#shadow integration

MOON FEELING FUNK

My YOLA logs prove that I don’t usually do write ups that I post during the Capricorn Moon. I tend to think they may be too dark and gloomy for others. And my wounded inner self has a habit of withholding such information due to “shadow fearing” that is commonplace in humanity. But she is unlearning ‘cause a true Moon woman knows that her the Luna Goddess fluctuates in nature, therefore a first rule of moon engagement is never, never deny her phases nor hide her faces.

Today I shift with the Moon and rest in the melancholy, gloomy and pessimistic side of this Saturn influenced Moon and how Capricorn Moon days can sometimes mix up feelings with business. The current Sun shy weather coincides. So if you’re experiencing a downshift in the feeling spectrum then I am confirming that you are not alone and you are on Moon point. Don’t despair. It is the Capricorn Moon nipping at your heart. Plus Pluto’s influence can tint this Moon time with a blend of gloom and doom. Sucks right? But don’t fight it! Breathe and be right….with it! 

The Moon just went over my natal Sun and transiting Pluto in my 4th house and has been illuminating and taking me back to my roots. Conversations with my ancestors, childhood memories resurfacing; the feeling of repressed trauma awakening in an effort to be released; reflections on “home” and what it means to me while honoring the need to be by myself. It’s a deep call from beyond to “go home”.  And a sneaky feeling that this world does not feel like home.

Yesterday I read a story of an unsuccessful suicide attempt of an African American female doctor. It was during the Capricorn Moon and now I see the need to define suidice attempts as “a call to go home”.

The experience of any Moon placement will depend directly on the area of your life (chart) it is moving through and its aspects to other planets. You may certainly not be having a “home, mother, family or roots experience like I am having with my Capricorn 4th house Sun, but you are definitely dancing with the Moon - conscious or not! 

I promise you that how ever you are feeling, it will soon lift when the Moon shifts into Aquarius later tonight. Meanwhile it’s a great day to plan, organize and be with the Moon Funk tunes.

EMOTIONAL MATURATION

SUN, MOON, MERCURY & VENUS in CANCER says let’s TALK about the FEELINGS and the DARK side of our RELATIONSHIPS and the way we do MONEY. Let’s not hide them in the SHADOWS. Feeling horrible? Don’t hide it. Feeling lonely? Don’t try to hide it! Feeling upset? Ride it!!!

Truth is ALL our FEELINGS are birthed in the SHADOWS until they are expressed, out in motion. Feelings derive from our shadow, unconscious world. It is the expression, the movement of those instinctual sensations that honors the heart Energy’s need to be in Motion. (E-Motion) Problems develop the moment we begin to hold them in for FEAR of something we have imagined.

You can RUN from whatever, or whomever triggered those FEELINGS but you can’t HIDE from them or from yourself.

Example: a longtime Facebook friend. After writing a review for my book, and I extended the discussion on promoting it with her, She agreed to one of my ideas but choked on the second one. This one turned the light on her SHADOW. I could feel it although we were miles apart. She was uncomfortable with my request for reasons created and held by her SHADOW. But instead of her focusing on the FEELINGS that surfaced from deep within her, instead of expressing how it made her FEEL or what came up for her she flipped the script on me! I could literally see her emotional demons swirling around her vying for her sincere attention. She instead turned it on me and criticized my asking. EMOTIONAL AVOIDANCE - a moon dis-ease many many women suffer from.

So she chose to UNFRIEND me without saying anything to me. Now that is hilariously SHADOWY!! Insincere, shady & femininely treacherous. For You can NOT eliminate the TRIGGER person! I triggered her deep SHADOWY emotions but she had no clue. She only reacted from the very same SHADOW place. She saw it as me and not her. How many of us are guilty of that?

EMOTIONAL DODGING!!!

This stellium in CANCER offers us a chance to MATURE EMOTIONALLY. I believe that is what MOTHERHOOD is meant to teach us….for our children pull out and challenge our own emotional inner child and we often times react from our childlike selves. EMOTIONAL E-DISCIPLINE, E-MATURITY, E-WISDOM are fundamental to our WELL BEING!

Be WISE with the FEELINGS!

Try not to Project Instead…REFLECT! We have so much to learn about our FEMININE ESSENCE - we are so far behind, remaining in the Dark. We need to catch up with our MOON selves!! The Cancer Season is here to guide us!!

Love
Mama Surya

YOLA ☀️♋️
The Yoga of Living Astrology