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Daily Picture Assignment #124
New Year’s Eve outfit! Sheer dress with shiny shoes and shiny panties.
This was my second time ringing in the new year with my owner, and this time we actually went out! Sure, we left right after midnight, but at least we stayed that late..
I’m not normally much for resolutions, but this year I’m making some, and I thought I’d share a few. I’m making these in service of being a better friend, a better employee, a better partner, a better slut, and a better sub.
- I resolve to be more intentional about the work I do, my friendships, the play I do, my romantic/dating relationships, how I spend my free time, my health, and how I want my life to be.
- I resolve to communicate better (and respond more quickly), to say what I want and what I don’t want, and to be clear about boundaries and what I am capable of giving to people.
- I resolve to practice rope more often, especially with Reaction Junkie, and to do more topping in general.
- I resolve to be useful however I can be, both to my owner and to anyone he rents me out to or lets borrow me.
- I resolve to play with more people (contingent on energy and mood, of course).
- I resolve to get off more frequently and in more ways.
- I resolve to remember my place and to remind my owner of his place more often.
- I resolve to be more proactive in my submission, both by doing things without being asked, and by coming up with ideas to share.
- I resolve to expend that extra effort when I want to talk back, refuse, or disobey, and instead take a deep breath and remind myself of what I’ve said here and elsewhere.
- And I resolve to resist the urge to be sullen or pouty, and instead say “Yes, sir.” once I’ve taken that moment to focus on my submission.
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Daily Picture Assignment #123
Happy hour outfit from last night.
Reaction Junkie and I have a little protocol around what I wear. Whenever I’m going out, I ask him what to put on. I’m not asking him to pick out my whole outfit, mind, since that isn’t his strong suit. Instead, I ask him if I should wear a skirt, dress, or shorts. Now that it’s winter, I’ve replaced “shorts” with “pants” and “leggings.” I really like this protocol, since I get to feel that sense of being controlled and Reaction Junkie gets to make pick out some of my clothes, but without any of the pressure of having to pick out a full outfit.
While I don’t ask Reaction Junkie to make all of my clothing choices for me, sometimes I do ask for input when I can’t make up my mind about a particular aspect of my outfit. Last night was such an occasion. I couldn’t decide which boots to wear, these ones, or my big stompy boots. I was leaning towards the stompy ones, but wasn’t sure, so I put these on and asked Reaction Junkie what he thought.
He thought for a second and told me, “Those.” For a moment, I thought about disagreeing and wearing the other boots, but then I remembered my place. It doesn’t matter what I want. What’s important is what Reaction Junkie wants. Even if I think he might be wrong, and that a different course would be better, I need to listen to his decision. If it’s something major, I can, of course, speak up, but even then, if he still wants me to do what he initially said, I must obey. And if I disagree on something minor, I should, no, will obey without question. So I wore the boots that he picked.
The details of Reaction Junkie’s preference or order don’t matter. The important thing I that I remember that I’ve subsumed my preferences and wants into his. If I prefer something that runs contrary to what he wants, I will follow through with his desire. A particular decision may not be or even become what I would like, but by virtue of the fact that it is what Reaction Junkie prefers, I will want to follow through with it. I may not want it specifically, but going along with it will make me happy, because it will best please Reaction Junkie.
PS. Before anyone gets mad, the shirt is from A Softer World, and it’s making fun of people who act like that’s what feminism is about. Reaction Junkie has one, too, which results in some great interactions.
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Daily Picture Assignment #122
I gave Reaction Junkie a great gift this Christmas. Me.
It’s something he already owns, but it is his favorite possession, so I figured he wouldn’t mind if I gave it to him again.
I give him my body, my mind, and my heart. I offer him my submission. I cede power and control to him. I entrust him with the right to make decisions for and about me. I relinquish my past, present, and future to him. I give him my love.
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, sir. I hope you like your present.
