#jon cozart

Some behind the scenes photos from the set of Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story, taken by our set photographer, Christopher Higgins.

Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story - coming soon to Shipwrecked Comedy!

Some pictures from the set of Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story, taken by our set photographer, Christopher Higgins.

Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story, coming soon to Shipwrecked Comedy!

Some photos from the set of Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story, taken by our set photographer, Christopher Higgins.

Headless: A Sleepy Hollow Story - Coming soon to Shipwrecked Comedy!

because i’m procrastinating, the timeline of how Jon Cozart’s After Ever After radically changed the course of my life.

I am terrible with years and keeping memories in a coherent timeline, but I’ll try and might make up some fake dates accidentally.

around 2012-2013 i was in middle school and my classmates and i had a facebook group, like it was done back then. and a friend made a post sharing this silly Disney Parody. i watched it and thought it was soo cool and clever and also spent more time than i’d like to admit trying to figure out whether it was four identical guys or only one. (it was too impressive for my young mind, i still am impressed by it now)

then i proceeded to tell my friend when i saw her that i loved the video and we learned the lyrics and would sing them constantly, with one doing the accompanying rhythms and one singing the song (including, very importantly, the “p a i n t subscribe!” at the end).

then a few years later, around 2016 i created a tumblr account (that i barely used) because of facebooks page “people of tumblr”, i only reblogged grunge or emo posts because i wanted to have that aesthetic.

i don’t know if it was in that same year or until 2017 but i went on youtube and remembered this after ever after parody and then went to watch a bunch of other videos in the same channel. i thought jon was hilarious and edgy and hot so i became a fan.

while watching his content, i watched three videos he did with Thomas Sanders, but i can’t for the life of me remember in which order. i think it was in this order:

• Vine vs Youtube song
• RIP Vine Agony parody
• I’ve been shipped with Jon Cozart (on thomas’ channel)

and at this point in my life i had somehow unlearned a lot of ugly predjudices i had (i don’t remember how. i just gradually became a little better person) so when i watched that last one i was like “oh that’s so cool that these (straight) men are comfortable in their masculinity enough to make a video like this!”

and i also liked watching it because i thought jon was So Cool and i was a teenage “girl” with no friends so i of course was playing along figuring out how compatible i was with him. and i also thought “oh this Thomas guy is very cool, too, i seem to have more in common with him actually”

i also remember watching the vine videos and thinking “oh this is the Storytime! guy!* he can sing??” and though i feel very little attraction, any time i see a man can sing i do feel it so much.

*i didn’t have vine, i only watched compilations that popped up on facebook, mostly those Storytime ones.

so in the beginning of 2017 i caved and watched videos by thomas. and it was when i found Sanders Sides and i feel in love. my crush also moved from jon to thomas* lol. he was nice and sweet and relatable and attractive and his voice was so comforting. and i was aware of his presence on tumblr because he used to be very popular here before the exclusionists ruined everything. after watching Sanders Sides i followed some sanders sides blogs, of course.

*i didn’t think much about his sexuality until i became a bit more of a fan and saw people arguing in the comments of his videos about it. everyone thought he was bisexual because of his vines and he insisted that it was only acting so i didn’t speculate, but i did think he was attracted to women, specially after the valentine’s video with valerie (listen.. it probably didn’t fool actually perceptive people im just dense as hell). i found out he wasn’t (like everyone else did) with that pride video in june 2017, and in a video after that when he corrected joan about not being bi. after that my crush died (for that + other silly reasons lol)

which then lead to the actual changes. the queer presence in the fandom took over my dash, i learned so much, i had no idea how little i knew about everything. for one, i dont remember exactly who put the definition of asexual in my dash but im sure i wouldn’t have been so open to identifying with it if i hadnt become so used to seeing all blogs talking about it and reading fanfics with people giving the sides so many different identities. and being asexual is a big part of how i see myself now. its important, i filter a lot of my experiences throught this knowledge, and it’s good!

then i also found out thanks to thomas’ videos what being non binary was. because i heard it first from joan, who for some reason i thought was a trans woman who was using neutral pronouns while they felt comfortable enough to transicion completely. i now know that’s not how it works. but that was the first step. i really learned so much about gender and also how i see the world has changed thanks to this new perspective i had never considered. i don’t know what hot takes i would have now if it weren’t for this. i knew back in 2016 i did have so very bad ones.

now more dominoes..

while i was patiently waiting for jon to post more videos and sneaking a peek into thomas’ channel, before getting well into sanders sides i watched

