#13 reasons why imagine

ONE TOO MANY

pairing:justin x fem!reader

word count: 1k+

warnings:drinking/drunk reader

a/n: i had this little idea for a long time and when i came back to it… idk, it just didn’t come out the way i wanted, but i hope maybe someone will enjoy it anyways :)

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Justin rushed out of bed when he got the call. Jessica had rang six times before he picked up and was forced awake by the booming music playing in the background. He and his friend tried to communicate, but Clay had started to stir from his side of the room and then huffed loudly enough to get the message across that they needed to be quiet, he was trying to sleep. So, Justin had ended the call and then instantly texted Jessica. 

2:05am, Justin F: clay yelled at me, what’s up, it’s late

2:05am, Jess D: sorry. y/n is *very* drunk, can you come and get her

2:06am, Justin F: shit. yes ofc. is she okay?

2:06am, Jess D: she threw up a few minutes ago and i would take her home, but, you know… this is my house and i can’t leave everyone here 

2:06am, Justin F: yeah, i get it. i’m on my way, just gonna walk since it’s not far. let her know

2:07am, Jess D: she said, and i quote “yay. my bf is comiiiiiiiiiing”

Justin didn’t reply after that, he ran to Jessica’s house, rapidly knocking on the door in under ten minutes. “Jess!?”

When the door opened, he was met with girlfriend, grinning widely before wobbling down the step and into his arms. He stumbled a little but caught himself, and her. “Hey babe, where’s Jess?”

Half-lidded and still smiling, Y/N pointed behind her to where a group of people were playing suck-and-blow. “Behind… them, helping Zach.” She spoke between small hiccups. “He’s… drunk. Worse… than me.”

“You sure about that? You can barely stand, how much did you have?”

“Uh…” She lifted one of her hands from where they had landed on his chest. She squinted, concentrating on the movement of her fingers while she counted them. “One, two… three? No, five. Maybe more, pffffffft. I think I lost count.”

“Baby, that’s-” Justin was cut off when he finally spot Jess as she waved at him from the kitchen, then gave him a thumbs up. “Hold on.” He mimed a thank you, and then he slowly turned with Y/N, his arm securely wrapped around her waist. He closed the door behind him, and then slowly started to walk back to the Outhouse, hardly taking his eyes off of Y/N the whole way. 

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Once home, Y/N stumbled to the sofa and flopped down. She patted the space beside her and Justin took no time to follow suit. “I think it was… 6 drinks. But I… I cannot be sure. There were shhhhh, shhhhhh… ots, too.”

“Jesus, Y/N.”

“Hey. Since when was Justin Foley the resp… responk… the… good one?” Y/N poked Justin’s chin, giggling when she hiccuped again.

“Since I want you to be careful, and safe, and not have me waking up past 2am to come and get you.”

She huffed. “I’m not even that bad, look.” Y/N suddenly stood, putting her arms out beside her and then bringing the tip of her finger to her nose. Her left was almost perfect, and when she did it with her right, she slipped and nearly poked her eye. “See.”

“Yeah, you look real sober.”

“I do not… like the sarcasm… mm… mm… mm.”

“Okay, well, I think you should get some sleep, so, how about you take my bed  and I’ll sleep on the sofa?”

“Mm. Sleep… sounds good, actually.” With that Y/N made her way to the bed, smushing her face into the pillow, and then started muttering.

“What’s that, babe? Can’t here ya when your face is all squished.” Justin chuckled. 

“I said… I LIKE YOUR-”

“Shhh!” Justin frowned and gestured over to Clay’s sleeping form. “No need to yell.”

“Oopsies.” She started to laugh, but quickly smacked a hand over her face to silence herself. 

“Now what was that you were going to say? You like my…?” Justin smirked.

“Your smell.”

“My smell?”

“Your bed… smells like you. It’s nice.”

Justin didn’t know how to respond to that, instead he just grabbed his duvet and pulled it over her, then went to the kitchen to grab a bottle of ice cold water, which he placed next to her on the carpet. “Do you need anything else?”

“Mmhmm.” She wiggled her eyebrows suggestively, smirking. “A kiss, please.”

“But you reek of booze.” Y/N’s mouth dropped and she dramatically huffed, folding her arms. Justin snorted. “I’m just kidding, here.” 

He lifted her chin, leaning down to plant soft kisses on her cheek, making a swift, gentle trail to her soft, waiting lips. “There.”

“Ah, such a good boyfriend.” She smiled, and then her head dropped back to the pillow. “Such… a good… boyfriend that I love sooooo much.” 

Justin’s eyes widened, heart rate picking up as he watched Y/N’s eyes finally fall shut. He thought about waking her, asking her if she meant it, but it took merely seconds before she was snoring, and he knew he probably wouldn’t be able to wake her now. 

He walked back to the sofa, and lay down, staring at the ceiling. She said it. She said she loved him. But she was drunk, she may not have meant it. But then again, some people’s feelings do come out when drunk or not full concious. But.. she was drunk. Really drunk, and, oh man, he needed to know, because he’d been meaning to say those words to her. He’d even started coming up with ways he could tell her that she would like. Fishing his phone out from his pocket, he thought for a few minutes, and then wrote a text to his sleeping girlfriend, just in case she was gone by the time he woke.

2:38am, Justin F: hey, babe. this might sound confusing or weird, but if you go home before i wake, can you call me? or text me so we can meet? there’s something i wanna talk about

He thinks for a second more, before adding a little heart, knowing that it would cause a stir in her mind since he’d never done that before.

2:38am, Justin F: … <3

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MASTERLIST

I KNOW, I WAS MIA (AGAIN) (SRSLY GET USED TO THIS BY NOW). BUT NOTHING GETS ME BACK ON WRITING LIKE SELF QUARANTINE AND GETTING MY HEART BROKEN (WELL, MAYBE NOT BROKEN BUT DEFINITELY SCRATCHED).

ENJOY AND THANKS! X

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Every normal person would said Monday was awful. Mostly because it was gray, foggy and it was raining. But not me. I got the the school in morning all smiley and happy, I was almost bouncing when I walked from car to school even though if was pouring.

“What is wrong with you?”, Sheri asked as soon as I got in. “How are you so happy?”

“I don’t know”, I shrugged. “I’m just in a good mood.”

“Wait…”, she stopped and looked at me focused. “It’s about Monty, right? Oh my… You’re going out tonight!”

“Yeah”, I quickly nodded with a smile.

“Where is he taking you?”

“I don’t know, he hasn’t tell me anything yet. But we have math together in a minute so maybe he’ll tell me something”, I said as I took book from my locker.

When I got to the class Monty was already there. We weren’t sitting next to each other so I only smile and waved at him and sat down.

“I’m pissed about the weather”, Montgomery said when we were leaving class together. “Maybe you want to reschedule?”

“What?”, I stopped. “Because of the rain? No, I don’t. Do you?”

“No, of course I don’t. It’s just… I have this thing planned and the rain is a problem”.

“What thing?”

“You know I’m not gonna tell you. It’s neither Crestmont nor Rosie’s, that’s all you got to know”, he said while checking weather in his phone.

“Come on, Mont, you know how annoying I am when I need to know something”, I moaned.

“No”, he laughed.

“Please”, I asked with a pout.

“No”, he said with his head turned away from me. “I go to English, your pout and puppy eyes will not work on me”, he added walking away from me.

Before lunch break started, it stopped raining and it even got sunny. After the break me and Monty left to chemistry together.

“It’s not raining anymore”, I said as we were walking down the hall.

“Yes, I noticed.”

“Even the sun came out”, I added. “Oh, come on.”

“What?”, he chuckled.

“Tell me what are we doing later.”

“I’m picking you up at 7 and I’m not telling you anything else”, he sighed.

“I already knew that”, I mumbled. “But if weather didn’t change and you’d have to change plans, would you tell me?”

“No. Besides I had backup plan”, he shrugged.

“Aww, you’re really prepared”, I smiled.

“Yes, I am”, he said proudly as we were walking in to chemistry class.

Except for a date with Monty today was special also because it was first time since accident that I could do something more on practice than just watching. While other girls were training handsprings and other gymnastics staff I was mostly jogging and stretching - anything that didn’t make me use my wrist.

After practice I drove quickly straight home and went right to the bathroom and get into shower. When I was standing in front of my closet and realised I don;t know what to wear my phone started ringing.

“Hello?”, I answered without looking at screen.

“Hi”, I heard Montgomery. “I don’t know what you were planning on wearing but it’s quite chilly today so, you know, jeans and hoodie will be just fine.”

“Really?”, I said and put dress I was holding back in closet. “Are we going to sit outside?”, I asked.

“Y/N, I’m not telling anything”, he sighed.

“I swear I can hear you roll your eyes.”

“Jeans and hoodie, see you at seven”, he said and hung up before I got chance to say anything.

I took his suggestion, at least partly. I put on jeans and loose wool sweater.

Few minutes before 7 I walked downstairs.

“You’re leaving?”, mum asked.

“Umm, yes”, I nodded.

Please, don’t ask question. Please, don’t ask question.

“On a week night?”, dad said from living room.

“Is that a problem?”, I asked.

Seriously, they never had problem with me going out on any day, any hour pretty much and now they’re asking questions?

“No, of course not”, mum said. “Who are you going out with?”

“With a friend”, I mumbled.

“What friend?”, she asked with a smirk.

“Montgomery”, I mumbled.

“You’re going out, on a week night, with a boy?”, he suddenly sat up.

“Chill, it’s Montgomery, you know him. He took me to a hospital, remember?”

“The one you don’t find nice or anything? The one you’re not spending time with?”

“Seriously, that was in November”, I rolled my eyes.

Luckily, I heard a doorbell.

“Don’t you dare to get up from that couch, both of you”, I said as I was walking to door. “I’m leaving, bye”, I said and qucikly closed door when I left. “Hi”, I smiled at Monty.

“Hey”, he smiled at me and kissed me on the cheek. “You look beautiful”.

“I could look better, but you didn’t let me”, I said as we were walking to car.

“You still can’t take compliment”, he shook his head and opened door for me.