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Daily Picture Assignment #27
Reaction Junkie occasionally mindfucks me and gaslights me unexpectedly. He likes to see how I react and watch my confusion and uncertainty develop. Sometimes I complain. I shouldn’t. Reaction Junkie can fuck with my mind and experiment on me however he likes. No IRB approval necessary.
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Daily Picture Assignment #24
On Friday, I woke up feeling kind of grumpy. Grumpy in general and grumpy at Reaction Junkie. It was mostly the result of not sleeping long enough or well enough, but also because something he’d said to me when I woke up in the middle of the night gave me a moderate case of the feels.
When I was trying to decide what to wear to work that day, one of my previous DPA posts came to mind. I considered wearing something besides my usual, but because I was grumpy, I initially pushed the idea aside.
Then I realized that this was a perfect opportunity. I should put forth that extra effort, not despite being grumpy with him, but because of it. Deciding to pick an outfit with Reaction Junkie in mind despite not being in the mood is an even better demonstration of my submission than if I were excited about doing it.
So, I put on a cute skirt and heels, and headed out to the office, pleased with myself for being good, even though I hadn’t felt like it.
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Daily Picture Assignment #21
My tongue belongs to Reaction Junkie.
Ways I’ve used it for him in the past:
- Talking
- Kissing
- Pleasing his cock
- Panting while being a puppy
- Being grabbed to make me uncomfortable
- Licking the last droplets off after he’s done pissing so he doesn’t have to shake
Ways I’ll use it for him in the future:
- Any way he wants
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Daily Picture Assignment #19
I’m not the biggest fan of my work clothes. I don’t feel like they’re attractive, and I don’t feel attractive in them. I compare myself to all the super well-dressed women I see in the city, with their smart outfits and jewelry and heels, and I find myself lacking.
From time to time I’ll put together an ensemble that I think makes me look both professional and attractive, but I don’t have the time or resources to do that very often. Most of the time, my day-to-day shirt and slacks leave me feeling bleh.
Reaction Junkie, on the other hand,likes how I look in my work clothes. He tells me that I’m sexy, even in those quotidian outfits I don’t put much effort into. I’m going to start believing him and accepting those compliments. What I think about it isn’t relevant. His opinion matters more than mine. What he thinks, goes.
Because he likes my base professional wardrobe so much, it really doesn’t take much for me to push it to the next level of attractiveness for him. I don’t have to put together a fancy outfit. Just wearing a skirt instead of slacks, a button down instead of my normal work shirt, heels instead of flats, and so on.
So, I’m going to accept that I look good in my normal shirt and pants, which will make me more confident, which will, in turn, make me more attractive. In addition, I’m going to start putting forth that (manageable) extra effort to be a sexy AND professional little feminist bitch for Reaction Junkie. He more than deserves it.
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Daily Picture Assignment #18
Like all of me, my ears belong to Reaction Junkie. I ought to use them and listen to him better.
When I say I should listen better, I mean more than simply being more obedient when he gives me instructions. While that is certainly something I should do, I also should truly listento him better.
Rather than simply doing what he tells me to do, I should pay attention to what he says outside of direct orders. For example, if, on the way home, he mentions being hungry, I shouldn’t wait until he asks or tells me to make him something to eat. I should recognize what he needs and get him a snack or meal before he gives me instructions. If he says he’s unhappy with the way the apartment looks, I should tidy up without him having to tell me to. When he expresses a desire to have his life be different in some way, I should be proactive and come up with ways I can to help him achieve that change.
And I shouldn’t just pay attention to his words, either. I should anticipate his desires even before he verbalizes them, possibly even before he realizes what he wants. If he seems thirsty, I should bring him a drink without waiting for him to say that he wants it. When he’s stressed out or down, I should work to reduce that stress and cheer him up without him needing to ask. He shouldn’t have to put forth much effort thinking of things for me to do and telling me to do them.
