#secret crush on you the series
Nuea’s breakdown wasn’t due to insecurity issues. Unlike Sky that has shown multiple times that he doesn’t think he’s as good as his friends or good enough for Jao, Nuea is full of confidence. Just as some basic examples, our Bi-King is also the King of Exhibitionists and look at the way he deals with people- always calm and collected. Dude knows who he is and what he wants, and no one can shake him.
However, Nuea is also a smart guy. He listens. He pays attention. He makes completely rational inferences based on the evidence in front of him. This breakdown was just like the “Every time I say hi to him, he calls me shit” problem.
I mean, imagine that you had a lover you were so happy with and planned to be with forever, and every other day they talked about “When we break up.” Of course it’s going to sound like they have one foot out the door already.
That break down wasn’t because he thinks he’s unworthy or anything, it was just because (for good reason) he felt like Toh wasn’t 100% in with their relationship- and in a way he was right. Toh was still idolizing Nuea (A la 美しい彼) and therefore totally sure that this was a temporary daydream that he will have to hold onto via his trash in the future. All of this of course stems from Toh’s insecurities, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt Nuea.
This is all the more reason Nuea’s breakdown really needed to happen. Toh needed to see him as human, not an idol or a dream, but as a real man who loves him and wants his love in return.
Secret Crush on You said “You know all those people you’ve been mocking in BL for years? The feminine boys, the chubbier people, the overly invested fans, the queer friends? What if they were people? What if they were loved? What if they truly mattered, to each other and to the world and to the people that you have held in such high esteem all along? What if the engineers loved these boys, loved them with all their hearts and their souls and they were the ones being chased, the ones being pursued, the ones being loved?” and ran with it.
And the end of Secret Crush on You says exactly what the show has been saying to us this entire time… you are loved. you are worthy of love, you can love. you can love with gentle words and you can love with kindness and you can love with acceptance and you can love with softness and you can love easily. you can love even when you’re scared and you can love when you’re hurt and you can love because you are human and you are worthy. you can love, you will love, you are loved. let yourself be loved.
Jao’s the one who reaches out and Sky’s the one who takes his hand and they want inside to meet Sky’s mom and we know, we know, their future is bright and full of love.
Sky and Jao and the world’s sweetest date of love and softness and sharing memories and building a future together.
The handfasting, the blessing, the way Toh’s mother and the father love not just their son but all of his friends, all of their lovers, all of the family they’ve made and the love they’ve found and the way it is treated as only what is natural and right, to love them and support them and to show them how much they matter, to their families and to each other and to the people around them. They are told to care for each other, to love each other, to talk and to be calm and to let themselves just be in love and it’s beautiful.
I absolutely adore how brave Nuea is to try and speak to Toh’s father on his own despite his fears and how hard he’s trying for Toh and hos much he’s doing for Toh and it’s adorable I love him so much, what a good boyfriend. He just wants Toh to be happy and he knows that he has to have his family’s approval to do that and I just love that so much, that he tries and he tries and then everyone is watching them and Toh’s mom is the one that goes over and explain and they are just the literally softest boys ever this show is so sweet.