“Chivalry is not dead”, I said and got inside. “So were are we going?”

 “You’ll see”.

“You are very discreet about that.”

“I need to cover you eyes”, he said and took blinfold from compartment.

“Are you sex trafficking me?”, I asked but took blinfold and put it on my eyes.

“You know me, of course I am”, he laughed. 

“Cool, but do we have that date thing first or are you selling my right away?”

“Have you always been talking so much?”, he asked.

“Yeah, usually. But we were mostly doing other things so maybe you didn’t noticed”, I shrugged.

After about fifteen minutes car stopped.

“Can I take the blindfold off?”, I asked.

“Not yet, wait still”, Monty said and left the car. In few seconds he opened my door. “Take my hand and let’s go, slowly”, we walked few feet and he added, “Wait here literally for a minute”

“What? Don’t leave me here, God knows where with blindfold on”, I said and squizzed his hand harder.

“It’s okay”, he giggled and released his hand. “You can talk to me, I’m next to you.”

“Okay, so when will you take my blindfold off?”

“In a literal minute”, he said. I could heard he was doing something near me. “So I heard you were at practice today?”

“I was actually on every practice since I had broken my wrist but I was just sitting and watching and today I finally could work out. I mean I wasn’t doing any routines but yeah, I’m slowly getting back at it again.”

“Cool, haven’t see you in this little cute outfit in a while. Okay, take the blindfold off.”

“Finally…”, I mumbled.

I took it off my face, but because it was dark outside not much have changed. I blinked few times to adjust my vision and turned around. 

“Oh my God”, I whispered. 

We were near those old warehouses, Monty was standing next to me and there was blanket laid down and few candles. I also spotted pizza box, which was nice because I was a little hungry.

“Do you like it?”, he asked.

“Do I like it? I love it! When did you prepare it?”

“Before I picked  you up. There’s thermal blanket under normal one, so you wouldn’t get cold from the ground and I have another one in case you get cold and I got us pizza, I know you like the one with salami and coke from McDonald’s because it’s your favourite”, he said and gave me his hand for support when I was sitting down. “But the main reason why I took you here is that it’s good spot for looking at the stars”, he pointed at the sky.

I looked up and I was speechless.

“There is so many of them”, I whispered. Sure, I could look at the stars from my bedroom or any place in the city, but I would see much less of them because of street lights. 

“You run out of words for the first time since I know you so I’ll take that as a good thing”, Monty said and sat next to me. 

“It’s amazing”.

We ate pizza, then we laid down, I put my head on Monty’s arm and played with his fingers while looking at the stars. 

"Can I ask you something?”, I asked. 

“Sure”, he said and started playing with my hair.

“Last week you wouldn’t even look in my direction, not to mention talking to me. What changed on Saturday?”

“After the game… You were the only person who knew where to look for me. And you didn’t just tell guys where I might be, but you drove there by yourself, because you didn’t want to show them that place. When you sat with me in my car I realized I need you. I need to keep you close to me”, he said caresing my arm with his fingers.

“You see, cool things happen when you let people in”.

“Looks who’s talking”, he chuckled.

“What?”, I looked at him surprised.

“Well, according to Jeff I was first person you let in since dickhead Sean, so I don’t think you’re right person to give lessons about letting people in…”, he raised his eyebrows.

“He said what?”, I sat up and shook my head. “Well, according to Justin I was begging you to get laid on halloween party. Come on, Monty”, I rolled my eyes.

“I mean… You were”, he said trying not to laugh.

“Excuse me?”

"Come on, you basically forced me into that room.”

“Be serious, I could use all forces I have inside my body and still wouldn’t be able to move you two inches if you didn’t actually want to move.”

“You called me daddy…”

“Monty! You were supposed to never mention that ever again!”, I squealed.

“I know I’m sorry, I couldn’t stop myself”, he laughed. “You should see your face right now.”

“Not funny”, I said but also laughed a little.

“The thing itself isn’t funny, your reaction is”, he said as I laid back on his arm.

“Whatever… Another question. If it didn’t stop raining, what would we do?”

“It did. And clouds went away, so why do you need to know?”, he sighed.

“Because I like to know things”

“Well, I’m not telling you. I will use backup plan on another date.”

“Okay, mister misterious.”

I rested my chin on my hand that I put on his chest.

“Did you talk to your dad?”, I asked.

“Don’t go there, Y/N”, he sighed. 

“I want to know what is going on in your life. I want to be a part of it, okay?”, I said softly.

“You don’t know what you’re talking about. It’s literally shitshow”, Monty said and avoided my sight.

“Still, I would like you to let me in”.

He looked at me, tucked my hair behind my ear and sighed again.

“Well, I got home pretty late on Friday, I woke up late on Saturday, then went to the winter prom and again got home late, so I successfully avoided him until Sunday. He mentioned something about wasting Friday afternoon on me and that with game like this I can forget about sport scholarship…”

“Oh come on, you’re great player”, I sat up. “I honestly don’t understand why Bryce is captain when it should be you or Jeff.”

“His parents paid for new field.”

“Of course”, I rolled my eyes. “Okay, but what about your mum? I remeber, she was at the game last year, she saw how you play, why didn’t she stand up for you?”

“She usually doesn’t get between me and dad”, he shrugged.

I was watching him but I felt that he wasn’t going to say anything and I decided to not push him. We’ve got to time to say everything. At the same time he was looking at me and playing with my hair.

“Why are you looking at me like that?”, I asked.

“I’m just happy you’re here”.

“Me too”, I said quietly. “I hate to say this but we…”

“We should probably get back”, he finished.

We got up, collected everything and got to the car. 

“Listen…”, he said while we were driving. “I talked with Tina today.”

Just the sound of her name annoyed me, not to mention Montgomery and her talking. 

“Oh, what did you talk about?”, I asked, trying to sound as normal as I could.

“I apologised to her. For using her to make you jealous. And told her that she was right and that I’m sorry.”

“Oh… That’s really nice.”

“Yeah, I didn’t want to mention it earlier, because I know she’s not your favourite person in the world but because someone probably saw us talking I also didn’t want someone else to tell you tomorrow, so that’s why I’m telling you now”, he kept taking. 

“Hey, it’s okay, I mean, you only talk to her, you don’t have to explain yourself”, I assured. “And I think it’s really nice that you apologised to her”, I smiled. 

“Okay, good”, he said with relief.

I found it funny how stressed he was about telling my he was talking to Tina. Sure, I got mad as soon as I heard her name, but it’s not like I would make a scene because of that.

Monty stopped his car in front of my house. 

“Sooo, will you walk me to my front door or will you just wait until I get inside?”, I asked.

“If you haven’t already noticed, it was high class date, so of course I will walk you to front door”, he said.

“I had a great time, Monty”, I said as we were walking.

“I’m glad. Me too”.

“No, I mean, really. I would be happy if you took me to Cresmonty or Rosie’s but that was so great… I mean… No one has ever tried so hard for me”, I said looking down.

“Yeah, I wanted to do something special, for special girl”, he said also looking down.

“Okay, so according to your plan from Friday’s night in Rosie’s now I’m supposed to kiss you on a cheek and quickly hide inside”, I said when we got to my front door.

“You know, I changed a lot of details so we can also change that”, he said with a smirk. 

“Actually”, I took a step closer to him, “I’m more than sure my parents, or at least one of them is behind that door, overhearing everything, so we will stick to that part”, I whispered and gave him a kiss on the cheek. “See you tomorrow”, I said quietly.

“Bye”, he smiled.

I got inside and locked the door, my dad was sitting in living room, “reading” book.

“Oh, you’re home already?”, he said not taking his eyes off the book.

“It’s 10:30, you can stop pretending you’re not waiting here for me”, I said and walked closer to him.

“What do you mean, I’m reading.”

“Interesting, because yesterday you were and page 450 and know it’s page 200 of the same book. Or are you reading books from behind now?”, I asked. “Goodnight, dad”, I gave him kiss on a cheek and went upstairs. 

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MASTERLIST 

Soooo…

Here is part 20, I was very excited about that one, I hope you like it as well even though it’s not 100% how I was imagining it in my head (I think it’s always that hard, when you have high expectations about something you’re doing, you’re never really satisfied).

Anyway, when I was putting myself in mood for writing this part I was listening to Dress by Taylor Swift because the lyrics fit soo much - here (I even stole one).

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My mum was definitely was more excited than me about this whole prom thing. She woke me up at 9 and assured me that breakfast and dinner (that I absolutely have to eat before I leave) will not make me look bloated (not that I cared).

Montgomery didn’t answer my text last night. Not that I expected him to do so. Besides, what can you reply to No problem.

Jessica called me before I even had chance to finish my breakfast in peace.

“Hello?”, I answered.

“I’m just calling to make sure you didn’t change your mind and are still coming to a prom”, she said.

“Yea, I’m coming”, I sighed.

My mum gave me warning look. My dress was gorgeous, but was also very expensive and my mum agreed to pay only if I sweared I’ll go to the prom.

“Just Jess… Don’t have any expectations about tonight, okay? I don’t have. I’m in peace and I decided I’m going there to have fun with my friends”

“But…”

“Jess”, I said through my clenched teeth.

“Okay, I promise”, I could almost hear her rolling her eyes. “I will not say a word about Montgomery. I swear. Montgomery? I don’t know him”.

I laughed a little. 

“Bye, see you later”.

The day passed faster than usually. I barely blinked and was standing in front of tallest mirror in the house where mum, dad and I could look at me at the same time. I was wearing short, loose golden dress with spaghetti straps. I curled my hair in loose waves and had goldish-brown smoky eye. I also started counting hours until I will be able to take off the heels.

“Oh, sweetie…”, my mum whispered. “You look amazing”.

“Mum, I swear, if you’re gonna cry”, I roll my eyes. “It’s not even homecoming, it’s just winter prom.”

“I know, I know…”, she sighed. “Ugh, you’ll have your own child, you’ll understand.”

“Y/N”, my dad spoke, “you look beautiful”, he said with a smile.

“Thank you”, I smiled.

We heard honking on our driveway.

“It’s Jeff, I have to go”, I put on my leather jacket and went down the stairs.

