#teacher student
wearing rose quartz earrings and bringing a little rose quartz in my pocket for my exam with L was a good move…it went well!!! i wasn’t as nervous as i thought i’d be. and she was as awesome and pretty as she always is. i wish i could’ve spent more time with her today though :(
Yesterday he was…wow…again…I’m…more to that later
So this week the other courses have final exams and I didn’t know if T would be there at all. Today I hadn’t put on any makeup, my hair wasn’t washed so I had a ponytail and wore one of my loosest jumpsuits. In class I went to the toilet, walked through the door of the hallway and heard a key at the technics room. My heart started beating fast instantly and when I looked at the right, he stood there locking the door. We looked at each other, he looked like he was in shock and disbelieve to see me and said “Hiiii”, in such a surprising way I hadn’t heard out of his mouth ever before. I gasped and replied “Hello”, probably in my girliest tone. I found this whole situation very intense and don’t really know how to interpret this.
“Don’t mess with my mind
I’ve gone crazy when you look at me like this when I’m tired
‘Cause it’s never enough
Don’t mess with my mind”
~ EMO - Don’t Mess With My Mind (365 Days - This Day)
He is hot, cute, funny and sweet…everything at the same time
Today…all that x2…he literally doesn’t stop right now Never felt this appreciated by him
Today…actually…I can’t even remember everything cause it happened so much!
I wanted to talk to him so badly. We had a day off again but we filmed TikToks for the schools TikTok and I hadn’t talked to him properly since a while. He wore my favorite pullover of his. Anyways, my made up reason lead to a whole hour of complete attention! We asked him if we could talk to him, then he said he’d come into the room in a few minutes. There me and my best friend told him about the school Instagram and that we reached 800 followers, I told him that I’ve got an offer to film and cut an imagefilm for a fair and asked him if he would suggest that I could do it by myself all alone. He praised me so many times that I’m so good at that, that I should consider it but also gave me so many advices on how to work and decide on that. We talked about issues we have with another teacher that we know he has his problems with either. Then my best friend went outside to call her mom and literally. He NEVER SEEKED ACTIVELY SO MANY TALKS…EVER. I was studying for my Maths exam and first he was like “Good news! My car got through the tests of safety of technical installations and machinery. You know my car. It’s very old”, he talked about that for like 10 minutes, that he thought of selling it for a while but thinks he won’t do it, he winked at me when he caught me looking at him, then he suddenly said “Choosing pictures for Instagram is easy but grading them, pffff”, asked me if I would abolish grading in school if I could, we talked about his classes. About participation in classes generally, I told him about being insecure there and some more things like that I was very bad at Maths and now in this school I’m even one of the better students even there and he always listened attentive to everything I had to say. One time I wanted to say something and he wanted too, so we both started the sentence and interrupted each other which resulted in laughing so wholeheartly together. He also said that if we need help with choosing Insta posts he would always be there to help us, that he has three hours of freetime every Thursday between his classes and even outside, that we could look at the schedule when he’s in school to arrange other meetings outside of those Thursday at every time and he would love to help us. Actually I can’t remember everything that happened anymore. There was so much more but I forgot cause it was too much.
I am so happy. It was such a booster for my last exam tomorrow
TODAY WAS LITERALLY SO MUCH…WOW!!!!
I CAN’T PROCESS EVERYTHING…
He was soooo cute today…I hadn’t seem him since Wednesday…I had a day off today actually. Me and my best friend had a meeting today for a charity event we are planning for Ukraine in our school so we were in the room of the other training course and then he passed that room, saw me and started smiling so brightly. Never saw him smile so brightly, we both also wore no mask. He waved at me so cute, like he was excited as hell and I was like smirking more than ever before and said “Heyyy!”
This song got such a deep special meaning in my story with T.
I literally looked him in the eyes, tearing up while he played this song and the musicvideo in class.
“Music is an anchor for so many broken people. It often is something you can hold on when you can’t somewhere else.” - quote by T before he played this song
And btw…can he stop winking at me when he’s standing about twenty centimeters in front of me, looking down at me? That’s confusing
Heyy everyone! I’m very inactive atm, I have final exams the next three weeks, so interaction will become a little less…I have a lot of free days where I won’t be at school and I wanna focus on the exams
TC April challenge from@morethanwords0475
Day 1: Happy April Fool’s! Have you ever pranked your TC; if so, how did they react?
No
Day 2: What is the earliest thing you can remember about your TC?
Him introducing himself in our first class
Day 3: Do you like your TC’s subject? Do you consider yourself to be good at it?
