#submission no matter where i am

Daily Picture Assignment #155

Happy hour outfit from last week. And yes, this dress has motherfucking pockets!

The final, and trickiest, context in which I need to show my submission is while out in public. Non-kinky public, that is.

Of course, one of the main ways I submit in public is by wearing the collar my owner put on me. I wear it all the time, to work, to see my parents, to go to the doctor. Its presence is a constant reminder that I am owned. It may just look like a (kind of strange) necklace to most people, but it’s also a signal to anyone in the know that I belong to someone. In addition, I submit in public when I wear outfits that my owner has picked out or inspired. The instructions may happen in private, but when we’re out and about, he can simply look at me to see an example of his power and control over me.

Another way I can submit while in public is by doing things for my owner. When he asks me to do something, I should recognize that he’s phrasing it as a question and adding the polite trappings of “please” simply because we’re in public. In reality, he’s giving me an order, so I should quickly and happily do as he asks. I should also be proactive in my submission, doing things for him without him needing to ask. I can certainly do this in public, since it will just look like I’m being a loving and attentive partner. Which is true, but I’m also being a good girl.

While in public, I can still follow through with one of the central aspects of my submission to my owner, asking permission to pee. It isn’t quite the same as when we’re among like-minded people or at home, since he can’t press on my bladder or taunt and tease me as openly. I’m still required to get permission before I piss, though, either quietly so no one can hear, or by phrasing it in a socially acceptable way, such as “Is it okay if go to the bathroom real quick?” And, of course, my owner can still deny me that permission, forcing me to try to hide my growing desperation.

Finally, someone on tumblr (Thank you, stryger1, who I can’t seem to actually @) sent me an ask with a suggestion that I thought was a really good idea. I ran it by my owner, and he liked it, as well. So, from now on, when we’re together, I have to wait for permission from my owner before I can start eating a meal. When we’re in private or with kinky folks, I won’t start eating until he tells me I may, or, at least until this becomes more of a habit, I will ask him out loud for permission. In public, or with non-kink friendly people, I will look at my owner and wait until he gives me a nod to indicate that I may start eating.

I may not be able to be as overt with my submission in public, but if I keep my place and purpose in mind, and follow through with the ideas above, I can still show my owner that I am always his, am always submissive to him, no matter where I am or what I’m doing.

Daily Picture Assignment #153

Bruised bum.

Another excellent context during which I should show my submission is at kink events. Likely not for the entire time, since at those events I’m also there for myself, to socialize with friends, and for others who want to see me and spend time with me. But at times I’m not with anyone in particular, like when I’m just having a conversation with a group, I should take the opportunity afforded to me by the kink-friendly space to publicly display my submission

One important way I can demonstrate my submission at these events is through my attitude and the way I position myself. When he tells me to do something, I should be obedient and do as he says, of course, but I should also obey with a smile and a “Yes, sir.” Depending on the environment, when he is sitting, I should be on my knees on the floor/ground next to him, a visual reminder to me, him, and everyone else that I have submitted to him. And when given a command, such as “Get me water,” I should eagerly jump up and obey.

As part of submitting at events, if (j/k, when) I start to feel jealous, in addition to all the basic things like countering negative self-talk, reassuring myself, trying to be happy that someone I care about is happy, and finding distractions, I should remind myself of my place and my purpose. Yes, part of that is that he is my owner, so he has the right to do as he will and I, as his possession, shouldn’t complain, but there’s much more to it.

I should remember that my purpose is his pleasure and entertainment and that his happiness is the most important thing. Not that mine isn’t. Quite to the contrary, in fact. I have submitted to him and, as part of that, I have subsumed my wants, needs, and desires into his. When he has a positive experience, that should be a positive experience for me, as well, since it means my owner is enjoying himself. His happiness is my happiness. In addition, I can, and should, take comfort in the fact that, although he may enjoy playing with, fucking, and spending time with other people, I am his favorite toy. Our dynamic is unique and special to both of us. He is the only one who owns me and I am the only one he owns.

In addition to showing my submission at kink events through my attitude, I can do the same with my behavior. By being obedient when told to do something, of course, but going beyond that. I should anticipate his needs. When we get to happy hour, I should order him his drink without having to be told. At any event, really, I should bring him water and offer to carry his bag. As I already, said, when he is sitting, I should be on my knees. I should also make sure to go off and spend time apart from him, interacting with people on my own. I know this pleases him, both because it pushes me to do something I want to do but find difficult, and because he isn’t only there for me.

Finally, when we’re at kink events, I should be at my best when we play. I should offer to be useful as a practice bottom for him and serve as a demo bottom when he wants one. When we do scenes involving pain, I should take as much as he wants to give out. I should not try to block his strikes or twist away from his hands. When he’s hurting me, I need to remember that I want to make him proud. I want to do my best in front of everyone and prove how much pain and suffering I can handle. I want to show off what a good girl I can be for my owner.

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Daily Picture Assignment #151

Reaction Junkie’s happily owned submissive little cunt.

This week’s topic: Submission no matter where I am.

To illustrate this theme, I wrote today’s post while kneeling/sitting on the floor next to my owner at his workplace, since he had to go in on Sunday night.

I have submitted to my owner. This is a submission that exists any time, any place. No matter where, no matter when. My submission doesn’t end when I leave the house or while I’m at work. I need to find ways to show my submission wherever I am and whatever I’m doing.

The collar I wear 24/7 is a symbol of the ongoing and non-context dependent nature of my submission, my chosen place in relation to my owner, and his total ownership of me. This week I’m having a medical procedure, and my owner will have to remove my collar for it. During that time, that symbol won’t be present, but my submission still will be. I will keep in mind that even without the collar, he still owns me and I am still submissive to him. Just as he always does and just as I always am.

Then, when I get home, I will kneel before him as he places it around my neck. And with that, I will again have a constant reminder of his ownership and my submission, which I will proudly wear it for all to see.