“Have fun!”, Mum and dad said standing at the front door when I was walking to Jeff’s car.

He was waiting inside with, his girlfriend Leah. I felt like a massive third wheel and assured him I can drive on my own or ask mum or dad, but he was so stubborn about it.

“Hi, guys”, I said as I sat on backseat.

“Hey, you look great”, Jeff said.

“Watch your language, Atkins, your girlfriend is listening”, I joked.

“That dress is bomb”, Leah said.

“Thank you”, I smiled at her. “I love your braid”.

We got to school, but I decided I won’t be third wheeling with them walking to the dance, so instead I went to my locker to put my jacket in there.

I took deep breath and walked in to the dance. I was looking around trying to find someone familiar until I finally spotted Jess, waving at me like a crazy person.

“Oh my God, you look amazing”, she hugged me.

“Thanks”, I smiled.

“I know I promised not to say a word but… Turn around. But don’t make it obvious.”

“Okay, so umm, where’s Justin?”, I said while looking around.

I spotted Monty. He was standing with jocks, staring at me. Suddenly he realised I was looking at him and looked in different direction.

“Listen, the first moment he saw you, I swear, his knees got weak”, Jess said. I didn’t answer anything, just smiled at her.

“Wow, Y/N, I wouldn’t recognize you”, Justin came up with drinks.

“Is there something extra in it?”, I asked taking cup from him.

“Duh”, he chuckled.

***Monty’s POV***

I came to this stupid prom way too early. I was standing on the side with guys, they were commenting appearance of every girl that walked in. But I didn’t care. The only person I cared about was Y/N. I swore to myself that if see her today and I get that gut feeling again I will talk to her. I will tell her fucking everything even if once again it’ll end up with her telling me that I destroy everything and it won’t change. Jeff and his girlfriend came. But Y/N wasn’t with them. It didn’t make sense, he was picking her up on his way here for sure, why didn’t she came in with them? Did she ditch prom? No, impossible, Jessica was giving her so much crap about it, she would come here or Jess would never leave her alone.

“Wow, look at her, man, she won”, I heard one of the boys.

I looked in the same direction they were looking and there she was. She was looking liks a goddess. She always looked great in general, but that dress was doing her huge favour. She had a bit of some sparkly shit on top of her cheeks that made her look angelic. Llittle part of me that was bastard who had no right to be jealous, wanted to get her out of here only so other boys wouldn’t look at her. Y/N quickly walked to Jess, they hugged. Jessica said something, Y/N mumbled something back while looking down and putting hair behind her ear, so more than probably Jess complimented her and she couldn’t take it, as always. Y/N looked around, mentioning something about Justin (what I read from movements of her lips because now I apparently turned into psycho) and then her eyes met me. Jesus, she looked so beautiful it almost hurt. I should’ve walked up to her, take her away from Jessica and tell her whole fucking truth. Instead, she smiled a little at me and I quickly looked away with huge tangle in my stomach. Well played, Monty…

*** Y/N’s POV***

I drank whole drink at once, because apparently I was more nervous than I thought. I didn’t know I was nervous at all.

“I’m going for a refill”, I said.

“It’s in red bowl.”

“Just take it slow, Y/N”, Jess said.

“She’ll be fine”, I heard Justin talking to her as I was walking away.

I was pouring myself a drink when someone stood next to me.

“Hey, Y/N”.

I looked up.

“Oh, hey Scott”, Scott was one of the baseball jocks, we were familiar with each other but never really talked.

“Nice dress”, he said.

“Thanks”, I smiled nervously. Okay this was weird. We almost never talked to each other and suddenly he comes up to me, starts conversation and complements my dress.

“Umm… Would you like to dance?”

“Oh, well, no one is dancing, you know?”, I pointed at the back, where literally everyone was standing I small groups and just talking.

“Yeah, I don’t mean like now, but later?”

“Oh, okay, but why did you ask now and not later?”, I asked.

“I probably wasn’t suppose to tell, but I made a bet with Troy who will dance with you first, so… you know…”, as he was talking he started to realize it sounds bit silly.

“Okay”, I laughed a little.

Suddenly Monty walked up.

“Yo, Scotty, Bryce was looking for you. He and guys went behind the bleachers”, he said .

“Oh, cool, I’m going”, Scott nodded. “Y/N, we have a deal”, he pointed at me and walked away.

“You’re not going?”, I asked because Mintgomery still stood next to me but didn’t say a word.

“No, I don’t feel like smoking today.”

I nodded and looked around nervously.

“So, um, what’s the deal with Scott?”, he asked, looking around, trying to sound relaxed but I could see vein on his neck pulsing.

He was stressed. He was talking to me. About another guy. And was stressed about that. I bit my lips trying not to smile.

“He made a bet with Troy who will dance with me first”, I shrugged. “I don’t know why did they come up with that…”

“Yoo look beautiful”, he said suddenly.

“Thank you”, I smiled and I could feel I started blushed. “Well”, I cleared my throat, “you look good too. That suit? Nice one, de la Cruz.”

“Thanks”, he was looking down at his feet.

“Come oonnn! Y/N!!”, Jess came up, put my cup on the table and took my hand. “Come on, its our song, let’s daaanceeee”

I gave Monty apologising smile as she was pulling me away.

“What the hell, Jess?”

“We can’t give you to him on a golden plate”, she said.

“We? And besides what are you talking about?”, I shook my head. “He came up to me, he started talking to me, because he wanted to do so, what more do you want?”

“He walked up to you to make Scott go away”, she rolled her eyes. “He needs to try harder. Now, dance, he’s watching”

I sighed.

“Whatever”, I mumbled.

Me, Jess and Sheri dance a few songs, then Scott came up.

“Hey, do you remember?”, he asked.

“Yeah, sure”, I nodded.

We danced two songs together, then I remembered I left my phone in my jacket.

“It was really nice, thank you for not trying to put hands on my ass”, I said.

He laughed.

“Can I ask you something?”

I nodded.

“When I told you I made a bet with Troy, you could easily told me and him to go to hell but you agreed?”

“Well… First of all, because I’m quite naive I believed that dance means dance and not trying to having your hands all over my body, which was correct. Second of all, I still decided to dance with you, even though you kind of broke the rules of bet, because you didn’t make any comments when that stupid list came out. Unlike Troy.”

“Cool, thanks”, he smiled and nodded.

I went to my locker. Hall was a little bit scary, because it was dark outside, half of the lights were off and I was alone there. At least that’s what I thought.

“Well, well, well, look who’s here”, I heard Bryce when I was opening my locker.

I rolled my eyes before I turned to him.

“Hey”, I tried to sound neutral.

“Damn, Y/N, you look so hot”, he said standing way too close to me.

“Can you take a step back? I don’t know what the hell did you smoke but it stinks.”

“We were trying some new stuff”, he said but didn’t move. “I like you, you know? Good looks, sharp tongue, that’s good mix”, he said moving even closer.

“I wish I could tell the same about you. Now seriously take a step back, Bryce”

“Oh come”, he put my hair behind my ear. “Don’t be so tense.”

Okay, Bryce was annoying 99% of the time, but this time he was making me feel seriously uncomfortable and I needed to came up with something that would make me leave him alone. Risk was high, because I knew Monty told everything about us to Justin and Zach, but I wasn’t sure if he was talking to Bryce. 

“I would say one word about this to Montgomery and he would fucking kill you”, I said.

“You mean my best friend Montgomery?”, he chuckled. “

“Well, if he’s your best friend then you know I’m right”, I said giving him a daring look.

“Come on, we’re just messing around”, he laughed but took a step back.

“Well, find someone else to mess around”, I said as I shut my locker and quickly walked away.

I got my to the dance, Jeff walked up.

“Hey, you’re good?”, he asked concerned.

“Yeah, Bryce was just talking his shit. Nevermind.”

“Okay”, he nodded his head. “Do you know what haven’t happen yet today? We haven’t dance together”, he took my hand and pull me in the middle of the crowd.

“Come on, Atkins, where’s you girlfriend? Dance with her?”, I moaned.

“She’s in toilet. Stop talking. Dance”, he ordered.

And I did. Dancing with Jeff was pretty much like contest of weird dance moves and making silly faces and I loved it. We had the best time and we didn’t care if other people are watching. We hugged at the end and we heard voice saying, “May I?”

I turned and saw Montgomery.

“She’s yours”, Jeff smiled and walked away.

“Hi”, I said quietly. He smiled at me.

“And we sloooow dooown a little bit”, Tony, today also known as DJ, said and played slow song. As if it couldn’t get any more awkward.

Montgomery put his hands on my waist, I hold my breath for a second because of the feeling of his hands on my body. God, I missed it. I put my hands around his neck. We started dancing slowly.

“So…”, we both started talking at the same time.“

"You go first”, he said.

“Are you feeling better about yesterday?”, I asked. I needed to break the awkward silence and this was all that came up to my mind.

“Yeah, yeah, I am. You are right, it’s just one game”, he shrugged.

“Good”, I nodded.

“Listen… Remember on New year’s Eve when I told you you were the best friend I have ever had?”

“Yes”, I said.

I could swear my hands started sweating.

“Let’s go back to this. I liked having you around. I liked having a friend in you…”

No. I didn’t wanted to go down that road again. I didn’t want to have a friend in him. I mean, I wanted. But I wanted something more.

“I don’t want you like a best friend”, I interrupted him. “I was so stupid and I should do it long time ago… Instead of ending this thing between us and making this whole mess.”

He was looking at me confused.

“I don’t want you like a best friend. I want more…”, I was looking him deep in the eyes. “And I wanted more for so long, but I was coward and pushed you away over and over again”, I was talking when suddenly he put one of his hands in my hair, the other one that was still in my waist pulled me closer and he kissed me.

At first in shock, but I felt like some tension, I wasn’t even aware of, left my body, maybe I even sighed with relief. If we were in a movie that moment, camera would spin around the two of us.

This kiss was different than any kisses before when we were making out. It was soft, delicate and gentle almost as if Monty was careful.

“God, you’re silly”, he whispered after kiss and rested his forehead on mine.

“Huh?”, I mumbled with my eyes still closed.