Because of this subject I chose this school actually. I loved his subject and was the best student in class. He often asked me for advice and help when he couldn’t remember little things from After Effects or Premiere. So I would consider myself good at it
Day 4: How do you feel about your age gap?
Well when I discovered it was 37 years it was very hard to believe and a big shock. I had to think about all the disadvantages there would be and what effects the age difference could have but I love him and I consider myself mature enough to deal with those aspects
Day 5: Have you ever said anything to your TC that showed you favoured them? Have they said anything like that to you?
Not exactly but I always ask him for advice for literally everything, I try to show him that his opinion and advice is the most dear to me in school and on Christmas he asked if he could steal a cup mulled wine and I said “But just because it’s you!” And on special occasions he’s the only one to get special presents from me. He did not exactly say anything but he gave me a lot of extra exceptions for many things and often said loudly in class how good I was and that they should look at my work for best examples and he praised me literally all of the time. Never heard him praise the others work that much.
Day 6: Have you ever noticed any small habits that they have? If so, what comes to mind first?
He crosses his legs all the time. I never seen him sitting straight, always legs crossed. And he tends to look over his glasses :)
Day 7: What gift would you really like to be able to give them, regardless of if it’s realistic or not?
Possibly something punk related. He talks often about his time as punk in the 80s but I don’t want him to know that I remember this detail about him
Day 8: Does your TC ever talk about what it was like when they were still a student?
He told me that he had a mini job as student in university back then to hype up other students while they had their lectures. He and his friends needed to get drunk until 10am and storm into lectures just like that. And once a friend of his got pranked, they gave him alcoholfree beer and he felt drunk (a placebo effect) eventhough he had no alcohol in his blood.
Day 9: Does your TC have a significant other? If so, what do you know about them and how do you feel about them?
Well T is married to a woman that works as makeup and hair stylist. She is not the mother of his children and they live about 2 hours away from each other. It drives me crazy to know that they travel a lot together and yes, I hate her. I’ve seen her in TV and in real life from afar, she looks pretty and sympathetic which is more than hard for me.
Day 10: What is the longest time you have gone without seeing them?
2 months. When the first lockdown started we had about 4 months homeschooling, he’s the only teacher I’ve seen during lockdown cause my best friend, her ex boyfriend, T and me met to have a photographing tour in Berlin
Day 11: What do other people usually think about them?
He’s generally hated by any students. They find him annoying, boring, hate his subject. One mate in school who I usually love talking to never misses a oppurtunity to complain about him and tell me he hates him.
Day 12: Do you often make up excuses to speak to them? What kinds of excuses do you like to use?
Every week. I like to use excuses like the schools TikTok which was his idea in the first place, to help us choose pictures for the Instagram, ask him for useless advices (useless cause I often have made a decision but still want him to help me make one)
Day 13: Other than the subject they teach, what are they really passionate about?
He loves riding pennyboard, travelling, skiing, walks, music and watching movies
Day 14: What is a skill you really wish your TC had?
Being single. Jokes aside…probably to catch people with his teaching so they would start to respect him.
Day 15: Which MBTI personality do you think they are? (If you don’t do MBTI, which Hogwarts House do you think they would be in?)
He would absolutely be a Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw
Day 16: If you could go back in time and choose, would you still choose to develop feelings for your TC?
Probably yes. I’ve discovered a lot through loving him. Started to do a lot of selfcare, to develop a little sense of fashion, being more confident, always being present in school, not missing a single school day. Putting his needs over mine. Care for him in every imaginable way. I’ve learned so much from him as a person and individual being through talking with him and I wouldn’t have talked so much with him if it wasn’t for love
Day 17: If it was the last time you would ever be able to see your TC, what is one thing you would never leave without saying to them?
I would tell him about my love for him. The whole freaking story. How he is the second person ever to cross my heart.
Day 18: When was the first time you cried because of them?
Can’t remeber exactly. Probably during homeschooling cause I missed him.
Day 19: How well do you think you know them?
I would say I know pretty much about him cause he is telling me a lot about himself, mostly when we are alone :)
Day 20: Do you ever lie to them? About what?
No never lied to him. I just hide the fact that I’m smoking.
Day 21: What is the longest time you have spent together with them?
That was probably the day where my best friend and me invited him to a drink. We had class with him from 8am until 2pm and then went together to a bar until 5:30pm
Day 22: If you have had other TCs in the past (or right now), how are they similar to or different from your current (or primary) TC?
No I didn’t. T just shares very similar looks with my ex boyfriend that I loved for 10 years. He also has the same humor.
Day 23: Have you ever seen your TC in clothes they don’t usually wear? Casual clothes if they usually wear formal attire or the other way around?
