Honestly I don’t want to be breathing anymore and I’m losing the will to keep fighting and just want to end it already

-Night

When you die life will go on and eventually everyone will move on with their lives and forget you that just the reality of things

-Night

When there is nothing you can do but feel weak and helpless cause you can’t do anything to help and everything just gets worst

-Night

Your family is suppose to help you and protect you yet mines just find ways to fuck me over and over again yet I’m the bad guy

-Night

No one has mentally damage me more than my own family I’m always the bad guy if I try to think about myself it has to be about them and only they are right and it can only benefit them not me. That’s just selfish to care about myself or my health.

-Night

I want to leave this fucked up world on my own fuck terms. I didn’t have a choice to be born or not in this world so I should at least be able to decide when I want to fucken leave it

-Night

I’m tired of this I’m not fooling nobody I don’t want to keep fighting to stay alive I just keep losing it more each day that passes. I’m tired of pretending everything is okay when it’s not

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Раrаnоіd, уеаhh і’m раrаnоіd

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаnnа kіll mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Ѕо і am bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу tоo рull іt

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, dоn’t wоrrу, і’m јuѕt fіnе

Кеер mу раіn lосkеd іnѕіdе

Тhаt’ѕ whу і lау аwаkе аt nіght

Саn ѕоmеbоdу trу & ѕаvе mе

І rеаllу thіnk і’m lоѕіng соntrоl

Yеаhh, і thіnk і’m gоіng сrаzу

Тrу & bе ѕtrоng but іt tаkеn іt’ѕ tоll

Еvеn іf іt rеаllу іѕ mу tіmе

І guеѕѕ і nеvеr wаntеd tоo lеt gоo

Ѕо іmmа tаkе а lооk іntо thе ѕkу

Веg gоd lіkе рlеаѕе јuѕt ѕаvе mу ѕоul

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, уоu’rе аlwауѕ оn mу ѕіdе

Аnd і јuѕt wаnt оnе mоrе nіght

Ѕoо hоld mе tіght bесаuѕе і’m раrаnоіd

І’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ toо kіll mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Yеаhh, і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ toо kіll mе

Іt’ѕ thе ѕаddеѕt ѕtоrу

Вut thе mеdісаtіоn nеvеr hеаlѕ mе

Ѕоo і’m bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу toо рull іt

Іt’ѕ ок, іt’ѕ аlrіght, dоn’t wоrrу і’m јuѕt fіnе

Кеер mу раіn lосkеd іnѕіdе

Саn’t сlоѕе mу еуеѕ bесаuѕе і’m раrаnоіd

І thіnk ѕоmеbоdу wаntѕ tоo kіllѕ mе

Yеаhh, і ѕаіd і’m ѕоrrу but

І dоn’t thіnk thаt thеу fоrgіvе mе

Ѕоo і’m bаrеlу hаngіng оn

Тоo еdgе і dоn’t thіnk і саn hоld

Сuz і’m раrаnоіd

Fіngеr оn thе trіggеr аnd і’m rеаdу tоo рull іt

I’m not okay and honestly don’t know if I will ever be okay I try my best to be but this mental illness doesn’t let me

-Night

Everyday is a battle in my mind and I feel like I just keep on losing

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Suffocating in my room

It’s like I’m drowning Underwater

And I don’t know what to do

My fingers gripping on this Bottle

So I think I’ll leave today

Cuz I just can’t wait for Tomorrow

Got these pills in my hand cuz a Bullets too hard to swallow

And I’m running from my pain But it always seems to follow

Like them voices in my brain Yeah I can hear them when They callin

So im driving on the edge

I got my foot on the throttle

Swerving side to side cuz when I’m high yeah I ain’t scared bout Falling No

No gimmicks this is real life

Walk in my shoes it isn’t real Nice

Like some eggshells ontop of Sheer ice

I ain’t complaining I’m just Saying what it feel like

Look for the light but it’s too Grey

And every single night it’s a New thing

I don’t think that I can handle Any new pain

So don’t even try to save me Cuz your too late

Suffering in silence you don’t Even hear

But even if I scream out you Don’t even care

You been telling me to leave You don’t wanna see me here

So now I’m all alone it’s just me Snd all my fears yeah

Snd I’m trying to be a man but I Don’t know if I can fix the part Of me thats broken Scattered all Around me on the floor and I Don’t know if I know how to Cope with

All the problems locked inside Of me

I closed the door I’m try to find the key

So cut me open I just gotta see

If the soul inside of me will Bleed

Only walked out cuz of all the Misery everything we got now Is only history

I'mma leave it in the past with Everything I wanted all I really Needed was somebody when I’m falling

Suffocating in my room

It’s like I’m drowning Underwater

And I don’t know what to do

My fingers gripping on the Bottle

So I think I’ll leave today

Cuz I just can’t wait till Tomorrow

Got these pills in my hand

Cuz a bullets too hard to Swallow

Please catch meI’m falling

Before I hit the floor

I’m screaming I’m calling

But I just can’t scream no more

So please catch Me I’m falling

What am I falling for

It’s your name that I’m calling

But I guess I need you more

The good memories tend to fade away but the anger, pain and sadness never leave those memories just keep haunting me

-Night

I’m tired of pretending to be okay I’m so overwhelmed i only see one way out from all this shit and that’s fucken finally fucken ending it

-Night

The moment I think I’m okay my mind starts finding a way to make me think I’m not then it’s down hill from that

-Night

If I would have known that my life would just gotten worst, the first time I try to end it when I was a teen I would have made sure to actually end it and get it over with

-Night

I’m at my limit don’t know how long I can keep going like this I’m losing the will to keep on going

-Night

This family is the reason I don’t get better just get worst I can’t do anything good without them making it bad

I’m no stranger to darkness cause that’s all I have ever known

-Night

I drown in the darkness don’t know who I am, losing parts of me every time

-Night

No matter what I try to do all I can think about is that it will all come to an end soon no matter how hard I try to distract myself

-Night