“How could you not notice that I’m all about you? I’m crazy about you. I’m not great in those big words but… I feel vulnerable when I’m with you. You’re my safe place, Y/N”, he said looking me deep in the eyes.

“I… I…”, I stuttered. But I couldn’t find right words. Instead I tightened my hands hugging him and hid my face in crook of his neck.

“Do you want to get out from here?”, he said into my ear. I nodded.

Monty took my hand and led me through crowd towards the exit. Just before we left I spotted Jess and Sheri smiling at us. We took my jacket from locker, left the school and walked straight, holding hands for the whole time. We were walking in silence, but this silence was different. It felt good.

***

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Montgomery showed up in school on Thursday, when his suspension ended. He was very good at avoiding me, but he couldn’t do it forever. However, he could ignore me as much as he would like.

“Monty, listen”, I whispered in the middle of chemistry.

“Shh, I’m trying to learn something” he answered.

When lesson ended he tried to leave the class as soon as possible, but teacher stopped him, to talk to him, so I was packing my stuff as slow as possible hoping I would overheard something.

“… I’ll ask but I can’t promise you’ll be transferred…”, teacher said.

“Okay, thank you anyway”.

I stormed out of the class.

“You want to transfer?”, I was walking as fast as I could to catch up with him. Turned out he can be fucking Flash if he wants to get away from me.

“It’s not you business”, he said.

“Well, I think it is. We’re paired. We still have three projects to do this year.”

“I want to change the group”, he said opening his locker.

“Is it because of me? Cause that would be a little too dramatic. Besides I’ve been trying to talk to you for last three days.”

“Like I said”, he said and shut his locker. “It’s non of your fucking business”, and he walked away.

Suddenly Jess showed up out of nowhere.

“I saw you talking to Monty.”

“Yeah, he hates me.”

“No, he doesn’t. He needs time”, she assured.

“He wants to transfer to different group on chemistry.”

“But semester has already started. It is because of you? That’s a little to much”, she chuckled.

“That’s what I told him”, I said as we were walking down the hall together to Peer Communication class.

“Don’t worry, it won’t last long until he sees you in this gold dress at the prom and realises stuff”, she smiled.

I was so done with that talk. “Don’t worry, he just needs some time”. “He will get back from suspension and things will be fine again.” “He’ll saw you at the prom and beg you on his knees to take him back”. Bullshit, bullshit, bullshit.

I the middle of the class I was called to Mr Porter’s office. I was about to knock, when door opened and Montgomery walked out of the office. He walked by me without saying a word or even looking at me, so I just walked inside.

“You wanted to see me?”, I asked.

“Yes, please, sit”, Mr Porte pointed at the chair in front of him. “How’s your wrist?”

“Um, it’s getting better, thanks, I hope I’ll be able to partice next month”, I said as I sat down. “Did you call me to ask about my wrist?”

“No, actually. To ask about your absence in last, let’s say few weeks”, he looked into papers.

“If it’s about Monday, I got doctor’s note to cover up for that.”

“Yes. From your dad… Did you know that since December you skipped more lessons than Montgomery de la Cruz?”

“Ummm.. No, I didn’t actually. Are you allowed to speak with me about his absence?”, I asked.

“You know, I’m eyes and ears of this school and you two seemed to talk to each other a lot more this year…”

“Umm, yeah, we’re paired on Chemistry…”, I mumbled. Where was he going with that? “I’m sorry, I thought you wanted to talk about my absence?”

“I have this theory that under Montgomery’s influence you started to skip school more”.

I couldn’t help but laugh a little.

“I’m sorry, you literally just said he skipped less lessons than me? And, I can assure you… I had tough couple of weeks but it’s done now, I swear, I’m not skipping school anymore”.

Mr Porter was looking at me for longer moment.

“Okay, only because you’re grades are still good, I’m gonna forget about the case. But if it keeps happening again, I’ll notify your parents”.

“It won’t, I swear”, I grabbed my bag, stood up and moved closer to the door because I assumed the conversation was over.

“Montgomery asked to be transfer to different chemistry group”, he suddenly spoke. I turned to him. “He needs my permission for it”

“Will you give it?”, I asked and immediately realised I sounded a little bit desperate. I cleared my throat. “Well… We’re working in pairs and… what… I would have to work alone if he transferred?”

Mr Porter slowly nodded his head.

“Yes, I was thinking about it”, he said with a sheer smile on his face that could give me impression that he wasn’t going to sign Monty’s transfer.

I went back to class but I had a gut telling me that transfer wasn’t the only thing Mr Porter talked with Montgomery about. Especially after him asking if my absences had anything to do with him. After last period I stormed out of the class and almost run to boys’ locker’s room to wait for Monty to catch him before he gets inside.

He walked there few moments after me.

“Why did Mr Porter call you?”, I asked.

He didn’t asnwer, tried to walk past me but I took a sidestep and stood in his way.

“What do you want?”, he asked irritated.

“Why did Mr Porter want to see you?”, I repeated my question.

“Not your business”.

“I was called in right after you and he asked me bunch of weird questions, for example if my absence last few weeks had something to do with you”

“And?”, he asked to tried to walk past me again but I took a sidestep and stood in his way again.

“I’m not leaving until you tell me and I’ll walk inside if I have to. You know I will”.

I could swear he almost smiled a little bit but apparently reminded himself that he hates me. He rolled his eyes and sighed.

“He said that he sees a change in me this year, that I’ve changed and told me to keep doing that way”, he said not looking at me.

“Monty, that’s great”.

“Yeah… It’s nice when someone actually notices when you try”, he looked me in the eyes with a dead sight and walked into locker’s room.

“Fuck”, I whispered and sighed.

“Hey, Y/L/N”, Jeff was walking down the hall for practice. “Where you talking to Monty?”

“Yeah, he still hates me”, I showed a thumbs up as I was walking by him and left the building. 

***

“I don’t know if it’s good idea I’m here”, I said sitting down between Zach and Justin at baseball game on Friday.

“You can’t hide at home forever”, Justin said with his mouth full of nachos.

“I’m not hiding at home”, I rolled my eyes. “I just don’t think Monty would be amused to see me here”.

“He can’t even see you from the field”.

“Whatever… But I’m not coming to the party.”

“Y/N! Come on!”, Zach and Justin yelled together.

“No! No! You already made me promise I’ll go to this stupid prom, so I want to look decent. I want eight hours of sleep and pamper night”, I said crossing my arms.

“Fine…”, they mumbled.

Game started and Monty’s game was… Well, they could as well make me play and result would be the same. Monty didn’t hit ball once, not to mention scoring a point.

“What was that?”, I mumbled when the game finished.

“I… I don’t know”, Zach was as shocked at me.

“I’m not saying anything but his game didn’t look like that around October or November”, Justin said quietly.

“Excuse me? So what, now every time they lose it will be my fault?”, did he seriously was trying to make it look like Montgomery suddenly can’t play baseball because he wasn’t getting laid?

“Guys”, Jeff walked up to us.

“Why are you here so quickly? Did you even shower?”, I asked. Usually after the game I had to wait for him for about 20-3 minutes.

“Montgomery is gone.”

“What do you mean?”

“He ran to the locker’s room after the game and before the rest got there, he was gone”, Jeff explained.

“Where could he go?”, Zach wondered.

“I know…”, suddenly I reminded about old warehouses. The place where he took me after the thing with Marcus. “Gotta go”, I stood up.

“But where are you going?”, Jeff asked.

“Don’t worry, I’ll find Monty”, I yelled while running down the bleachers.

When I was driving there with Montgomery I was too angry for focus on the road, so now I wasn’t exactly sure where to go. It took me way more time than him, but I eventually got there.

I saw his car was there, I turned off mine and decided to walk closer. It was dark, there were no street lights, only full moon was giving sheer glow. I came closer, he was sitting inside with his eyes closed. He was looking so peaceful… I stared at him for few seconds before I gently knocked on the window. He jumped a little. I didn’t know if he could tell it was me, so I opened the door.

“It’s just me”, I said as I was sitting next to him.

“What are you doing here?”, he asked.

“Guys were worried about you because you were gone so soon after the game ended.”

“I just had to leave…”, he said quietly.

“Listen, I know you are mad and upset. That’s okay. But I’m sure you’ll make up for it in next games.”

“You don’t understand”, he said with his eyes closed again.

“Tell me then…” I asked softly.

“My dad finally came to the game”, he spoke after few moments of silence, when he was probably debating if he should even speak to me. “For the first time since I don’t even remember when, he showed up only to see his son being a disaster”, his voice cracked a little.

“You’re anything but disaster, Monty”, I said with a serious tone.

“He left in the middle of the game. If you could only see the look on his face…”

“It will be okay. It’s only one game. And if your dad wants to judge your whole sport career based on one time he saw you, then I’m sorry but he’s an idiot.”

Montgomery chuckled.

“Could you…”, he started talking after a moment.

“Yes?”

“Could you hug me?”, he asked and sounded almost as if he was embarrassed of asking for it.

“Of course”, I moved closer to him and put my hand around him, he hid his face in the crook of my neck.

I had this weird feeling inside, it was like I finally could breath deep even though I didn’t know I couldn’t do it before. I started blinking like a crazy and bit my lower lip because I felt single tear streaming down my face.

We sat in this hug for a few minutes until Monty spoke.

“How did you know where to find me?”

“No one knew where you could go and I thought about this place, because you took me here after the thing with Marcus and I decided to check”, I shrugged.

“Why didn’t you just tell boys to look for me here?”

“Well… I thought that maybe it is your secret spot or something… And that you don’t necessarily want all jocks to come here and look for you”, I started looking around. This place definitely looked like a spot to hide from everything.

I could feel his eyes on me but I didn’t dare to look at him. Suddenly his phone started ringing. He cleared his throat before answering.

“Yo, Bryce, man, what’s up?… Yeah, I’m coming, give me fifteen minutes… Yeah, see ya”, he hung up. “It was Bryce.”

“Yeah, I heard… Okay, my car is back there, I should be going.”

“You’re not going to the party?”, he asked.

