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everythings-reminding-me-of-you:
“What we once had was the most special thing in the world, and I wish I could go back to those days.”
- texts from him: a year ago
16/03/19
2/1/2019
I remember all the little things that made me fall in love with you over and over every week. I would watch you when you weren’t looking to see the way your nose moved when you spoke. The days we would lay in bed and I would rest my head on you. The way your touch made me feel alive and calm and at peace. I remember the way your skin felt when I touched your cheek. They way your hair felt when I ran my fingers through it. The softness of your lips when they met mine. They way your eyes sparkled in the sunlight. I can’t stop thinking of all the things that I love about you because I’ve had 29 years to learn them all. I wanted another 29 years, but you fell out love with me. My heart has never felt the same. I try to move on and friends tell me it will get better. That everything happens for a reason. That something better will find me, but all I can see is how none of it compares to what we had. My heart no longer wants love. It no longer wants to feel. I no longer want to exist without your love because all I feel is emptiness and despair. I long for the sensation of your touch, your look, your smile, your kiss, your love. Without you, without us, without our love, I feel the cold hard steel of my fate pressed against my head waiting for the courage to end the pain and emptiness. When does it get better?
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everythings-reminding-me-of-you:
I know it’d be easier if I could let you go
I know it’d be easier but I don’t want to
Take me with you, please, I know that we could make this right.
-01/02/2019
“Falling so madly in love with you is a tragedy. Nothing in my world will ever seem so beautiful again.”—
Michael Faudet
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everythings-reminding-me-of-you:
Since you left I’ve lost all hope in love. I used to wonder what it would be like to have someone completely in love with you. To feel so loved and content that you plan the rest of your life out with one person. Then I met you. You loved me so deeply, in a way that I only imagined possible in the movies. I felt so lucky and everyday fell more and more in love. Then suddenly you left and never even looked back. “I’ve just fallen out of love with you” is what you said. And those words shattered every part of me. And 10 months later I’m still trying to pick up the pieces to build the strength to be without you.
22/12/18
It sucks when there’s only one person that you want to tell when something good or bad happens to you, and that person no longer wants to be a part of your life. I don’t even think I enter her thoughts anymore, but she is in mine almost every minute of every day.
Renewing or wedding vows after 25 years. It was a lie. She couldn’t wait to get home and be with her boyfriend twice that same week. Why renew vows if you were already in love with someone else.
The one and only love of my life. 01/16/2019
As beautiful as she is and as much as I loved her, these pics were never intended for me. They probably went to her boyfriend or her 67k followers on Tumblr. She had an affair while I watched and denied it. I made a lot of mistakes and my heart is broken to the point that I don’t think it will ever heal or love again. Even though she is with him, I still forgive her and love her. I’m still in love with her.