After all, I’m here to make his life better and easier. Part of that is listening and paying attention so that I can know and anticipate his wants and needs without needing instructions from him.
When he needs something, I should provide it without being asked. When he has a desire, I should satisfy it before he even expresses it. His wish is indeed my command.
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Daily Picture Assignment #17
On the train on the way to therapy, touching myself because I know it will make Reaction Junkie smile. I love making him smile. Because he owns me and I want to be good for him, of course, but also because I love him and want to see him happy.
I should be proactive in my submission more often. I should think of things to do for him, not just wait passively for instructions. Our d/s is a two way street. I think I forget the s-side of the slash and focus too much on the d-side, on being dominated, ordered around, and controlled. I’m going to spend more energy on my submission, by being more obedient, yes, but also by thinking of things to do for him without being asked. Proactive submission.
I ask him to remind me of my place frequently. It’s only right I should make an effort to remind him of his.
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Daily Picture Assignment #16
Still Reaction Junkie’s.
I may be on my way to a date with someone else. No matter. He’s being allowed to borrow me for a time. I still belong to Reaction Junkie. Body, heart, and mind.
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Daily Picture Assignment #15
Same outfit, different lighting.
I often get out the door a lot later than I intend. Much of that lateness is because I’m terribly indecisive about outfits, especially when I’m having a bad self-esteem day.
I know that can annoy the crap out of Reaction Junkie, so I decided to do something about it. With some people, I would ask them to pick out an outfit for me, but I know that’s not exactly Reaction Junkie’s forte.
Instead, I decided to tailor my submission to fit him, which is exactly what I ought to do. My submission to him isn’t all about what I like. It’s primarily about what he likes, and what he likes doing with me. I shouldn’t try to fit any given d/s dynamic into some mold, or match some other relationship. I need to take my submission and obedience, his dominance and ownership, our d/s, and cherish it for the beautiful unique thing it is.
So, this morning I asked him whether I should wear shorts, a skirt, or a dress. That way, he got to make decisions about my clothes, without requiring much time or effort in his part. He told me I should wear a skirt, so I picked one out and built an outfit around it I thought he would like.
I satisfied my desire to be told what to wear while still focusing on what Reaction Junkie enjoys. And I got out the door faster, which means I’ll get to happy hour sooner, which means I’ll get to see him earlier, which means I’ll be screaming, crying, laughing, and cuddling as soon as possible.
PS. This skirt has pockets and it’s fantastic!
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Daily Picture Assignment #92
My nicely bruised butt after the con this weekend..
I’m exhausted and dropping from the con this weekend. Overall, I’m really glad I went. There were some bad times, including some really low points, but on balance it was a lot of fun. I played with a lot of different people, and went to some useful classes.
I actually barely played with Reaction Junkie, which was disappointing, but did eventually lead to him resolving to play with me more at home, to take advantage of the amazing resource he has living with him.
I hope we’re able to follow through on that resolve. I miss being used by and useful to him. Not only does it make me feel needed and wanted, it makes me more cognizant of my place and my role.
I’m going to help him remember to take advantage of me, in all possible meanings of that phrase. He can use me as a fucktoy, three holes and a heartbeat. He can use me as a shoe remover. He can use me as a punching bag to get out frustrations. He can use me as a housekeeper, have me cook and clean and do laundry. He can use me as a friend and lover, someone to talk to and share with. He can use me as a practice bottom to hone his rope skills on. He can use me as decoration, truss me up and keep me at his feet while he works or games or watches shows.
He can use me for all of these things and more. I’m going to remind him of the ways I can be useful to him everyday, especially when he seems to have forgotten. I’ll not only thank him for it, I’ll beg him to do it again and again and again.
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Daily Picture Assignment #89
Trick or treat.
Or both.
My owner has rented me out/given me to friends to use in return for things like an ice cream sandwich or a steak dinner.
In essence, he’s had me turn tricks so he can get treats.