“No, I don’t think so… I mean I’ll go there for a minute because I need to tell something to Jeff but I won’t stay.”

“Okay”, he nodded his head.

“Take care, Monty”, I gave him a weak smile and walked to my car.

I was following him on the way to Bryce’s place, that’s probably the only reason why it took me so much less time.

I waited in car few minutes until he got inside and then went to the party to find Jeff, Justin or Zach.

They were, of course, at beer pong table.

“Hey guys”, I said to them.

“Hi, we thought you’re not coming”, Zach said.

“Did you find Monty?”, Jeff asked.

“Yes, he’s here”, I nodded. “I’m not staying I just came to ask you guys for one thing.”

“Yeah, what is it?”

“Keep an eye on him, okay?”

“Come on, he’ll be fine”, Justin said while throwing ball into a cup.

“Jeff, please”, I said quieter so only he could hear me.

“Yeah, of course”, he assured.

“Okay, it’s time for me, bye”, I waved at him and went to my car.

I drove home and went straight to the bathroom.I took long bath, washed my hair, puth mask on it, exfoliated my face and put another mask, shaved and exfoliated my whole body I even put damn moisturizer everyone. I took my time, so everything lasted almost two hours. Dad knocked the doors few times and jockingly asked if I’m still alive.

When I got back to my room and saw message from Montgomery on my phone, my heart jumped a little. 

Thank you.

I was walking around the room for five minutes thinking what should I answear. I needed to text him somethin. But I needed to sound chill. Not desperate or needy.

No problem x 

Yes, that was my answer. I regret it the moment I pressed “send”.

“No problem? What was that? Who says something like this?”, I was talking to myself. “Idiot”, I laid on my bed.

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So um yeah, I know, I’ve been MIA for sooo long, I can’t even remember when was the last time I posted (was if 2018 or 2017?lol) I wish I could give a good, reasonable explanation, but I can’t really… I haven’t been much on tumblr in general, when I thought about writing I wasn’t “feeling it”. But lately, about three months after I got new phone I downloaded tumblr again and was really surprised to see people are still reading this, asking for next part and I was like whaaaat. Then on YouTube I watched some scenes from 3 season of 13 reasons, it reminded me what a cutie Timothy Granaderos is and I kind of wanted to start again. Another factor that pushed me to writing again is that at the moment life is a little overwhelming for me and it let’s me zone out from everything. So here it is, part 18 if anyone is still interested lol It’s not the best chapter I could imagine, especially for a come back but I promise, they will actually interact again in next one (btw I fixed my masterlist link)

Also this time I made sure I’m not suddenly gonna go MIA again and that I’m really prepared, next2 chapters are almost done :) I also think that in general this fanfic will be done in next 10(?) chapters, because I’m running out of ideas lol

IMPORTANT NOTE: I haven’t watched seasons 2&3 but I’m familiar with what is going on. I know things Montgomery did is S2, I know how his story was shown in S3 but… This is my fanfic. This is like an alternate universe where Monty is straight and didn’t raped anyone with a mop, okay?

***

“An intervention?”, I chuckled. “I don’t need any intervention.”

“Yes, you do”, Sheri said. “You are so smart and so intelligent, but you are such an idiot when it comes to your feelings.”

“We spoke to Monty”, Zach added.

“Oh, and what did he tell you?”, I asked and crossed my arms on my chest. I was faking confidence but inside I was shaking. Did he tell them everything? Would the do that even though he promised he would keep it a secret?

“Everything”, Justin said. “You can’t skip school forever, Y/N.”

“I have doctor’s note, my wrist hurts”, I shrugged. “Why are you here instead of school, that’s real question.”

“Priorities. We talked to Monty before he went home and we decided we have to do something and we have to do it now, because you are too scared and too stubborn and Montgomery is too insecure”, Jessica said as she sat down on couch and patted place next to her, “So now, sit down and talk.”

“Interesting, many words that I could use to describe Monty come to my mind, but insecure is not one of them”, I said sitting down.

“He’s insecure when it comes to you”, Sheri said.

“Well, she did everything in her power to make him feel like that”, Justin mumbled.

“Excuse me?”

“He told us everything. About the thing you two had. And how you always said he’s not good enough for you.”

“Oh wow”, I chuckled. “Okay, fine, we were hooking up last year, but I have never said things like that to him. I ended things so now he’s tryna make me look like the bad guy here”.

“Okay, so tell me”, Justin took chair sat on it backwards in front of me, “was he taking care of you?”, his tone was sharp and others didn’t dare to interrupt him.

“What do you mean?”, I asked, but I felt where this conversation was going.

“For example, who took you to the hospital when you got allergic reaction?”.

“Monty and you know that, you were there when it happened”, I rolled my eyes.

“Who came here and checked on you later that day?”

“Montgomery”.

“Who walked you to the nurse and then drove to hospital when you broke your wrist?”

“Monty”.

“Who stood up for you when that dickhead Sean showed up at Bryce’s Halloween party?”

“All of you actually”, I smiled, I knew what he meant but I wanted to annoy him.

“You know what I mean”, he said through clenched teeth.

“Okay, yes, Montgomery was next to me all night to make sure Sean didn’t bother me.”

“And didn’t he put you to sleep when you got wasted and didn’t get advantage of you because you was so drunk even though you begged to get laid?”.

“What?”

“Just stop fucking lie, Y/N”, Justin sighed.

“Okay, yes, he put me to sleep and did not want to have sex with me because I was so drunk, I wouldn’t call that begging to get laid”.

“You really don’t see this?”, Sheri asked.

“See what?”, I asked harshly.

“How much he cares about”, she said quietly.

“What did he do when you told him your period was late?”, Justin continued his 20 questions.

“He told you about that?!”, I stood up.

“Yes, as we said, he told everything”, Zach told.

“So what did he do?”, Justin asked.

“He… Told me to stay and went to drugstore and got back with few pregnancy tests.”

“Quite nice that he took care of everything”, Justin chuckled.

“Okay, what is your point?”, I was getting slowly irritated.

“He cares about you”, all four of them yelled.

“If he cares about me, why did he started dating Tina, the second after I called things off?”, at this point I was almost crying.

“Because you called it off suddenly out of nowhere and also because he is a bit dumb, like most of us”, Jessica said.

“I called it off because I started having feelings for him”, I said. “So I wanted some distance before I would get hurt”, I shrugged.

“Why do you assume you would get hurt?”

“Because… It was supposed to be fuck buddies thing. That’s what he wanted. There’s no place for feelings”.

“So are you saying that he literally called you the greatest girl he knows, only because of sex?”, Justin asked.

“I know you don’t agree, but he got in this fight with Alex today in your cause, because of that stupid list. I know, it’s not what you wanted, you didn’t asked for this and he usually does before he thinks but… he tries”, Zach said.

“He changed. Everyone see it. Yes, he fought Alex today, but stop being blind and think about his behaviour last month or two…”, Jessica added.

“I’m just… scared. What if I make a move and it won’t work?”, I said and swiped off single tear that streamed down my face.

“Honey”, Jess hugged me. “But what if it does? He’s speaks so highly about you. Even today after you had a fight at school, but he’s miserable because he has no idea what else he could do to get to you.”

“Well”, Justin chuckled. “He also called her critical bitch to balance things out”.

I laughed a little.

“I guess I deserve it”, I said.

“So how it’s gotta be?”, Sheri asked.

“Okay”, I sighed. “I will talk to him when he’ll be back in school”, I nodded. “But if it won’t work and things will get more awkward, it’ll be your fault”, I pointed at four of them.

“They will”, Jess smiled.

“Okay guys, let’s leave her alone and give her time to make up her mind”, Zach said.

“See you tomorrow”, they said as they were leaving.

“Guys”, I said before they left. “I’m sorry I was lying to you.”

“Talk to Montgomery and we’ll be good”, Justin said with a smile while closing door.

I went to my room, laid on bed and stared at the ceiling trying to make up my mind. Suddenly I heard that front door opened and I realized I haven’t locked them when Sheri and others left.

“Y/N?”, I heard my mum.

I breathed a sigh of relief and got up from my bed.

“Yeah?”, I said as I was walking downstairs.

“Dad called me. He said you came for a doctor’s note because you skipped school.”

“Well, my wrist hurts”, I said avoiding looking at her. Mum could tell when I was lying most of the time.

“Okay”, she sighed. “Tell me what is it really about?”

“It’s my wrist. Really. I barely took it out of the cast, it’s normal”, I shrugged.

“Listen”, she walked to the freezer and took box of ice cream, “it’s your last chance to tell me the truth. Otherwise I’ll stop being a cool mum”, she handed me a spoon.

I stared at her, had a fight in my mind. As much as my relationship with my mum was really good, I considered both her and dad friends, I wasn’t sure if I should tell her about the whole Montgomery mess. On the other hand how much worse could it get? Also she would have a fresh perspective on everything.

“Okay”, I said finally and took deep breath. “It’s about Montgomery”, I said quietly.

“Ha, I knew something was going on!”, she said walking from kitchen to the living room and sitting on the couch.

“Okay, calm down Ms I know it all, it’s not what you think”, I said and sat next to her. “So… You know I’ve been friends with Montgomery for few years now. Well, maybe not friends, more like… We had the same group of friends but the two of us wasn’t like super close or anything. But this school year we got closer…”

“Because of the chemistry project?”, She asked with a smirk.

“Well, yes, I was late to the first class and had to sit with him and that’s how we got paired”, I nodded. I knew I wasn’t telling her the whole truth but I didn’t think she would be amused with the whole friend with benefits thing. “Anyway…”, I continued.

And I told her everything. I pointed out every thing he did for me, how he took me to the hospital when I eat peanut butter cookie, how he came and checked on me later that day, how he took care of me when I broke my wrist and stood on my side, not Tina’s even though he was dating her at that time, how he took me away from Marcus when he made bet about me. I even told her what happened at Halloween party when he carried me away from Sean and made sure he stayed away from me (I didn’t mention part where I was “begging to get laid”, as Justin claims). And, for obvious reasons, I didn’t tell about that time when I thought I was pregnant and he acted really matured and went to buy a pregnancy tests. As I was saying all this things I finally realised that everyone was right - he did took care about me and he did change.