He mostly wears simple pullovers or T-Shirts but once last year in summer he wore a t-shirt and a unbuttoned sleeved shirt above and shorts that ended at his knees. I just died.
Day 24: When was the last time they made your heart thump?
Yesterday. He asked me to render something in After Effects for him and when I wanted to tell him it worked he came unnecessarily close, thanked me and winked at me with a bright grin ……..
Day 25: How do you think your TC would react if you confided in them when you felt sad or stressed or anxious?
He would tell me it’s going to be okay, comfort me with encouraging words and telling me how strong I am and that I shouldn’t let it get me down. He did exactly that when I almost cried to him on the phone. If I’d cry in front of him he would absolutely hug me. No question.
Day 26: What is the best dream you have had of them?
Too many to name one exact
Day 27: What is the saddest/scariest dream you have had of them?
Once I dreamt that I would graduate without staying in touch with him and then finding out he died. That was the worst dream I ever had.
Day 28: Does your TC ever bring you up to other students/teachers that you know of?
As far as I know he talked to that one teacher that asked me to help his course with filming. T said when I told him I’d do that “Yess, I said you’d be an excellent choice for that!”
Day 29: Do you see them as being a romantic person? Are you?
Oh yes! He is a gentleman. I am a romantic person either❤
Day 30: How have they changed since you two first met? How have you changed?
Well his hair became more grey, he’s got more small wrinkles around his eyes and a lot grey streaks those past years But he also became more withdrawn, he used to be very outgoing in school…now he often hides in his technics room while breaks and often rushes through the halls, not really interacting with people except for a very few. Luckily I’m one of those
And for me…I changed drastically I’d say. I changed haircolors two times, from brown to blonde to dark brown. I got a entire new wardrobe, started dressing more feminine cause when the school started my self esteem was actually very low due to my weight after I dealt with an ed for a long time but now I think I’ve become way more confident in my body and mentally throughout the years, I don’t hide and hold back anymore.
Even T recognized that last summer when we talked about how every student had changed those two years and he pointed to a photo of me from when school started in 2019 and smiling said “Yes true! You did, G!"
TC April challenge from@morethanwords0475
Day 1: Happy April Fool’s! Have you ever pranked your TC; if so, how did they react?
No
Day 2: What is the earliest thing you can remember about your TC?
Him introducing himself in our first class
Day 3: Do you like your TC’s subject? Do you consider yourself to be good at it?
Because of this subject I chose this school actually. I loved his subject and was the best student in class. He often asked me for advice and help when he couldn’t remember little things from After Effects or Premiere. So I would consider myself good at it
Day 4: How do you feel about your age gap?
Well when I discovered it was 37 years it was very hard to believe and a big shock. I had to think about all the disadvantages there would be and what effects the age difference could have but I love him and I consider myself mature enough to deal with those aspects
Day 5: Have you ever said anything to your TC that showed you favoured them? Have they said anything like that to you?
Not exactly but I always ask him for advice for literally everything, I try to show him that his opinion and advice is the most dear to me in school and on Christmas he asked if he could steal a cup mulled wine and I said “But just because it’s you!” And on special occasions he’s the only one to get special presents from me. He did not exactly say anything but he gave me a lot of extra exceptions for many things and often said loudly in class how good I was and that they should look at my work for best examples and he praised me literally all of the time. Never heard him praise the others work that much.
Day 6: Have you ever noticed any small habits that they have? If so, what comes to mind first?
He crosses his legs all the time. I never seen him sitting straight, always legs crossed. And he tends to look over his glasses :)
Day 7: What gift would you really like to be able to give them, regardless of if it’s realistic or not?
Possibly something punk related. He talks often about his time as punk in the 80s but I don’t want him to know that I remember this detail about him
Day 8: Does your TC ever talk about what it was like when they were still a student?
He told me that he had a mini job as student in university back then to hype up other students while they had their lectures. He and his friends needed to get drunk until 10am and storm into lectures just like that. And once a friend of his got pranked, they gave him alcoholfree beer and he felt drunk (a placebo effect) eventhough he had no alcohol in his blood.
Day 9: Does your TC have a significant other? If so, what do you know about them and how do you feel about them?
Well T is married to a woman that works as makeup and hair stylist. She is not the mother of his children and they live about 2 hours away from each other. It drives me crazy to know that they travel a lot together and yes, I hate her. I’ve seen her in TV and in real life from afar, she looks pretty and sympathetic which is more than hard for me.
Day 10: What is the longest time you have gone without seeing them?
2 months. When the first lockdown started we had about 4 months homeschooling, he’s the only teacher I’ve seen during lockdown cause my best friend, her ex boyfriend, T and me met to have a photographing tour in Berlin
Day 11: What do other people usually think about them?
