#lesbian tc
I got drunk with some friends last night. A few of them are ex-students of Starlight as well so we took a selfie together and sent it to her. That kind of became a tradition, whenever we are together at a party or somewhere having fun, I sent a pic of us to Starlight.
If you had told me a few years ago that I would be able to text her drunk in the middle of the night I would’ve said that you’re crazy. But here we are. And I’m so so greatful for that
Alright. It’s been month since I updated you guys on Starlight but hell….a lot has happened so I’m keeping up in the next fe posts ❤
Starlight picked a piece for the concert next week that is so utterly perfect that my heart aches and is filled with joy at the same time when I listen to it. Every single note containeds her smile and her name is written all over it. Some music sums up all the pain and all the happiness one can feel.
Sorry for being so corny, but no matter what I do, she will always be the one for me. I love her beyond words and everything about her is so beautiful that it hurts. I’m feeling this way since 9 years and I doubt that it will ever fade.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! honey same!!! my tc like deadass picked a similar piece and it just……. makes me think of what being held in her arms would feel like
There is a certain type of music that is just as powerful as her. Like you can feel her excitement for the piece when you listen to it and I can literally see her conducting that exact piece in my mind and see her smile at some moments . And in concerts I know exactly the moments she will look at me and make eye contact, CAUSE SHE KNOWS WHICH PARTS WE BOTH LOVE. And I love those moments on stage where we are in front of everyone and there are so many eyes looking at us and everything just disappears the moment we look at each other.
Starlight picked a piece for the concert next week that is so utterly perfect that my heart aches and is filled with joy at the same time when I listen to it. Every single note containeds her smile and her name is written all over it. Some music sums up all the pain and all the happiness one can feel.
Sorry for being so corny, but no matter what I do, she will always be the one for me. I love her beyond words and everything about her is so beautiful that it hurts. I’m feeling this way since 9 years and I doubt that it will ever fade.
Your smile is the best thing in my life. When I’m with you everything suddenly makes sense. You are everything I want and everything I need. I will never get tired of looking into your beautiful eyes.
i found what perfumem wears and let’s just say — happy bean. also she has this sea green shirt i love on her, and two mustard tops i adore.
Just keep that perfume! I asked Starlight once which one she uses and bought it. We both still use it and honestly there’s nothing better than wearing a sweater that smells entirely like her it’s like she’s always with me.
9/12/2019
I saw her twice today. She stood at the window and I was outside. Her face was serious and she sorted some papers, but when she saw me standing outside her face brightened and she smiled at me.
Later when I came to fetch the music sheets she hugged me (as she always does ) It’s still a huge deal for me that she hugs me in front of all her students. I graduated a few years ago and it’s so nice to see how far we’ve come since then. There were a few others who came with us to the teachers room, but her focus was on me the whole time.
I’m excited to see her next monday ❤ first time since summer where we have some time alone. Also I love being at her house.
December TC challenge
are you giving/doing anything for you tc for the holidays?
I always text her on christmas eve. It’s the most important thing about christmas to send her some greetings and she always replies immediately. Last year I gave her a big care package with lots of food, some warm crazy socks and a little cuddly toy that you can put into the microwave to warm you. She gave me a book and I was completely surprised, cause I would never though that she would get me a gift.
December TC imaginechallenge
describe the perfect december day with your tc
I would pick her up at her house for a walk, cause she loves snow. She’s wearing her grey hat in which she looks absolutely adorable in. We would walk through the park and update each other about our lives. To remind her of the snow fight she once started I would pick up some snow that I throw at her. She would follow the invitation and start a fight.
Back at her house our cheeks are red, our hands frozen and my sweater is completely wet, because she managed to stiff some snow into it.
She would offer me a dry sweater and some warm socks before she smilingly pulls out two cups from the shelf in her kitchen “I suppose you need something to warm you up?” She’d say as she prepares everything to make mulled wine.
We would sit in the living room with our hot cups and at one point she would stand up to fetch a blanket. I would be polite and sit next to her on top of the blanket, but she would offers me to slip under the blanket as well, because she wants to protect me from freezing.
We would be laughing a lot, but also sharing our hopes, dreams and biggest fears, as we watch the sky getting darker and darker. At the end she would hug me tight and say “we should do this more often”
How I ended up smashed with Starlight and some other teachers, discussing our underwear pt.1:
“I’m sorry, but the bar is already closed.”
