someone needs to kill me now before I do it myself

not me wanting to be natsuki from ddlc

can you guys send invites to ana discord servers ??

The best feeling in the world is fasting all day and keeping your morning skinny entire entire day

the day im allowed to start running again it rains i’m gonna kms

my friend is recovered and keeps trying to get me to talk about my ed with my parents/ therapist but I just fucking can’t. I can’t face the mere idea I would no longer have this thing that I can turn to. my life will be shitty and there would be nothing I could do about it

really shitty pic but this is my waist from the side

⚠️TW - Vivid and Visible Bones In Pictures⚠️

Let me know if this is crossing the line because I WILL take it down if anyone feels it necessary

OkNOW I’m at 115lbsfinally

Through rigorous and exhausting exercise and countless sleepless night and 4 years of this bullshit I roughly have the body shape I want

Now I just need to proportionally lose 15-20 more pounds. Thinking rationally I know that wont happen perfectly so maybe another 4 years of this bullshit will finally get me where I want to be :,)

Its gross but its interesting :/

Measuring health by weight is total ass but I dont have one of those things that measures your body fat %

Weight sucks lol I just wanna look skinny and attractive, that’s all.

▪︎Been trying to take consistent body checks over the past week n I just dropped my phone on my fucking eye socket bones and I’m HEATED

▪︎I also cant tell how much I way anymore and I’m so mad. My mom is leaving sometime at noon tmr/today so thank gOD but I’m so scared…

Being on your period and trying to lose weight while you’re bloated all to hell is wack

Have y'all ever had a London Fog?

As in the drink, not the literal fog of london. It’s super good, here’s the low cal version I like to make:

ingredients for about 2 cups:

• 1-2 bags of earl grey tea (black tea works well too) - 0cal
• ½ cup of your preferred milk (I use unsweetened almond - 15cal)
• sugar free vanilla syrup to taste - 0cal
• driedlavender - 0cal

instructions:

1. Place your tea bag(s) and lavender into a cup. I don’t usually measure how much lavender I use, but it’s probably a little under 1 tablespoon.
2. Pour in your boiling water and brew your tea. I like to use 2 bags of earl grey tea, and i like to brew about 1.5 cups. I usually brew my tea for about 3-5 minutes, but you can leave your tea bags in for longer or shorter to change how strong the tea is.
3. Remove your tea bag(s) and lavender. If the lavender was lose in your cup you may want to strain it out.
4. Add your milk, and sweeten to taste with the vanilla syrup.
5. Enjoy!

if you don’t have a vanilla syrup, you can just use sugar (or any sweetener) and vanilla extract. Just be careful when adding the vanilla because the extract is very strong!

You can skip the lavender without ruining the drink, I know it’s not an herb that everybody has.

HIT MY SECOND GW LETS GOOOOOO

I started at 215 and now I’m down to 188 it’s feels amazing but I have so much longer to go

Had no clue but apparently fasting/ restricting is causing my acid reflux to act up,, my throat is in so much pain I wanna die but I can’t eat more or stop fasting

Ate some rice and tofu today and work and I didn’t have time to purge afterwards,, it wasn’t that much but it still sucks :(

Can someone please send me meanspo or some advice I’m sick and tired of binging at work and then wondering why tf I gained weight or didn’t lose any at all

I work in a restaurant and what I used to do was eat a little and purge but then my coworker caught on and I’m too nervous to do it anymore

And half the time I end up drinking 2 or more energy drinks to suppress my appetite but then I’m hyped up and jittery for the rest of the day

And yes, even though my mum bought me some sugar-free wheat bread I would still prefer “Plain *Ice cold* black coffee (Sugar-free)” because I trust what I see than what is labeled from the grocery. Yea I don’t trust food just like guys.

Any advice on how to get out from a baaaad binging episode?

Please

Oh honey, do you want to go shopping?

I hate going to buy clothes.

When people ask me why I don’t like shopping, I tell them it’s because it bores me, but the truth is that when I go into a store, I’m excited to see all those dresses and skirts, but then when I see my reflection, I remember that my body doesn’t look the way I would like it to and that probably none of those clothes will look good on me.

Those thoughts make me want to cry and I get frustrated, I leave the store and come home with empty hands and an empty stomach I don’t want to fill.

Stay safe♡