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My beautiful fiancee & I enjoying another great date night #VegasLocals #DTLV #FremontStreet
Evolving involves Eliminating.
Blessings
This has been by far the toughest year of my entire life . By the grace of God I am still here.
My parents have been my rock. My kids have saved me. And she has been my back bone.
Onwards and upwards.
“If I die young - bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses, sink me in the river at dawn - send me away to the words of a love song.”
Our story #1
She said she’s got me
She’s got me when my heart bleeds
When my tears run
And my fears speak
She said “baby talk to me”
But I cant speak
Cuz I cant breathe.
God save me
From me and me alone
Throw stones
Break my bones
Feeling all alone.
Im leaving scars on top of scars
Marks on top of marks
Tears drowning out tears
Plucking out my hairs.
Sick of the pills
Sick of the lies
Try to convince my self that the lies are fine
Self destruct
I dont trust
No one
Not even myself.
Full of shit pricks
That chip chipped
But I don’t give a shit shit -
Anymore.
One step forward
And 10 steps back
Wishing for a heart attack -
So I dont have to live in self hate
Open up the gate
To the place where I belong
Hell is home.
Running in rage
Right to my grave
Spilling these words
It’s the only spilling that works.
Sip sip on poison
You can’t give give
me a reason to stay.
Let my heart skip skip
Several beats
Survived several bleeds
Been on my knees
Begging please
Take me now
Or I’ll take my plea
Guilty!
Head loss
Vision fogged
Thoughts blocked
Can you help me.
Full stop
No question mark
Rhetorical question
Cuz I know you can’t.
Lost control
But all I know
Is that my humming bird has got me.
Full on collision
Crashed in to my reflection
Brittle
Broken
Barely living.
But she says “baby I got you”
Words I didnt know that I’ve been longing to hear.
Clear clear my thoughts.
My healer got me healing
Feeling -
Loved
Bleeding -
Blood
I’m - fiending for love
Unfolding my self like a scrunched up piece of paper being unravelled
Imperfection
Bumpy gravel
But I’m learning to walk again.
I’m going to treat others how they treat me and I’m going to act how they say I act.
You bring me to climax without sex.
4.48 psychosis
She swallowed over one hundred pills, but was then found and taken to a hospital, had her stomach pumped and survived.
Unfortunately after that she was left unattended by the hospital staff for over an hour before she was found in the hospital lavatory, where she had hanged herself with her shoelaces.