#instadiary

I’m not crying, my eyes are just sweating!
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But really though, I’m so frustrated. I have been more in point with my nutrition for the past three weeks than I ever have I my life, and for some reason my body is fighting me so hard. After my initial water drop in the first couple of days I’ve lost maybe 2 pounds. Every time the scale goes down it’s guaranteed to shoot right back up the next day. I have no idea what’s going on. I know I haven’t been cutting for that long, but my body has never been this slow to lose weight - especially on the macros I’m on now. I started this cut 16 weeks out to give myself plenty of time to come in leaner than ever, and here I am making no progress I almost wish I was slacking somewhere so there would be a REASON for this. All I can say is that I’m happy I start with my coach on Saturday so she can try to figure out what’s wrong with me *Sorry for complaining, just trying to keep it real!*
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Is that a tricep I spy? I’m EVER so slowly leaning out, trying to keep as much of my hard earned muscle as possible! That five month off season will not be for nothing
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On an unrelated note, I was thinking about passion today. Specially, finding your passion and purpose and turning those things into your career. And I’ve come to the conclusion that doing that is much harder than it sounds. @amandabuccifit has really been inspiring me to take my life into my own hands lately with her podcast and #igniteyourfire, and all of my self-reflection is just leading to more questions! The one thing I know for sure is that I’m a helper, and I want to be able to improve someone’s life every single day with whatever I end up doing. But besides that, I’m essentially stumped. Oh well, i’ll just be over here doing tricep press downs and questioning my life‍♀️
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