#destructive behavior

April 3rd, 2020 // 7:24AM

he’ll always think of me while he’s fucking you. he’ll tell you he loves you but won’t look you in your eyes, and if he does I know it almost takes his breath away as he’s being reminded im still gone. he will teach you the new things I had taught him and he will comepare everything about you to everything about me. and he will never be able to love you for you, but for the parts of you that remind him of me.

gasoline boy / setting fire to your veins / setting fire to your life / we used to joke about it / our descent into alcoholism / no one’s laughing anymore / numb boy / threw yourself down the stairs like a bouncy ball / elbowed and punched your way out of two friends’ lives / soon there’ll be no one left / just your vodka lover / oh ashen boy / a bottles’ love can’t dampen the coal in your chest / remember / i’m the one who knows you best / you are most whole / when you empty all your poison down the sink / arsonist boy / i love you / but i won’t stay to watch you burn this city down / i love you / but i don’t know how to exstinguish your violence / i can’t recognise this molten liar / i’ll always love you / but i can’t put myself in your line of fire