#6 am poem

gasoline boy / setting fire to your veins / setting fire to your life / we used to joke about it / our descent into alcoholism / no one’s laughing anymore / numb boy / threw yourself down the stairs like a bouncy ball / elbowed and punched your way out of two friends’ lives / soon there’ll be no one left / just your vodka lover / oh ashen boy / a bottles’ love can’t dampen the coal in your chest / remember / i’m the one who knows you best / you are most whole / when you empty all your poison down the sink / arsonist boy / i love you / but i won’t stay to watch you burn this city down / i love you / but i don’t know how to exstinguish your violence / i can’t recognise this molten liar / i’ll always love you / but i can’t put myself in your line of fire