I am in so much pain today. My mental health is taking a hit too. I have no one to vent to since I’m the “therapist” or “sunshine energy” friend, and no one wants to hear about my issues. They’ve shown me that… I feel alone at the moment. I try so hard to keep up my bubbly and optimistic persona, but it’s hard today… it’s hard to smile genuinely. It’s hard even to think that this will get better. I’ve been in a full-blown lupus flare for two years, which has caused my health to decline rapidly. I’m a very independent person, so losing my independence slowly is fucking with me. I’m on the verge of a breakdown. I just want the pain the stop…I want to stop feeling so tired and weak…I just want it all to stop.
To do list when you’re severely S I C K and D Y I N G:
1. Try cleaning your flat.
Not a good idea, try at your own risk, don’t come @ me please.
2. Try to cook something.
Again, not the greatest idea when you’re under heavy pills like me - it was fun tho and the flat’s still standing.
3. Pretend to write/read/create new stories:
I’ve written… Something. Except I don’t remember a single thing about it. But it was something.
4. Binge Netflix and probably assume there’s nothing exciting.
You’ll end up binging whole Queer Eye just like me.
5. Send not-so-funny memes you find hilarious because of said heavy medication to your friends to make them think you’re mentally K.O.
Said friend already thought I’m the weird kid… Now she thinks I’m even weirder.
6. Binge/start watching Micarah Tewers on YouTube. This girl is cool because she has several chicken, can sew diaper dress and looks a bit like Rachel McAdams from Sherlock Holmes.
Self-explanatory. In case you’d be interested in said channel, here’s how the wonderful lady looks like:
Bendhur I had told My secretary not to be late again….or she would be punished….I guess she need a lesson….although….I have a feeling she was enjoying it….
Y'all want some heartbreak? No? Too bad. Listen to the song Mars by Yungblud and think about Oikawa Tooru. Still not crying? Re-watch episode 20, season 1, “Oikawa Tooru is not a genius”, then listen to the song. I’M NOT CRYING YOU’RE CRYING.
please teach kids that its not normal to be in pain all of the time, we also need to start taking kids seriously when they talk about pain or difficulty physically, kids and teens can absolutely have chronic pain, medical conditions and disability that you cannot see. a kid isnt going to lie to you about being in pain 24/7 repeatedly.