• an awkward duet
• this cover of waving through a window
• this cover of birds
• dear happy
• human
• city of stars

all with dodie, all absolute gems, lovely, gorgeous, spectacular, and i loved them but i didn’t really care about dodie in particular (for some incredibly stupid reason) but i did get immersed in this fandom for specifically Jon, Thomas and Dodie, mostly comprised of bisexual people who shipped the three of them or couldn’t decide who to ship with whom lol. but generally as a trio of friends they seemed like a really cool group and i loved the energy. they gave me this vibe of cool older cousins to look up to.

and from here two big changes:

first that cover of waving through a window made me cry so much. i knew that they were into musicals and i do like musicals but i was never into theather so i never knew what they were all talking about. i had heard thomas name dear evan hansen and also i had seen it around on tumblr. but that cover of waving through a window moved something so fundamental in me idk. it was An Experience. I watched it once sitting on my living room by my piano and cried so so much.

so i went and watched dear evan hansen as soon as i found a link to a bootleg. and it was incredible. the story was something i had never seen before, the emotions i felt were also so special. i felt so heard by several of the characters in a way that i just never had. it also changed my view of myself and of some personal struggles in my life. and to this day i think i have been able to cope with these problems a little better thanks to this musical. it’s also the first theater musical i watched before i went on to watch a few others and realize that i adore the genre. after it i watched heathers which also had affected a lot the way i cope with my emotions, although maybe that’s not such a big impact but big enough.

the second change was eventually giving in to the youtube recommendations and discovering dodie as an artist.

and god. her music. losing my mind. i couldn’t believe what i had been missing. same as with dear evan hansen, it was so fresh and different from anything i knew before, and felt so much closer to me than any other music. the themes of her lyrics were stuff i couldn’t find anywhere else (not that i’ve ever been good at finding music), that i didn’t even know i was looking for. it always was so comforting, even when they were sad and made me cry. i bought her vinyl album last year because i love her so much.

also through dodie i have found many more artists that make up most of my current taste, like orla gartland and tessa violet and mxmtoon.

and well lastly, of course, Sanders Sides.

the first sanders sides i watched was the Q&A (it was the most recent one then). i realized when they brough up “last week’s video” that it was a series so i watched the previous episode Losing my Motivation, which i loved. then i went back to the Q&A with more context and then i watched everything in the right order.

several things here. first Logan and Virgil as characters helped me figure a lot of stuff out about myself and my identity. they also helped me build it. i really didn’t have much personality and only had a few traits that stood out somewhat as a kid. but during high school with these characters i was able to like, spot some things about myself that made me different from others, that i liked, so i could build upon them to create a more solid sense of self. stuff that already was there but i was unaware of or was just avoiding. now i feel like i have it more clear and it has helped me be more confident about who i am and interact better with people and make friends.

janus + my psychologist also have formed another part of who i am today which is a little shamelessly selfish but in a healthy way. im okay with it. i need to practice more kindness but i’m not an awful person and i am not hurting myself as much as i used to.

ALSO that. tumblr and dear evan hansen helped me realize that when you have serious issues with anxiety you look for professional help so i did when i was having an awful time in my last year of high school.

also i never drew much as a kid because i thought i sucked at it. and i did. i wasn’t very creative and the assignments in art class never made sense to me. but sanders sides was so important to me that one day i thought.. damn… i have to draw this specific image i have in my head of these guys or else!

which provided three things: a nice peaceful way to cope during that bad year of high school in 2017-2018, nice online friends who i could talk to when i had nobody else, and also the idea that i do like drawing and that maybe i could get better at it with practice.

and i’m not much better now than i was before (many other artists i’ve seen have had much more radical transformations) but i have developed some sense for aesthetics and stuff that i didn’t have and i also realized that i would like to know more graphic design.

which led me to think that a major thing i want to do as a professional is write and illustrate science articles. another huge part of what i am becoming, with great consequences for my future, thanks to me forcing myself to draw these silly characters in silly situations because i knew nobody else would.

…

so yeah. everyone say thank you jon…

that’s all i can think of but it’s probably enough. i don’t know if anyone will read through all this but i felt like wasting a little time and sharing this.

goodnight.

Headless has wrapped! Here’s some bts photos from the nights leading up to it, and last night :)

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GeekyCon 2016 is off to an exciting start! This year’s event kicked off with a slew of awesome panels, surprise pop-ups, and a killer opening ceremony featuring the four Hogwarts house ghosts. What do ghosts do for fun? Geek out in book clubs, obviously! Especially with new stories like Cursed Child to sink their spectral teeth into.

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