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Daily Picture Assignment #87
Hella sexy happy hour outfit from a few weeks ago, when Reaction Junkie was out of town.
I looked fantastic and got lots of compliments from people of all genders. It made me feel good, and I got to fulfill one of my purposes - being eye candy. I was sexy and cute and had a wonderful time talking to lots of different people.
I love when my outfits (and social skills) are successful like that. It makes me feel like I know what I’m doing and like I’m doing my owner proud, showing that I’m valuable property, worth his time and attention. Reaction Junkie would have been pleased.
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Daily Picture Assignment #86
I try to be good. I don’t always succeed.
I don’t like being punished, but it’s what I need.
I need to keep that in mind when I start to protest..
These punishments help me to do and be my best.
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Daily Picture Assignment #82
I stayed up late reading on Wednesday. Then, last night, I read while sitting on the couch instead of doing it while exercising, like I should have. When I talked to Reaction Junkie last night, I admitted that I was on the couch instead of the elliptical, and told him about staying up until 1 the previous night. He was displeased. In fact, he was kind of angry.
He told me that as a punishment, I wasn’t allowed to read anymore until he got home, because I was misusing it to stay up late, saying that I was supposed to read for twenty minutes at most. I protested and said in a bratty tone, “I was listening to a podcast while sitting on the couch, too.” Reaction Junkie responded that I wouldn’t be allowed to listen to podcasts either.
I got annoyed and said that the reading was supposed to be to get me to read at least twenty minutes, not to limit me to only twenty minutes. Reaction Junkie started to reply, but I kept interrupting, trying to explain myself and convince him to at least let me listen to podcasts while driving and working. He said no, I had to be in silence and think about what I’d done.
I continued interrupting until he got angry with me. He told me that I’d had my chance to talk, and it was now time for me to listen. He said that I’d wanted him to be more strict, and this was him giving me what I wanted. I started to protest again, saying that I didn’t like it, and trying to explain what I thought was a misunderstanding he’d had about something I said. He replied that I said I didn’t like it, but I kind of did. In the moment, I disagreed. We kept talking for a little while and he said I could listen to podcasts while actively working. Not long after that, the call dropped.
That was an awful showing on my part. I should know better. I shouldn’t have stayed up late. I shouldn’t have sat on the couch to lounge when I should have been exercising. And I especially shouldn’t have talked back or interrupted him. Because of course he was right. Once I had a few minutes to cool down, I saw that he hadn’t really misunderstood me, and that the punishments were fitting. If I’d accepted what he was saying right off, I know that I could have made a request to be allowed to listen to podcasts while driving and at work, and he likely would have been agreeable.
I’ve submitted to Reaction Junkie and I’ve asked him to be more strict with me. If I’m going to ask that of him, which requires more work and effort for him, I need to live up to my side of the bargain. I need to do as I’m told. And if I don’t manage to do that, I need to graciously accept whatever kind of discipline he thinks is warranted. Reaction Junkie owns me, he has power over me, he knows what’s best. And I need to respect that.
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Daily Picture Assignment #79
Two pussies between my legs.
Both of them belong to Reaction Junkie.
But only one of them is always desperate for his attention and approval.
(Hint: It’s not the cat.)
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Daily Picture Assignment #76
I belong to Reaction Junkie. He’s my owner and I’m his property.
My purpose is to please and entertain him. My purpose whatever he says it is. It’s whatever he wants me to do in that moment. If he wants to use my holes (or gives me to other to use) and treat me like a fucktoy, then my purpose is to be a fucktoy. If he wants me to focus at work and do a good job, then my purpose is to be a productive professional. If he wants me to bring him water and do his laundry and cook him dinner and clean the apartment, then my purpose is to do service.
I am whatever he wants, no matter if he’s directly using me or if it’s something that turns me on. The very fact that Reaction Junkie wants me to behave in a certain way or do certain things should be motivation enough, a turn on in and of itself, regardless of the particular behavior or activity at hand.
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