#time to try that thing ppl call self love

tw: anxiety, depressing stuff.

I’ve tried to draw here how I feel on a daily basis, but I still feel kinda awful. I don’t like talking about it, but I don’t know how to recover exactly. I feel like maybe I should talk about more due to the nature of it (fear of ppl/talking lol).

When I stay silent, the entirety of me stays silent. I’ve had an anxiety spike that was so bad in the beginning of june, I just dropped out of the internet. Then about a month later I tried coming back, again and again. I’ve been scared to talk to people close to me. Been scared of getting hurt, while hurting myself. My anxiety is kind of terrifying. It sent me into a dark void where I feel like I’m constantly being torn apart.
 A lot of people don’t get it. I look pretty normal, but my feelings and phobias are so vacuum packed and concentrated inside me. I’m at my lowest point right now, so I’m making this post to check back on it someday. It’s a new month, my favourite month, and I don’t want this asshole (anxiety/depression) ruin things for me anymore. It’s scary, and I can’t cure it, but I need to make some changes. This year sucks, and life will throw some curveballs. I’m just gonna march forward and try, see how it goes.