He’s generally hated by any students. They find him annoying, boring, hate his subject. One mate in school who I usually love talking to never misses a oppurtunity to complain about him and tell me he hates him.
Day 12: Do you often make up excuses to speak to them? What kinds of excuses do you like to use?
Every week. I like to use excuses like the schools TikTok which was his idea in the first place, to help us choose pictures for the Instagram, ask him for useless advices (useless cause I often have made a decision but still want him to help me make one)
Day 13: Other than the subject they teach, what are they really passionate about?
He loves riding pennyboard, travelling, skiing, walks, music and watching movies
Day 14: What is a skill you really wish your TC had?
Being single. Jokes aside…probably to catch people with his teaching so they would start to respect him.
Day 15: Which MBTI personality do you think they are? (If you don’t do MBTI, which Hogwarts House do you think they would be in?)
He would absolutely be a Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw
Day 16: If you could go back in time and choose, would you still choose to develop feelings for your TC?
Probably yes. I’ve discovered a lot through loving him. Started to do a lot of selfcare, to develop a little sense of fashion, being more confident, always being present in school, not missing a single school day. Putting his needs over mine. Care for him in every imaginable way. I’ve learned so much from him as a person and individual being through talking with him and I wouldn’t have talked so much with him if it wasn’t for love
Day 17: If it was the last time you would ever be able to see your TC, what is one thing you would never leave without saying to them?
I would tell him about my love for him. The whole freaking story. How he is the second person ever to cross my heart.
Day 18: When was the first time you cried because of them?
Can’t remeber exactly. Probably during homeschooling cause I missed him.
Day 19: How well do you think you know them?
I would say I know pretty much about him cause he is telling me a lot about himself, mostly when we are alone :)
Day 20: Do you ever lie to them? About what?
No never lied to him. I just hide the fact that I’m smoking.
Day 21: What is the longest time you have spent together with them?
That was probably the day where my best friend and me invited him to a drink. We had class with him from 8am until 2pm and then went together to a bar until 5:30pm
Day 22: If you have had other TCs in the past (or right now), how are they similar to or different from your current (or primary) TC?
No I didn’t. T just shares very similar looks with my ex boyfriend that I loved for 10 years. He also has the same humor.
Day 23: Have you ever seen your TC in clothes they don’t usually wear? Casual clothes if they usually wear formal attire or the other way around?
He mostly wears simple pullovers or T-Shirts but once last year in summer he wore a t-shirt and a unbuttoned sleeved shirt above and shorts that ended at his knees. I just died.
Day 24: When was the last time they made your heart thump?
Yesterday. He asked me to render something in After Effects for him and when I wanted to tell him it worked he came unnecessarily close, thanked me and winked at me with a bright grin ……..
Day 25: How do you think your TC would react if you confided in them when you felt sad or stressed or anxious?
He would tell me it’s going to be okay, comfort me with encouraging words and telling me how strong I am and that I shouldn’t let it get me down. He did exactly that when I almost cried to him on the phone. If I’d cry in front of him he would absolutely hug me. No question.
Day 26: What is the best dream you have had of them?
Too many to name one exact
He’s got new hair. Literally looked at him, saying no word, too stunned to speak.
TC April challenge from@morethanwords0475
Day 1: Happy April Fool’s! Have you ever pranked your TC; if so, how did they react?
No
Day 2: What is the earliest thing you can remember about your TC?
Him introducing himself in our first class
Day 3: Do you like your TC’s subject? Do you consider yourself to be good at it?
Because of this subject I chose this school actually. I loved his subject and was the best student in class. He often asked me for advice and help when he couldn’t remember little things from After Effects or Premiere. So I would consider myself good at it
Day 4: How do you feel about your age gap?
Well when I discovered it was 37 years it was very hard to believe and a big shock. I had to think about all the disadvantages there would be and what effects the age difference could have but I love him and I consider myself mature enough to deal with those aspects
Day 5: Have you ever said anything to your TC that showed you favoured them? Have they said anything like that to you?
Not exactly but I always ask him for advice for literally everything, I try to show him that his opinion and advice is the most dear to me in school and on Christmas he asked if he could steal a cup mulled wine and I said “But just because it’s you!” And on special occasions he’s the only one to get special presents from me. He did not exactly say anything but he gave me a lot of extra exceptions for many things and often said loudly in class how good I was and that they should look at my work for best examples and he praised me literally all of the time. Never heard him praise the others work that much.
Day 6: Have you ever noticed any small habits that they have? If so, what comes to mind first?
