it didn’t fade over summer, i still love him so much

the only good part about the community being kind of small “nowadays” is that i can be quite sure no one on here is my irl thirsting over my tc, honestly

whenever i looked up in the last lesson he was already looking at me. i couldn’t keep the eye contact unfortunately and broke it every time :/ i’m gonna try to hold it next time though!!

what do people without teacher crushes even think about while falling asleep???

if i don’t fucking stop reading about age gap relationships and start working on my assignments right now….

not me going to the toilet after the last period hoping to bump into him afterwards since i knew he had to stay in class a bit longer…

which actually happened, we walked to the parking lots together!!

The other day in class L was being more hostile (maybe I’m just sensitive though)

First she came over to check our work that we were doing in pairs and she was like ‘guys you need to do the work together. You cant just have one person do everything then the other isnt learning everything. Do it together please.’ insinuating that I did everything because it was well done but i didnt and it hurt my feelings

Then we were outside and i was mad so i took out my book instead of doinf work. She came to check on us and she was like cmon put the book away no wasting time

Pissing her off was just a tiny bit fun… Idk why i feel like i always have to be so perfext

I walked past L today and she smiled at me and now I can’t stop thinking about it

Imagine washing their hair when theyre not feeling well. Not in a sexual way, just brushing through their hair gently and pouring warm water onto them. Trusting eachother fully.

Having a tc makes going to school so much better. The anticipation of maybe bumping into them in the corridors? The looking for them everywhere you go? The giddiness you feel when they smile at you or are nice to you? They make it all worth it.

7. 5.22

So L was back today!!! She was feeling better but still recovering so her voice was a little sick sounding (super hot btw)

We were doing boring stuff because she couldnt talk much,but she was in a super chatty and nice mood. It was so sweet, she was talking and joking with everyone, reminicing about stuff from before. She even randomly just started joking with me and it wa so nice.

I asked her what she was sick with and she said she got covid :( I am just glad it wasnt too bad, she said it was like the flu.

I love when she is chatty. She is so adorable and kind. She remembers and thinks so sweetly about students of hers from years ago. She’s so kind and sweet.

Sometimes i get so jealous of other students who seem to be so friendly with L without putting in half as much effort that I do. Like i work so hard and put so much effort to be close to her, and some random kid who doesnt even think twice about it gets along better? Are you serious?

Does anyone else always think they see their tc when they actually arent there? Like in public, i always think i see L walking around or sitting somewhere but when i get closer i realize it isnt her. It even happens at school sometimes

I got my grades back for the 3 tests i did for L’s class I got an two A’s and a B+ I’m kinda mad that I got a B+ and not 3 A’s but its whatever. I’m just thinking about it… my L have me an A

L has been sick for two days :( I’m worried about her, she never gets sick or takes days off. I really hope that she’s okay and resting… I miss her

i will teach myself to love you

merely from afar,

because loving you partially

is better than not at all

26.4.22

UGH I had class with L today but we were doing tests so I just sat there and worked on another assignment for our whole period :( I had to go to fricking IT too because my charger was being a pain so I got to talk to her a little bit lol

She looked really pretty today. Sometimes I have to remind myself to stop staring because I’m just so mesmerized by her.

I don’t have much to say about today since class was so uneventful but I think our next class will be nice again.

wearing rose quartz earrings and bringing a little rose quartz in my pocket for my exam with L was a good move…it went well!!! i wasn’t as nervous as i thought i’d be. and she was as awesome and pretty as she always is. i wish i could’ve spent more time with her today though :(

gave L a compliment today and i have an exam with her tmr one on one… feeling very emotional

hello guys its almost the end of spring break i’m excited to see L again