#ana friend
A successful lie
Today my friend asked me to go to McDonald’s with her and I couldn’t really say no cause she’s kinda goin trough a thing and I wanna be there for her she doesn’t know about my ED so I had to act natural I ordered a 10 piece chicken nugget with a fountain drink (opaque cup to hide the fact I was drinking water and not soda) and I wore long sock to hide food in while she wasn’t looking each nugget is 49 calories I ended up tearing up two nuggets into fourths and hide the remaining nuggets in my socks I drank a full water bottle before I went I took a sip ate a piece then took another sip about half way trough I had to pee so I went to the bathroom and put the nuggets I hid in the toilet and then returned and I didn’t even have to finish the other nugget because I ate slowly and talked a lot so she got done with her food before I finished so in total I had about 74 calories during dinner and I was full enough from the water I didn’t even want to eat the rest EATING RITUALS WORK!!! :) :) so even though it was scary it was still successful of course I did go home and burn off 366 calories and I ended up losing weight today
BEWARE EMOTIONAL EATING!!!
Yesterday I thought I would have to end my fast early cause my dad said he wanted to have dinner together (I was scared to eat but I was excited to get to hang out with him since I barely see him) but when I got home he said he didn’t want to go out (which stressed me out cause I had already planned out all of the stuff) so we ended up getting sushi I got a California roll (230) and had a water with it but once I came home mentally prepared to hate myself he said he wasn’t even hungry (because he ate before I got there) and I ended up having to eat by myself (I’m so angry at myself because I had a perfect opportunity to skip dinner but I didn’t) I ate the whole thing of sushi and half a pack of saltines and I didn’t even count how many calories the saltines had I felt like a disgusting pig (luckily there was nothing else in the house to eat other wise I would have binged more so I ended up purging the crackers and dinner and then I put on a Saran suit and sat in my car with the heat on high to sweat it out and ended up falling asleep for a bit checked my watch and I had burned 600 something calories (enough to burn off meal) but I was extremely itchy I took the wrap off and itched for like 5 minutes then I put another wrap on and went to sleep and when I woke up I had lost three pounds from the last time I was on the scale (sometime that morning) but I think I ate more on what I planned because I was mad at my dad for not caring about spending time with me and it was sad eating with no one there (cause my sisters at collage my parents are divorced and I’m staying at my dads for another week I’m the only one there) but now I’m really happy with the weight I lost from the whole thing so all and all success I guess
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