#i miss me

I try so hard to be worthy of love

But deep down I know

I’m too far gone

To make the healthier choice

My heart craves the toxic love

That comes from abuse

My mind fails to reject

The stability of caos

I want to stay

In the eye of the hurricane

How do I

Become better than yesterday

When I am already worse than the day before

What do I need

To convince myself

That I am worthy of what is being offered

Love, understanding

I distance myself from those

That could truly help me change for the better

Do I really believe

That true love could be

Something truly in the cards for me