“And after all this things you pushed him away because you are afraid to hell him how you feel?”, my mum asked.

“Well… Yes”, I nodded.

“Y/N Y/L/N, your father and I didn’t raise you to be a coward. You’ll of course do whatever you want but I really think you two should have an honest talk. What worse could happen?”

“You’re right… Probably…”

“You seemed happier around October and November, just sayin…”, she shrugged and went upstairs.

“Stop being coward”, I whispered to myself.

Five minutes later I was driving to Montgomery’s house.

“You can do it. You can do it. What’s the worst thing that could happen?”, I was my own hypeman. “He won’t spoke to me? He already doesn’t”, I shrugged.

I parked and almost run to his front door. I rang the doorbell and waited moment but I didn’t hear any noise from inside. I looked at the driveway, his car was parked, he had to be inside. I knocked hard few times. Still nothing. Then I heard something behind the house. I went there and that’s where he was. He was playing basketball alone with his earphones on. I walked towards him, he saw me and froze for a moment. Then he ignored my presence and continued throwing ball to the basket. I walked closer, stood under the basket and caught ball when it was falling.

“Monty…”, I said even though I wasn’t sure if he could hear me.

He shook his head and walked back to the house.

“I’m not a coward”, I mubled and followed him.

“Monty”, I repeated.

“That’s trespassing, you know?”, he asked pouring himself some juice.

“I want to speak you”, I said.

“And I want you to leave”.

“Well I’m not leaving until to talk to me”, I crossed my arms.

“I’ve had enough, okay?”, he said walking past me, grabbed my arm and walked me to the front door. “Bye, Y/N.”

“Mon…”

“My parent will be home any time now and because I got suspended again, believe me, you don’t want be here when they get here”, he said, still not looking at me.

“Okay, well, can we talk tomorrow? Or maybe on Thursday when you’ll be back in school if you want more time?”, I asked.

“Nah, I don’t think I want to talk to you at all”, he said and closed the door leaving me on his doorstep.

I came back to my car holding back my tears.

“Fuck!”, I screamed and hit steering wheel few times. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.”

My phone started ringing, I looked at the screen.

“Hey, Atkins”, I answered trying to sound normal.

“Hi, sweet, I sent you notes from today.”

“Thanks, you’re the best.”

“Just try, you know, slow down with skipping school. Teachers start asking questions.”

“This was last time, I swear”, I sighed.

“Everything ok?”, he asked concerned.

“Yeah… No, actually, it’s not… I, encouraged by pretty much everyone I know including my mum, went to Montgomery to finally tell him everything, how I feel about him. But he doesn’t want to talk to me and pretty much shut the door in front of my face…”

“Oh God… Do you want me to talk to him?”

“No, thanks, Sheri, Justin, Jessica and Zach spoke to him already. He’s fed up with me and I deserve it to be honest”, I shrugged.

“Don’t say that! Give him few days, he’ll probably change his mind by the time he’ll be back in school”, Jeff assured. “And if not, I’m more than sure, he’ll want to talk to you when he see you at the prom this saturday”.

“Yeah, I don’t know if I’m going, I’m not in a mood.”

“Oh no, no, no…”

“Jeff…”

“You’re coming! Your mum ordered like ten dresses online, they’re supposed to be delivered today. You’re going. And don’t use wrist as an excuse. Bye”, he hung up before I could say anything more.

*** Monty’s POV ***

It wasn’t even an hour since Y/N left when I heard a doorbell.

“What again”, I mumbled walking down the stairs. “Seriously?”, I chuckled when I opened door and saw Jeff. “Who’s coming next? Her mum? Her dad?”, I swear one more person comes in, trying to defend her, I’m out.

“She doesn’t know I’m here”, Jeff walked inside.

“Whatever”, I shrugged.

“Listen, I don’t know the whole story, all I know is that since September both of you changed for better. She seemed happy and more relaxed. You didn’t lose you temper so much and you were unbeatable on the field. Man, that two home runs?”

“Yeah, I mean, me and Y/N made a bet… Nevermind.”

“Anyway, you were in a better place. Both of you. And know both of you are miserable.”

“Well, thanks to her…”

“Man, I know her since forever. She can be a lot, she’s neurotic and critical, I know that. The whole thing with this dickhead Sean really affected her. She really fucked her up and made her feel insecure and distanced and still somehow you were the first person she let in.”

“Why are everyone making this whole thing about her? I was in it too. I finally wanted to change, to be better. Because of her. For her. And then she suddenly ended things. I mean… No one is that blind to not see that”, I said. “And don’t start with that ‘she’s insecure’ crap talk”, I added before Jeff had a chance to open his mouth.

“Listen, you’ll do whatever you want. By far both of you are making yourselves miserable with your stubborness, but whatever”, Jeff raised his hands with defensive gesture. “I send you notes from today, see you on Thursday”, he said and left.

“Fuck”, I whispered.

I had a point. I knew I had. Everyone were making is about Y/N, but I was in it too. When I told her she was the greatest person I knew, I meant it. I mean… How can someone not have at least a tiny crush on her. I meant it when I told her she’s a catch. And yet she supposedly didn’t get what I was trying to say? She finally made me feel vulnerable and then pushed me away.

I laid on my bed staring at the ceiling when I heard her voice in my mind saying jokingly “Just try not to fall in love with me”. I should’ve taken that as a warning…

I HAVE A MASTERLIST!!!!

I looked at Jess, she seemed to be just as shocked as I.

“Y/N, I swear, I don’t know what has gotten into him, he seemed so different last Friday”, she mumbled.

“Yeah, and now he’s being same old Monty. In the middle of attention with those idiots cheering for him, fighting Alex Standall”, at this point I was almost shouting and then I realized it. “Oh no…”

“What?”, Jess asked.

“He’s doing it because of that stupid list”, I said and started pushing through the crowd to get to the center.

“Hey, hey, Y/N”, Zach grabbed my arm.

“Let me go, Zach”.

“Alex provoked him.”

“And that means he can beat him to death?!”, I spotted him hand moved from my arm to my bag.

I took the chance and started pushing through the crowd again, leaving Zach with my bag. I got in the middle right in the moment when Montgomery took a step back to take a swing to punch Alex who barely stood on his own feet.

“What the hell, Montgomery?!”, I stood between them.

“Y/N…”, his face turn white. “He started it”.

“Of course. No matter what you would do, it’s always someone else’s fault”, I chuckled.

“He started it!”, Monty shouted. “He deserved it for making that stupid list, for making his stupid comments about it at the party, you didn’t see half of the things he has done”

“I told you I don’t give a fuck about that damn list!”

“Troubles in paradise?”, Alex stood up and spat some blood on the ground.

“You want some more?”, Monty took two steps towards him.

“Monty, stop!”, I used all my strength to pushed him back.

“Hey, hey, what is going on?”, Mr. Porter showed up next to us. “Of course…”, he sighed and didn’t seemed to be surprised. “Y/N, and you in the middle of this?”

“I was trying to split them”, I said quietly.

“He started it”, Montgomery started defending himself or whatever he was trying to do.

“Shut. Up”, I said through my clenched teeth with my eyes closed.

“And you were?”, Mr. Porter asked.

“Finishing it.”

“To my office. All three of you.”

“She didn’t have anything to do with it”, Monty said.

“End of discussion. Follow me.”

I took my bag from Zach and follow Mr Porter, Montgomery and Alex.

“You two”, he pointed at Alex and Monty,” are going to wait here. I’m going to speak to Ms Y/L/N  first”, he said when we were in front of his office.

I got inside with him.

“Okay, sit and tell me what happened”

“Well, umm, I got to the school with Jessica and there were bunch of people gathered next to tennis courts so we walked up there and saw Montgomery fighting with Alex”.

“And why were in the middle of it when I came there?”

“I told you already, I was trying to split them.”

“No offence, but why did you feel like you’re the right person to get between to fighting teenage boys?”

I didn’t answer for a moment.

“Well, I have a basis to believe I was, at least partially, reason why they’ve gotten into a fight in the first place”, I mumbled.

“And why is that?”

“Have you heard about the hot & not list? It’s that stupid thing boys came up with last year…”

“Yeah, I heard about it…”, Mr Porter sighed. “By boys you mean Alex Standall”

“Well, yeah, but it was Bryce and Marcus who encouraged him to do this.”

“Still, I don’t understand what it has to do with you…”

“I’m on that list this year. And Tina. And well…”, the I realised there were no way I could explain why I was in the middle of the fight without telling him my whole personal life. “I just thought someone should stop them instead of watching”, I shrugged.

Mr Porter looked at me for a longer moment.

“Okay. Here’s your note to a teacher”, he gave me a piece of paper, “Please, tell Alex to come next and please bring both of them some ice from nurse, okay?”

“Yes, Mr. Porter”, I stood up and leave the office. “Alex, your turn”, I said to Standall when I got to him and Monty.

“Nice change, Montgomery”, I said when it was just me and de la Cruz.

“Y/N, please…”

“Stop.”, I said sharply. “I just… I really believed you were different”.

I walked away before he got a chance to say anything and went straight to the nurse.

“Hello”, she smiled when she saw me.

“Hello”, I smiled back or at least I tried. “Mr Porter sent me to get some ice for Alex Standall and Montgomery de la Cruz”.

“Montgomery again…”, she sighed.

“Yeah, he’s a bit of a hothead…”

“No, he’s a good kid. He lives few homes away from me. He’s just lonely. His parents don’t really care about him, or are too busy to care, he got into wrong company, because I think we both can agree that Bryce Walker is pure devil…”, I was a little bit shocked hearing words like that from her since she was this kind of nice old lady. But let’s be honest, she was right about Bryce. “But Monty… he’s just lost. I think he just needs someone who will give him a reason to change”, she handed me ice and smiled at me.

“Right…”, I nodded. “Thank you”.

When I got back to Mr. Porter office he was already done with Montgomery as he was leaving. I put ice on his hand without looking at him, then I gave second part to Alex.

“I will call Honor Board meeting, they will decide what’s next. By now, go to the class, I will notify you”, Mr Porter said.

