the Heir of Light but that is not for this time, it’s just so fascinating and I want more.