#dont leave

please don’t fall out of love with me

I am 7 months with my boyfriend now, and he is leaving on August of this year to another continent. He is staying there for an entire year (he is 11 years older than me) and I am afraid, because we still dont have “The conversation”, I don’t know if he wants us to continue with a long distance relationship, or if he wants to break up. I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately, because time passes by really quickly and it is less than two months for his leaving. 

I think he wants to break up, because its a whole year with a girl who is totally younger than him, he needs to be married in less than 5 years, because he will be over thirty, and I will be less than 25, what is he thinking? I want to stay with him, but my age is an obstacle right? maybe he is only with me because he has no one to be with? or is it my head creating random and horrible stuff to let him go?

It doesn’t bother me that he may be off sleeping with other girls because I know from experience that sex does not equal love. What scares the shit out of me is thinking one day he might walk into a coffee shop or something and see some girl and fall in love. I don’t want to be left empty.