He crosses his legs all the time. I never seen him sitting straight, always legs crossed. And he tends to look over his glasses :)
Day 7: What gift would you really like to be able to give them, regardless of if it’s realistic or not?
Possibly something punk related. He talks often about his time as punk in the 80s but I don’t want him to know that I remember this detail about him
Day 8: Does your TC ever talk about what it was like when they were still a student?
He told me that he had a mini job as student in university back then to hype up other students while they had their lectures. He and his friends needed to get drunk until 10am and storm into lectures just like that. And once a friend of his got pranked, they gave him alcoholfree beer and he felt drunk (a placebo effect) eventhough he had no alcohol in his blood.
Day 9: Does your TC have a significant other? If so, what do you know about them and how do you feel about them?
Well T is married to a woman that works as makeup and hair stylist. She is not the mother of his children and they live about 2 hours away from each other. It drives me crazy to know that they travel a lot together and yes, I hate her. I’ve seen her in TV and in real life from afar, she looks pretty and sympathetic which is more than hard for me.
Day 10: What is the longest time you have gone without seeing them?
2 months. When the first lockdown started we had about 4 months homeschooling, he’s the only teacher I’ve seen during lockdown cause my best friend, her ex boyfriend, T and me met to have a photographing tour in Berlin
Day 11: What do other people usually think about them?
He’s generally hated by any students. They find him annoying, boring, hate his subject. One mate in school who I usually love talking to never misses a oppurtunity to complain about him and tell me he hates him.
Day 12: Do you often make up excuses to speak to them? What kinds of excuses do you like to use?
Every week. I like to use excuses like the schools TikTok which was his idea in the first place, to help us choose pictures for the Instagram, ask him for useless advices (useless cause I often have made a decision but still want him to help me make one)
Day 13: Other than the subject they teach, what are they really passionate about?
He loves riding pennyboard, travelling, skiing, walks, music and watching movies
Day 14: What is a skill you really wish your TC had?
Being single. Jokes aside…probably to catch people with his teaching so they would start to respect him.
Day 15: Which MBTI personality do you think they are? (If you don’t do MBTI, which Hogwarts House do you think they would be in?)
He would absolutely be a Hufflepuff or Ravenclaw
Day 16: If you could go back in time and choose, would you still choose to develop feelings for your TC?
Probably yes. I’ve discovered a lot through loving him. Started to do a lot of selfcare, to develop a little sense of fashion, being more confident, always being present in school, not missing a single school day. Putting his needs over mine. Care for him in every imaginable way. I’ve learned so much from him as a person and individual being through talking with him and I wouldn’t have talked so much with him if it wasn’t for love
Day 17: If it was the last time you would ever be able to see your TC, what is one thing you would never leave without saying to them?
I would tell him about my love for him. The whole freaking story. How he is the second person ever to cross my heart.
I missed his enthusiastic way to teach. He made so many comments about how I have an “expert eye” and always looked at me when he asked something into the class like he knows I know the answers.
I have some more things to talk about with him today. Right now he’s on break so I’ll have to wait
I’m sitting in his class again…dying
TC April challenge from@morethanwords0475
Day 1: Happy April Fool’s! Have you ever pranked your TC; if so, how did they react?
No
Day 2: What is the earliest thing you can remember about your TC?
Him introducing himself in our first class
Day 3: Do you like your TC’s subject? Do you consider yourself to be good at it?
Because of this subject I chose this school actually. I loved his subject and was the best student in class. He often asked me for advice and help when he couldn’t remember little things from After Effects or Premiere. So I would consider myself good at it
Day 4: How do you feel about your age gap?
Well when I discovered it was 37 years it was very hard to believe and a big shock. I had to think about all the disadvantages there would be and what effects the age difference could have but I love him and I consider myself mature enough to deal with those aspects
Day 5: Have you ever said anything to your TC that showed you favoured them? Have they said anything like that to you?
Not exactly but I always ask him for advice for literally everything, I try to show him that his opinion and advice is the most dear to me in school and on Christmas he asked if he could steal a cup mulled wine and I said “But just because it’s you!” And on special occasions he’s the only one to get special presents from me. He did not exactly say anything but he gave me a lot of extra exceptions for many things and often said loudly in class how good I was and that they should look at my work for best examples and he praised me literally all of the time. Never heard him praise the others work that much.
I am so happy. He’s reaching out a lot at the moment. It seems like quarantine was exactly what he needed to get his head cleared and to relax for a while. He’s so talkactive. And he’s reacting to me everytime we see each other. If it’s a simple wink, a bright smile, a comment about something or a real conversation. We never pass each other without interacting those past days since he’s back
We talked soooo much today. Walked around in school together and laughed a lot