Alex and Monty mumbled something that was supposed to sound like “ok”, I turn around and started walking to class as fast as I could.

“Y/N, we all are going to the same class”, Montgomery said.

Maybe I was walking fast, but they were taller than me, their legs were longer, so they were right behind me. I got to the class, gave teacher note from Mr Porter without saying a word and sat at my place. I felt everyone’s eyes on me, even teeacher’s. Nobody was surprised Montgomery’s gotten into troubles again, they weren’t even surprised he fought with Alex as it wasn’t the first time, but everyone wondered why I got in the middle of it.

I stormed out of the class as soon as bell rang, at this point I’d do anything to avoid Montgomery in case he was trying to talk to me.

I was standing in the line for lunch when voice in school’s speakers said, “Montgomery de la Cruz, Alex Standall and Y/N Y/L/N are called to Honor Board meeting in library right now”.

Again, I felt everyone’s eyes on me, for third time this day. I sighed, left the line and walked to the library without checking if Monty and Alex are going to. I walked inside and gave Sheri confused look, because I still couldn’t understand why my presence there was necessary.

“Before we start, why am I here? I was just trying to split them”, I asked Mr Porter and school principal.

“It’s not gonna last long”.

“That wasn’t the question”, I mumbled crossing my arms as I sat.

Montgomery and Alex got there and Marcus officially started the meeting. Funny, how out of all students at liberty high Marcus was leader of Honor Board as if he had anything to do with honor.

“Name of participants, please”, he said. Montgomery and Alex said their names, but Marcus didn’t move on. “Y/N? We need you to say it out loud, that’s the procedure”.

“You gotta be kidding me”, I snorted. “I didn’t participate in it.”

“Well, Mr Porter saw you in the middle of everything with Montgomery and Alex so just give as your name.”

“You’re not gonna put me in your stupid protocol. Mr. Porter, we all know this whole Honor Board thing is a joke, so can we just move on and get back to our stuff?”, I asked still looking at Marcus angrily. I really should’ve punched him for that time when he made a bet about having sex with me.

“Marcus, move on”.

“Okay, we’ll start with Y/N”, Marcus said, clearly unsatisfied with Mr. Porter’s reaction. “Tell us your side of the story”.

I sighed.

“As I already told, I got to the school and saw lots of people gathered around, walked up there and saw Montgomery fighting with Alex and because no one seemed like they were going to react, including you, Marcus, I decided to split them”, I said with bored tone.

“Weren’t you afraid you’re gonna get punched?”

“Excuse me?”

“When you got in the middle, Montgomery was taking the swing to hit Alex, weren’t you afraid he’s gonna punch you?”, Marcus asked. Clearly neither me nor Montgomery were his favourites but that was too much. Monty was who he was, but suggesting he could hit a girl,on purpose or not, was too much.

I spotted Monty clenching his fist.

“He would never hurt me”, I said with clenched teeth. Then, after second, I realised that it might’ve sound wrong. “I mean… He would never hurt a girl.”

“Do you have any suspicions why they got into the fight?”

“No, I don’t sit in their heads. Maybe you know the reason?”

If it was about the list, he obviously knew why, it all started as he was the one to encourage Alex to make it. He also was there, standing and watching them.

“Okay, thank you Y/N”, Mr Porter spotted they were a lot of unsaid things between me and Marcus as everyone could feel the tension. “You can go back to your lunch break”.

“Well, if I was here for a preview I may as well watch the whole show”, I said, crossed my arms and made myself comfortable on the chair.

“Just go on, Marcus”, Mr Porter pinched his nose.

“Alex, tell us your side of the story”, he sighed.

During Alex’s speech I zoned out using all my strength to not look at Montgomery, because I was afraid I’d either start crying because I was so tired of this whole situation or punch him in anger because he ruined everything again. I was literally ready to make a move before I saw him this morning.

“Are you fucking serious?”, Monty asked after something Alex had said.

“Language!”

“Don’t”, I said so quietly only Montgomery could hear when I thought he moved a little bit toward Alex. That was also the moment I dared to look at him and then I saw it.

Something about him has changed. He was genuinely sad, at the same time his face was showing no emotions, no cocky smile, he seemed shrinked and his eyes were full of pain.

“Okay, Montgomery, your turn…”

I wasn’t listening to him either, I was just sitting there, wishing I had left when Mr Porter told me to.

Councelor, principal and Honor Board gathered around and started whispering.

“Okay, boys”, Mr Porter spoke. “We decided to consider the facts that Montgomery has been acting way better lately and because Alex might have caused this whole situation making that list, which of course doesn’t justify punching him, Montgomery, we decided both of you are suspended for three days, starting today. Wait in my office, I will call your parents to pick you up. The rest of you can go back to classes”.

I grabbed my bag and stormed out of the library. I decided to skip rest of the day and walked toward exit.

“Y/N”, Montgomery was following me. “Y/N! Wait!”

“Leave me alone, Montgomery”.

“I really changed, I swear”.

“Yeah, I could see that written on Alex’s face”.

“Wait”, he grabbed my arm and turned me towards himself. “I really changed. I’m really trying…”

“No, you’re not”, I said a little bit louder that I intended, there were a lot of people in the hall as lunch break haven’t finished yet, some of them started watching us but I didn’t care anymore. “You say one thing and then the next day you’re at your old same shit again. That’s not how change works…”

He took a step back.

“You really don’t see it, huh?”, he shook his head. “For last weeks I haven’t been doing anything other than trying to be better. Better guy, better student, better person… For what?”

“And you ruined it all. Again! Because that’s who you are! You destroy everything around yourself, you try to fix and change for a moment and then you’re back at it again”, at this point I was almost screaming.

“I will never be good enough for you, right? You don’t see effort, you don’t see trying, you’re so critical you only notice when I do something wrong even if it’s done in your cause”.

“So what, you beat Alex for me? Wow…”

“Yes, I did! Because of that stupid list and what people were saying about you because of that!”

“Well, I didn’t asked for it!”

“Montgomery, you were supposed to wait in my office!”, Mr Porter came up from library.

“I’m done, Y/N”, he shook his head and walked to the office.

I could feel everyone’s eyes on me. Again. I run out of school, got to my car and drove away. I could hear my phone buzzing in my bag but I played on some music and decided to ignore it.

I had few hours to make up an excuse why I skipped school. I drove to my dad’s and walked into his office while he had a break between patients. 

“Why aren’t you in school?”, he asked when he saw me. 

“Well, I know, you’re not a orthopaedist, but he wrist started hurting again and nurse wasn’t at school always and I thought you might take a look”, I lied. I was terrible, patological liar. 

“Well, you only took it out of cast few days ago it may still hurt a little”, he said looking at my hand. 

“Yeah, I know, I feel it all the time but I pushed the door at school and it hurt more”, I said avoiding his look. If I looked him in the face, he would knew I was lying. 

“Honey, are you sure it’s about hand?”

Damn it.

“Well. yes… What else could it be?”

“I don’t know… You seem a little off lately…”

“I just have a lot on my mind these days…”, I shrugged. 

He looked at me for a few seconds. 

“Okay…”, he sighed. “If your hand really hurts, as you claim, then go home, I’ll call school. But we’re not finished”.

“Okay, bye dad”, I kissed him on the cheek and drove home. 

I wasn’t there even for an hour when I heard doorbell.

“Ummm… What are you all doing here?”, I asked seeing everyone - Jeff, Jess, Sheri, Justin and Zach.

“An intervention”, Jess said and walked inside before I even invited them. 

Ummm, so yeah… I’m back (again) (kind of). Again, sorry I’ve been gone for so long, ten wrote I’m back, then disappeared again and so on and so on.

I’m sorry but this is who I am as a person. 

I stepped by here a few days ago and saw like three people asking when and if I’ll post another part, so here it is.

I can also tell you I already wrote next part so there will be at least one more before I disappear again lol (bad joke)

Here is the link to pervious part, I don’t have time to add all links, it’s almost 12 am here and I have to wake up at 6 am.

It was first baseball game after christmas break. I was in girls’ room with cheerleaders even though I wasn’t able to perform yet. I attended every practice after the break trying to learn routines by watching so that I could easily catch up.
Cheerleaders left their room and waited for baseball team to escort them, I was giving a good luck hug to Sheri and Jessica we heard a whistle. 

“You look good, Y/N. Overall ten out of ten”, Troy said walking by us.

“Errmm.. Thanks?”, I said confused. Okay, I was wearing dress but it wasn’t anything extra. “Oh, guys, good luck”, I hugged Jeff and Montgomery. 

My relation with Monty was proper, I treated him the same way I treated Zach and Justin. I couldn’t tell if he was pissed at something or just focused because of the game.

“Can I get a good luck kiss?”, I heard Bryce behind my back.

“I’d rather ask Tina to break my wrist again than give you a kiss”, I said.

“You know, your bitchy personality gets a no from me even though overall is hot”, he looked at me up and down.

“Okay, what is going on?”, I crossed my arms and looked at Monty and Jeff.

“You didn’t see it?”, Jessica asked.

“See what?”

“Umm… Better check your phone, we have to go.”

I went to the bleachers and sat next to Justin and Zach.

“What is wrong with people today?”, I said taking my phone from my pocket.

“You’re talking about the list?”

“What lis…”, I paused cause I opened one of many notifications. I was tagged in a photo. A photo of “Hot & not list”. “Seriously…”, I sighed. “Best overall - Y/N Y/L/N”, I rolled my eyes. “Who did this?”, I asked.

“How do you think?” 

“Alex Standall? Seriously? He didn’t learn anything from his previous list?”

“In his defence he did it under strong influence of Marcus and Bryce”

“Don’t defend him”, I said. I looked at the photo again, just to check who was so called “worst overall”. Oh no… “And he put me against Tina?!”, I said through my clenched teeth. “Out of every girl in this school he picked her?”

“It was actually Bryce’s idea”, Zach said.

“ I don’t care”, I said looking around.

I spotted Alex and Marcus at the other side of the bleachers.

“Where are you going? The games’s about to start”, Justin asked when I stood up.

“To talk to Alex”, I said and walked away.

