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EMOTIONAL MATURATION

SUN, MOON, MERCURY & VENUS in CANCER says let’s TALK about the FEELINGS and the DARK side of our RELATIONSHIPS and the way we do MONEY. Let’s not hide them in the SHADOWS. Feeling horrible? Don’t hide it. Feeling lonely? Don’t try to hide it! Feeling upset? Ride it!!!

Truth is ALL our FEELINGS are birthed in the SHADOWS until they are expressed, out in motion. Feelings derive from our shadow, unconscious world. It is the expression, the movement of those instinctual sensations that honors the heart Energy’s need to be in Motion. (E-Motion) Problems develop the moment we begin to hold them in for FEAR of something we have imagined.

You can RUN from whatever, or whomever triggered those FEELINGS but you can’t HIDE from them or from yourself.

Example: a longtime Facebook friend. After writing a review for my book, and I extended the discussion on promoting it with her, She agreed to one of my ideas but choked on the second one. This one turned the light on her SHADOW. I could feel it although we were miles apart. She was uncomfortable with my request for reasons created and held by her SHADOW. But instead of her focusing on the FEELINGS that surfaced from deep within her, instead of expressing how it made her FEEL or what came up for her she flipped the script on me! I could literally see her emotional demons swirling around her vying for her sincere attention. She instead turned it on me and criticized my asking. EMOTIONAL AVOIDANCE - a moon dis-ease many many women suffer from.

So she chose to UNFRIEND me without saying anything to me. Now that is hilariously SHADOWY!! Insincere, shady & femininely treacherous. For You can NOT eliminate the TRIGGER person! I triggered her deep SHADOWY emotions but she had no clue. She only reacted from the very same SHADOW place. She saw it as me and not her. How many of us are guilty of that?

EMOTIONAL DODGING!!!

This stellium in CANCER offers us a chance to MATURE EMOTIONALLY. I believe that is what MOTHERHOOD is meant to teach us….for our children pull out and challenge our own emotional inner child and we often times react from our childlike selves. EMOTIONAL E-DISCIPLINE, E-MATURITY, E-WISDOM are fundamental to our WELL BEING!

Be WISE with the FEELINGS!

Try not to Project Instead…REFLECT! We have so much to learn about our FEMININE ESSENCE - we are so far behind, remaining in the Dark. We need to catch up with our MOON selves!! The Cancer Season is here to guide us!!

Love
Mama Surya

YOLA ☀️♋️
The Yoga of Living Astrology

VALIDATING MARS

“Mars creates conflict. Conflicts reveals our wisdom. They reveal our strengths. They reveal our weaknesses. Conflict can push us past what is comfortable and towards what we need to develop within ourselves.

Mars moves us. Mars is energy. Red, hot, untamed energy. Mars is drive. Mars is passion. Mars makes us aware of our desires. Our desire to be an individual. Our desires to do what we want. Our desires are dangerous if we deny them. They demand entrance into our life. Desires are not arbitrary. Desires are road maps that lead us toward our potential.”    - Chani Nicholas

It’s a Mars Mars time for all of us! I feel the energy and motion or lack thereof, of my own. My Mars happens to be in the workaholic sign of Virgo.  And ironically my work has never been clear cut, given its in the most hidden house. I just started a new part-time job to gain financial momentum. There is a concentration of Mars through the initial stellium in Aries that remains present. I now accept my position and place in the battle field of life. 

Not having much of the visible male energy around in my home, after daddy took off, leaving a void in the Martian side of my heart. But I had to learn how to defend myself with no daddy or masculine figure around and available.  I was sensitive and peaceful but I fought back if anyone tried to fuck with me. 

Standing with my back turned one day in class, I was attacked from the rear. A classmate and obvious enemy hit me. My instinct was to hit back and I did just that. I let a punch roll on her jaw. I kicked and slapped her down. We were in the classroom, but the session was over and we were in between sunbjects. Don’t recall where the teacher was or what became of that. One thing’s for sure I was not the trouble making type. I was more of the good smart girl. A fine example for others because they say I embodied, brains, body and did not hold back my blows. And as time went they became verbal blows! This is the side to me that didn’t come out unless there is a cause to fight. And I am known to fight with words. My pen is my sword. 

I grew up in a peaceful nation where war in relationships were never hindered or prevented. We threw “pqweety”. Haha… I know I got the spelling wrong of of that tongue twister but make no mistake I know how to pronouce that African native slang. Pqweety means “to fight”, to throw someone down! To engage the warrior! 

As Mars begins to slow down (retrograde) his war flaming chariot, it is shifting the full force of the Sun and Uranus in Aries into lower gear. I’ve already had sandpaper and open encounters with two women I know through social media. Not face to face but remotely. Nevertheless. I am well aware of my Taurus Moon’s ease and groundedness that was implemented time and time again while growing up in an explosive Aries dominated home.

Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride! No body’s gonna hold me down!

Due to the lower vibrations of Mars cultivated and practiced by those men that came before us, we tend to hate and despise war for all the wrong reasons. War has lost its honor, its glory, its respect as a result.  But we are war driven by nature, war instigators by habit. It is our natural urge to protect and defend; a built in instinct. It is also in charge of our sexual currents and passion filled acts. Without Mars we would be flat, monotone, weak and lazy, 

This Mars retrograde in Sagittarius seeks to help us see WAR in a higher way. We have stopped fighting for what we heartfully know and believe. We have become complacent, compliant, cozy and comfortable in living lies and lying about our living.

During this retrograde…take time to get to know your Mars a bit more. Find out what the sexy or not do sexy inner man in you is like - if you are a woman.  There is something beautifully sexy, wholesome amd balanced about a radiant Mars.  Stand up for what you believe! Stand up for love! If you don’t you will fall for anything! 

Love and peace are both worth fighting for! You can be a peaceful warrior! Or a tyrannical one. The choice is yours. I’d rather die fighting with honor than live without the integrity of my soul.

“You can always die. It’s living that takes real courage.“ - Himura Kenshin”