#琅琊榜
“I should’ve recognized him”
All those times when Jing Yan almost figured out Mei Chang Su’s real identity and made my heart squee (in vain)
Restless fingers
Not enough to put two and two together but enough to remind Jing Yan of his beloved Xiao Shu. Off-topic note: Hu Ge’s hands aresobeautiful.
Water buffalo
Squee moment for me and it was such a strong clue because only Lin Shu called him that. But Mei Chang Su diverted it to Ni Huang. Jing Yan, why are you so gullible?
Jiu An mountain
Royal Consort Jing’s reaction and the way Mei Chang Su drew his sword to explain his strategy and knowing the secret passageways in the mountains… Jing Yan didn’t buy the Ni Huang excuse this time. I was so excited!
Mei Shi Nan
This broke my heart. I was 99% sure Jing Yan had it all figured out. Even the way he replied Mei Chang Su, “After asking you, I’ll go ask my mother as well”, almost like he’s saying, “Don’t try to bluff me anymore, I got you cornered.” Even Lin Shu was uncertain if he could maintain the pretense. I was so happy until his mother’s response and seeing Jing Yan’s shock because he was so sure that his wildest hope had come true. ☹️
On the other side of things, Lin Shu’s expressions are hard to watch too, the way his fist clenches in order to suppress his own emotions. He probably longs for that friendship to go back to what it once was but having chosen a one-minded pursuit of justice and clearing his family name, he was ready to give that up as well.
The situation surrounding Lin Shu and Jing Yan makes me emotional, never mind that I spent almost the whole series of the same mind as Meng Zhi, who was probably as desperate to reveal Mei Chang Su’s secret to Jing Yan as much as I was, even though I understood why he had to keep his identity a secret.
The resulting situation is a case of Jing Yan not realizing that the Lin Shu who he dearly misses is the very person standing right in front of him. Episode 33 has one of my favorite Lin Shu-Jing Yan moments. The doubt in Jing Yan’s heart regarding Mei Chang Su is saddening, all the more for Lin Shu who is clearly sincere and loyal to him but this is hidden behind the manipulative image of a strategist. Lin Shu’s face when he kneels before Jing Yan trying to stop the latter from going a suicide mission is heartbreaking because he can’t really defend his sincerity towards the prince considering his Mei Chang Su identity at the same time he doesn’t really know what caused Jing Yan to suddenly think the worst of him.
It culminates in a fantastic exchange in the heavy snow. Although Jing Yan is about to embark on something strategically stupid, what’s obvious is his pain over the Chiyan case where he couldn’t help Lin Shu. It’s still causes him grief to the point where he’s insistent on rescuing Wei Zheng, more to alleviate his pain over the loss of Lin Shu than anything else, to compensate for not being able to do anything 13 years ago. It’s an emotional scene because Lin Shu is aware of how Jing Yan feels and is terrified that the latter would just willingly throw his life away in vain because of this matter. This is why Lin Shu doesn’t reveal his identity.
After all is said and done, I feel bad for Jing Yan because he wants so badly to be able to help Lin Shu, 13 years ago and in the present. But 13 years ago, he truly couldn’t do anything other than fall out of favor with his father and 13 years later, yet again, he couldn’t really help Lin Shu the way he wanted, couldn’t even convince his friend to resume his original identity. In fact it’s Lin Shu who gives him power and the empire, sacrificing his name so that there’ll be no talk of traitors around Jing Yan’s reputation and sacrificing his life to protect his land.
In some ways, Lin Shu really died at Mei Ling, and Mei Chang Su is a living shadow of what he used to be hence his final insistence to return to the battlefield to join the rest of his fallen comrades. But for those who are still alive, for Jing Yan, losing his Xiao Shu again and this time without the luxury of a preposterous hope that he could somehow still return but with actual finality is emotionally brutal. And yet again, he could not ride out to battle beside him.
Being so close yet separated by the fallout of the Chiyan case is what makes this bromance tug at the heartstrings.
When I think about it, it’s insane that I missed out on this drama back in 2015. The irony is that I was aware of the crazy buzz around it but it was a long time since I last watched any c-dramas, long as in like 10 years, and was just too preoccupied with other shows like Game of Thrones. Now I realize what a mistake it was to give Nirvana in Fire (NiF) a pass back then because I’m certain I would’ve jumped on the bandwagon straightaway since this show satisfies all my dramatic cravings: the emotionally epic bromance, the complex plotting, the historical setting, well-developed characters (including the supporting ones), the grand score… I’m late to the party but I guess better late than never.
A large part of my love for NiF stems, of course, from Hu Ge’s sublime performance as Mei Chang Su. The crazy thing is that I’ve heard of Hu Ge, the actor, but never knew that he was the face of all those Emporio Armani ads that I’ve seen. So my brain was initially swimming in confusion thinking, “He’s not actually a model??” That was fun, trying to assimilate the face I knew with Hu Ge, the actor. Mei Chang Su is such an enchanting character, not just in his physical beauty and graceful carriage but also in the wealth of emotion hidden behind his calm facade.
Just this performance alone has me converted as a Hu Ge fan. His eyes express so much as Liu Tao mentioned in her interviews and I can completely understand why she’s so fangirl-y over Hu Ge in some of the press they did.
On a side note, why did they choose such a cryptic Nirvana in Fire as the English title? The Chinese title translates to “The Langya List” which makes more sense considering the context of the show.