Sapphire Dyer

Rose from the ashes after my feathers went up in flames

Recycling the victims of a hate crime, like it’s a game

Roll the dice

Same colour but a different name

It’s a-shame.

Infinitive steps backwards

Mind spiralling uncontrollably

I can’t change my black

But that’s why you’re coming after me

You can’t dilute this kingdom

So you might have to just kill me

I bleed black power

So you’ll be spreading me all over these streets.

Think twice

Act fast

My silence wont last.

You thought

Brittle black

break that black…

But I rose from the ashes after my feathers went up in flames.

It’s a shame

That you thought this black was the same.

-Saffy D

Our story #1

She said she’s got me

She’s got me when my heart bleeds

When my tears run

And my fears speak

She said “baby talk to me”

But I cant speak

Cuz I cant breathe.

God save me

From me and me alone

Throw stones

Break my bones

Feeling all alone.

Im leaving scars on top of scars

Marks on top of marks

Tears drowning out tears

Plucking out my hairs.

Sick of the pills

Sick of the lies

Try to convince my self that the lies are fine

Self destruct

I dont trust

No one

Not even myself.

Full of shit pricks

That chip chipped

But I don’t give a shit shit -

Anymore.

One step forward

And 10 steps back

Wishing for a heart attack -

So I dont have to live in self hate

Open up the gate

To the place where I belong

Hell is home.

Running in rage

Right to my grave

Spilling these words

It’s the only spilling that works.

Sip sip on poison

You can’t give give

me a reason to stay.

Let my heart skip skip

Several beats

Survived several bleeds

Been on my knees

Begging please

Take me now

Or I’ll take my plea

Guilty!

Head loss

Vision fogged

Thoughts blocked

Can you help me.

Full stop

No question mark

Rhetorical question

Cuz I know you can’t.

Lost control

But all I know

Is that my humming bird has got me.

Full on collision

Crashed in to my reflection

Brittle

Broken

Barely living.

But she says “baby I got you”

Words I didnt know that I’ve been longing to hear.

Clear clear my thoughts.

My healer got me healing

Feeling -

Loved

Bleeding -

Blood

I’m - fiending for love

Unfolding my self like a scrunched up piece of paper being unravelled

Imperfection

Bumpy gravel

But I’m learning to walk again.

Sometimes my silence screams as well.

The waves sway like uncle at a reggae dance
Side to side
My uncle glides
Rocking his body to the beat
As everyones eyes follow his sway
Uncle rockaway.
His body eases to the music
Then he grabs aunties waist
They float across the dance floor
Making everlasting memories
Smiling into eachothers eyes
That’s how loves meant to be
He gives her a peck on her warm soft cheek
Then takes her hand so they can take a seat.
His loose silk shirt
lightly blows in the breeze
As his little plaits jump to the beat.
The next day we got news he had past away
Pain hit me like a truck or a train
Heart burned like I was inflamed
Eyes watered like I was engulfed by a tsnami
This cant be!
My heart got heavy as they filled his hole
My mind went blank
As I watched him float
Like a feather on air.
Uncle rock away like a boat afloat
Uncle rock away to the sound of calypso.
Fly uncle fly
My angel in the sky
Rockaby uncle on a cloud top
Uncle don’t drop
My love wont stop.
Sway uncle sway
Wave uncle wave
Uncle’s so slick
His memory will stay.

Should’ve Could’ve Would’ve,
Didn’t Didn’t Didn’t.

I write because no one LISTENS.

Speak to me. Do not yell.

How can emptiness be so heavy?

It’s fucked to think that the one person who keeps me afloat is the same person who drowns me. 

The storm within her raged on.