“Can’t you just sell us one bottle of wine?”, Starlight said pleadingly, “Just one bottle?”
The bar keeper sighed. “Ok, just one.”
“Thank you very much! You saved our evening” she said, poked me with excitement and took the bottle back to our table.
“I promised you a good evening and I’m keeping my promises” she whispered before she opened the bottle.
“What are we supposed to do with only one bottle? There are four of us. Five if T returns.”
“You’re right”, Starlight said and she shrugged, “but it’s better than nothing.”
“I know who has more booze than any youth hostel can offer”, her colleague said and ginned at her.
“You really wanna do that, huh?”
“Yes I do.”
“Ok, let’s do it.”
Starlight stood up and implied with a gesture that I should follow her. “We’re gonna go for a hunt”, was all she said. We went upstairs. A few doors, words and a disappointed looks on her colleagues face later we found what we were looking for.
“It’s the boys dorm”, she said with excitement in her voice. Her colleague knocked then opened the door immediately.
“That’s what I suspected. Boys, hand over the booze or I have to call your parents and the headmaster!”, his voice was calm but strict. When he came out if the room again he grinned and presented his pray. A big bag full of bottles and beer cans. Starlight and I tried to hold our laughter back.
“So, what are we gonna do with all that alcohol?” I asked back at the table.
Starlight smiled at me. “I promised you a good evening. Let’s have one!”, and she handed me a glass filled with rum and coke. “We can’t square with our conscience that the students are drinking that much on a school trip”, her colleague said mockingly and grabbed a beer.
Building a home pt. 2
After our first concert she drove me home which meant about 3 hours with just the two of us.
We talked about a lot of things and at one point I started to tell her about a woman in the orchestra that I was in love with. That way I could tell her everything that was on my mind and discuss it with her without the need of confessing my feelings for her.
When we were nearly at home I said that I didn’t want to go home yet and she agreed. She looked at me with a big smile on her face and said: “How do you feel about Dinner and one last Beer?” So we drove to a restaurant to spent some last moments together.
We talked a lot about her divorce and she told me things that I’m pretty sure she only told a few close friends. I can’t describe how it feels to be so close to her, to have her trust. She always was like a beautiful rare flower to me, but she was behind glass. I was never able to really touch her. I could only glare at her from a distance. Seeing her so vulnerable yet so strong is like somebody destroyed the glass between us. It’s like a beautiful painting that came to life.
Building a home pt.1
Another big thing that happened was our last orchestra project. She didn’t want to come in the first place, but her best friend and me sent her a voicemail and convinced her to come. And she came.
So we spent some days together talking, dancing, drinking, laughing and crying. She actually forgot that she was my teacher once and I had to remind her. Then we were mistaken for sisters and she told a very convincing story about me being her half-sister. One evening we watched a DVD all together from a previous project. She started crying and when the lights went on I realised that there were only a few people in the room who knew why and I was one of them. I hugged her to make her feel better and she buried her face in my shoulder. But we also laughed a lot and danced to crappy music while drinking cheap wine.
This place with those crazy and incredibly talented people is our home, our family. And I’m glad she made her way back.
November TC Challenge
6) what was your first impression of them?
Funny story. I thought: “wow she’s beautiful, but sadly she’s not my type.” cause I was a stupid teenager and only had crushes on women with blue eyes and blonde hair before. I was 13 and didn’t think I could fall in love with her. Oh boy, I was so wrong.
November TC Challenge
5) what’s your favourite memory with them?
Since I’m lucky enough to have 10 years of memories to chose from it’s very hard to pick one.
The day I helped her move into her new flat I was the last one to stay with her. Everyone had gone home and she offered me a glass of wine and because she had no appropriate glasses we drank it out of a coffee cup. We sat down on a mattress (that was her bed at that time ) and talked about everything. I felt so close to her in that moment and she told me about her childhood, her dreams, her hopes and fears.
A few month later she drove me home. The time in the car was already amazing, but when we got close to the city we live in we decided that none of us wanted to go home yet so we ended up going to a restaurant together.
And a memory that is many many years old. When I was still her student she helped me out many times. And after one of our meetings she hugged me so tight that I could feel her heartbeat. We stood there for minutes and when I hugged her a bit tighter she hugged back.
I could list so many more moments she makes me so incredibly happy and I know that I am the luckiest person on earth to be her friend.