Before I got to him I was catcalled seven times. Not that I counted.

“What the hell are you thinking?!”, I said when I stood up in front of him.

“Oh come on, it’s just a joke”, Marcus rolled his eyes.

“I’m not talking to you. Alex, you really didn’t learn anything last time?”

He rolled his eyes, stood up and walked with me to the side.

“Relax, it’s just fun, nobody will remember about that on Monday.”

“That wasn’t my question. You really think your last list was such a great joke you have to make another one?”.

“Are you mad about the list or about the fact that you’re on it? Or maybe because you’re against Tina?”, he asked bored.

“All of it. You’ve changed, Alex. You hang out with Marcus and Bryce. You’re becoming one of those assholes.”

“Your boyfriend is watching us”, he said. It was like he completely wasn’t listening to me.

I turned around and saw Montgomery looking at us during his warm up.

“He’s not my boyfriend”, I rolled my eyes. “So? Why are you acting like that?” 

“Jeez, it’s only stupid list, nobody takes it seriously, get over it, Y/N”, he rolled his eyes and walked away. 

I sighed and walked back to my seat.

“And? What did he said?”, Zach asked.

“Nobody takes it seriously, get over it”, I imitated Alex’s voice.

We won the game, I waited at the parking with Justin and Zach for Jeff and Montgomery, they were going for Bryce’s party, I was going to go home.

“Congrats, guys!”, I shouted when I saw them coming to us. “Have fun at the party”, I said giving them good bye hugs.

“You’re not coming?”, Monty asked.

“No, my hand is still a little bit sore after I took it out of cast”, I shrugged.

“Are you sure? It’s not because of that stupid list?”, he asked concerned.

“No, Mont, come on”, I chuckled even though maybe it was a little bit because of that too. “It’s just stupid list.”

“I saw you talking to Alex.”

“Yeah, well, he clearly didn’t learn anything from last time”, I shrugged.

“De la Cruz, you’re coming or not?”, Justin asked because in the meantime they he, Zach and Jeff got inside. 

“Go or they gonna leave you here”, I laughed.

“See you on Monday?”

“Yep, bye”, I waved at him and went to my car.

I finally was able to drive after few long weeks so I didn’t sent straight home, I drove around the city for some time listening to music. When I got home nobody was there.

“Mum, where are you?”, I called her.

“We’re at Jeff’s. You’re not at the party?”

“No, my hand is still a little sore”, I said.

There was no need to tell about that stupid list. Chances were they would found out about it anyway from Jeff’s parents, because he tells them pretty much everything.

“Everything is okay? You want us to come home?”

“Jesus, mum”, I rolled my eyes, “we’ve spoken about it a thousand times.”

“I know, but won’t you be a little bit sad about sitting alone at Friday night?”

“No, really mum, I’ll read book or watch a movie or take a bath… I’m good, really, have fun, tell Jeff’s parents I say hi.”

“Okay, bye, we won’t be late.”

I hung up and went straight to the kitchen to look for something to eat. I made myself some popcorn, grabbed a soda, went upstairs and started looking for a movie to watch on netflix.
I was going through list of movie when my phone started ringing. Jessica.

“Hi, Jess.”

“Why aren’t you here?! When you didn’t show up for an hour I assumed you went home to change clothes but a minute ago Montgomery told me you’re not coming. What the hell? Don’t tell me you’re not gonna show up because of that stupid list.”

“It’s not because of that list, my hand still hurts a little”, I answered.

“Oh, come on, take some painkillers and come here”, she moaned to the phone.

“Nah, I don’t feel like partying today”.

“You’re turning into a grandma… Yeah, I’m coming”, she said to somebody else. “ I gotta go. Beerpong is waiting for me.”

“Bye, have fun”, I said but I’m pretty sure she hung up before I opened my mouth.

I was in the middle of some boring movie when my phone buzzed. Message from Montgomery.

Montgomery: You’re up?
Y/N: You do realize it starts like booty call, right?
Montgomery: Damn, kind of…
Montgomery: Just checking up on you.
Y/N: I’m good, I have netflix and chill with myself.
Montgomery: Is the movie any good?
Y/N: Hell no. I think I zoned out for last fourty minutes haha half of the movies there are such a shit, no wonder people start making out lol
Montgomery: You need somebody to make out with?

I didn’t know what I should reply. I mean, I know it was all jokes, we didn’t have sex anymore but we also haven’t gotten this far with jokes since New Years’ Eve party which was the day we finally started talking again. I was thinking about answer for too long apparently, because he send another text.

Montgomery: I wasn’t taking about me of course, but you know, you would’ve easily find someone here, damn list gave you a lot of publicity…
Y/N:Thank God I didn’t come… People barely stopped talking about episode with Tina and now that stupid list…
Montgomery: You said you don’t care but it doesn’t sound like it…
Y/N: I’m okay, really. I just don’t like being in the center of attention…

Few minutes passed without answer for him, I assumed he went to play beer pong or something.

Montgomery: I’ve changed, you know…
Montgomery:Really…
Y/N: Monty, are you okay?

His sudden change of subject surprised me, I didn’t know where this came from.

Montgomery: Please, tell me you see this…

I thought carefully before I answered to him. He did change… It was first week of school after winter break, he wasn’t late, he didn’t push anyone at school, when jocks were commenting girls he kept his mouth shut. But why was he texting be about it?

Y/N: Of course I see this…
Y/N: Are you okay?

I asked again.

Montgomery:I gotta go. Boys want me to play beer pong with them. Goodnight x
Y/N:Have fun xx

I barely dropped my phone somewhere in my sheets when it buzzed again. This time it was Jessica.

Jess: I TOLD YOU! YOU GUYS ARE OTP.
Y/N: What are you talking about? Are you drunk?
Jess: You and Montgomery. You are my OTP. You are universe’s OTP.
Y/N: Don’t start again, please…

Ever since I told her the whole truth about me and Monty she was more than sure that we are match made in heaven and we should be together. Too bad she doesn’t see he doesn’t like my like that and he made that pretty obvious, I mean, he told it to me straight to my face, come on… Also too bad she won’t shut up about it…

Jess: Did you text with him few minutes ago?
Y/N: Why are you asking?
Jess: You didn’t answer so I take it as yes. You should’ve seen his face when he was texting you… This silly smile people have on their faces when they text with someone they have crush on…
Y/N: Jess… I’ve told you once, I’ve told you a million times… HE DOESN’T LIKE ME LIKE THAT. STOP PLEASE. GO, DRINK, YOU’RE AT THE PARTY, HAVE FUN.
Jess: YOU’RE COWARD, Y/N.

Again I throw my phone somewhere in sheets, deciding I will not reach for it if it buzzes, no matter who would text me…

On Monday morning Jess texted me if I would pick her up on my way to school, I agreed even though I felt like it was going to be one of many episodes of her trying to set up me and Montgomery.

“Hey, baby”, she said getting into my car. “I’m gonna go straight to the point before you start with all your >>He doesn’t like me like that<< shit. He does. Really. He thinks you’re the greatest “. 

"And how do you know that?”, I sighed. 

“He’s very talkative when he’s drunk. And maybe he’s scared and afraid of talking about his feelings just as much as you. Just think about it… Nothing like that has ever happen to him. Nothing. He literally smiled at the phone when he was texting you, he smiled when he was talking about you with me, his jaw clenched everytime he heard someone talking about that stupid list, I know because I kept my eyes on him to make sure he wasn’t gonna do anything stupid… So… Can you two just be honest for one minute? Because I think it would make both of you really happy”. 

I bit my lips and pinched the bridge of my nose. 

“So what, I should just came up to him and say that I like him LIKE THAT and then? Wait for his reaction? Pray for the best outcome?" 

"Yes. Come on, just think what would your opinion be, if it wasn’t about you? You’re very critical towards yourself, but… If a boy acted like that towards Sheri. What would you tell her? Honestly…" 

"That he probably likes her and she should try to do something about it”, I sighed.

“See? Come on,  give him a chance. Give yourself a chance”.

“I guess… I can ask him if he wants to grab a coffee or something”, I mumbled. 

Jess didn’t say a word for a whole ride to school, she just sat next to me smiling.

“Don’t be so happy yet, no one said anything will work out”, I said when I stopped the car at school.

“It will. You want it. He wants it. The universe wants it…”

“You really have to stop putting universe into this”, I laughed getting out of the car.

We spotted bunch of people next to tennis courts. 

“What is going on?”, I asked.

“I don’t know but to me it seems like a fight. Come on”.

We came closer just to see people gathered in circle watching Alex and Montgomery fighting. Yep, Montgomery. I felt like someone punched me in the face. Literally minutes after I thought that maybe he has changed and that there might be a chance for the two of us, he’s getting into a fight. Again. 

They’re gonna make up soon.

Okay sooo I know it’s been over three months since I posted chapter last time, I’m terrible, I deserve to go to hell I know, I know…
I can’t really explain why I’ve been MIA for so long… I had holidays, then work, then work and uni and I have two semesters left and I really have to work my ass off.
Also I kind of burned out…
English isn’t my first language, so writing in it takes me a little longer and after three months I felt a little bit tired of it.
But now I’m back.
I have new ideas, good things are coming, but before that some bad things has to happen, so y'all can appreciate the good stuff lol
Unfortunately my computer isn’t working. I’m writing on my phone as much as I can but it’s annoying tbh (plus stupid tumblr didn’t save twenty minutes of my writing. Twice.)
It should be posted between 1st-3rd of December (then I go home and I can use my brother computer) and it’ll either be super long or next part after that will be posted super quickly. Let me know what you prefer

If you have any ideas or inspirations for me, also write me.

And if you’re reading it and wondering what the hell is this post doing under Montgomery’s tag if it have nothing to do with 13RW, then go under Montgomery’s tag on my blog and take a look at my fanfic, I think it’s meh, but few people like it x

I love you guys, I’m sorry again!

And again let me know if you want one super long chapter or two shorter but posted sooner and text me some ideas for next parts xx

fact: i love zach dempsey and he deserves the world

This blog is now an archive, meaning any requests from here will only be posted on my new blog @statticscribbles