“i’m not loud and confident about being a lesbian. i could barely say the word lesbian when we started going out” I’M GONNA START CRYING SHE JUST LIKE ME FR
seeing the word lesbian being used in a show makes me so happy because people treat lesbian like a dirty word when it’s not, seeing heartstopper do this is just so :(
So I need everyone to know that Olivia Colman, on top of signing on to play a supporting character with a handful of lines, was so moved by her co-star Kit Connors’ coming out scene that she “burst into tears and forgot her lines.”
I’m not used to publish anything not related to my CC for the Sims 4. Today, I make an exception.
While scrolling on Netflix, I discovered last week that a new show would be released : Heartstopper.
I googled and discovered the Web comics it comes from. I binge read it.
Yesterday it the show was available on netflix… I binge watched it.
Why me, a 41 years old gay man, married, would just fell in love with this show ?
That’ s simple.
I grew up in the 90’s. At that time, there were no representation of gay people, of gay romance. As a teenage boy, aware that I liked boys, the only future I imagined was beeing different, sad, ill, alone … Romance was only in my head.
When I was 17, I had a crush on a class mate. A quite similar romance as the story of Heartstopper unfolded … but only in my head, every night when I went to bed. At school, I have been devastated learning my crush had a grilfriend but nothing should appear, everything had to be hidden “ don’t blush, don’t shake, don’t cry” so nobody could notice my emotions.
As I was bad at sport, the teacher made me enter the dance club (maybe she fell something ) ; my crush was there too. When we practiced everything had to be hidden too “don’t look at him, don’t blush, don’t smile despite the joy you have seeing him”.
All that was physically hard, I trained myself to hide my feelings (so well trained that still today I keep a lot of things inside me).
I know we’re legions having the same childhood.
So now, more than 20 years after that, I’m happy but still sad thinking of that time and what it should/could have been.
Everything is not ok today. I’m aware that the story of Heartstopper is idealistic (but really realistic with wonderfull actors different from the perfect handsome ones we usually see in TV shows …) , many of us live in places where this is just impossible to live that kind of romance.
But I would have loved to watch that show when I was a teenager, feeling that it’s not bad, that it’s beautiful, that it’s normal, that you can be happy being gay.
So whether you’re still young, you’re an adult, you’re gay, bi, straight or anything else, go and watch it and I hope you’ll cry and smile as I did.
It’s maybe the cutest, the most lovely romance I’ve ever watched.
Thanks to the author, Alice Oseman, the actors and all the crew behind this project.
(Sorry for my english, if my words are clumsy, to cheesy but I had to share that and not keeping it inside as I learned to )
