#cigarrettes

I am 7 months with my boyfriend now, and he is leaving on August of this year to another continent. He is staying there for an entire year (he is 11 years older than me) and I am afraid, because we still dont have “The conversation”, I don’t know if he wants us to continue with a long distance relationship, or if he wants to break up. I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately, because time passes by really quickly and it is less than two months for his leaving. 

I think he wants to break up, because its a whole year with a girl who is totally younger than him, he needs to be married in less than 5 years, because he will be over thirty, and I will be less than 25, what is he thinking? I want to stay with him, but my age is an obstacle right? maybe he is only with me because he has no one to be with? or is it my head creating random and horrible stuff to let him go?

It makes you think about you, about the things you’ve done and about the things you are going to do. 

I always define myself as insane, crazy or mad, just because I see things in a different way. That doesn’t make me what I think I am, I think it makes me special, and I recently discovered this because of my new boyfriend.

It can sound really stupid, but he made me look at my life from a different point of view. I am not the jealous girlfriend or insane girl, actually, I am very comprehensive and mature. We just need to analyze our lives from a different point of view and see that our imperfections make us perfect.