#thinking
My mind goes in overdrive a lot like it just can’t stop thinking. It jumps from one thing to another, so erratically I can’t keep up and the thing is nothing makes sense.
When my mind gets like this, my skin gets itchy like I need to do something and I don’t know what it is, I have this dire need to something, anything if it’ll calm my brain but nothing does.
This can last for a day, a few days, a week, a month and the entire time I just can’t think and I still have to pretend to be okay, pretend that I’m coping, but really my thoughts are drowning me.
Hello - a happy 2021 to all. I hope you and yours are keeping well, wherever in the world you may be. My 2021 has gotten off to a rocky start, what with the whole rampage through the US capitol occupying my attention. That and other things. I do, however, have an important aspect of 9 11 10 to talk about - and a favor to ask of readers, if it would interest you.
That aspect is: anti-Semitism in the fic.
Someone has let me know, recently, that the erasure of the land of Israel in my AU, via nuclear war, and the substitution of Eretz Galut as a Jewish homeland - especially being in Russia - is inherently anti-Semitic. I sincerely apologize for any anti-Semitism in this fic.
I think I have figured out a way forward: un-nuke the major cities of the Middle East (except for Cairo, which is on the top-50 population list for 1950 - sorry, Cairo), changing Galut and any Galuti cameos entirely - different purpose, different cultural elements - and making the surrounding land mainly Buryat again, after the Bitva pri Baykale (sorry, centralized Russian surface power and subterranean remaining-U.S.S.R. power.) I also want to get some Sephardic presence in Albany.
The thing is: I’m not Jewish myself. And I do not want to compound anti-Semitism by doing something incorrect. So please, if there are any Jewish readers of “9 11 10″ out there, still, I would appreciate a note in the inbox, if you’d let me pick your brains on some things.
Thanks for reading, and everyone stay well. When you can, get your vaccines and kick the Rona in the teeth!
thinking about
they say distance makes the heart grow fonder
but that’s only because we’ve been gone longer
and i know that this could work
but i’m scared
because the once crystal blue lake
is now filled with murk
I don’t want to leave you
I don’g want you to leave
Because there’s a chance
that you’ll find someone better
Someone who’s there
Someone you don’t have to drive 5 or more hours to see
maybe once a month
I’m scared because I want to spend the rest of my life with you
and I know you do too
But what if someone better comes along
you don’t have to wait for months to see
You’re the one I’m going to grow old with
that much us obvious to you and me
but what if you decide it’s not worth it
that it’s too much hassle and heartache
that there’s a beautiful girl that’s right there
that you don’t have to wait on and drive 5 hours to see
what if she can give you more than me
what if she makes you happier than me
what if she makes it easier than me
what if it’s too hard to love me from so far away
what if it’s too much on you
I want to grow old with you
and live on a little farm house
with our ducks and dogs and cats and lizards and plants
I want a family and a comfortable life
even if we have to struggle
I want you
But what if someone better comes along
and sweeps you off your feet
quicker than i did
better than i did
that you don’t have to drive 5 or more hours to see
fuck im lonely
I need to find a new thing. The more my anxiety is taking over the more I need something to direct my thoughts toward that is not real life.
focused thinking vs diffuse thinking
focused thinking
▫️ targeted, concentrated and narrow thinking
▫️ need for a specific tasks
▫️ essential for acquiring knowledge and understanding
▫️ active
The strength of focused thinking lies in its ability to analyze and solve problems in a sequential manner
diffuse thinking
▪️ general, broad and conceptual thinking
▪️ creates connections and links
▪️ essential for consolidation of memory
▪️ passive
Rather than being focused on a defined path, diffuse thinking allows your subconscious to make unexpected connections between disparate ideas
The trick is not to choose between the two approaches, but rather to cycle between focused and diffuse thinking for the most significant impact
Want to learn an unfamiliar and challenging concept ❓ Study it with focused thinking, then let your brain shift into diffuse thinking. The combination will allow your conscious brain to investigate the idea while your subconscious mind forms new links and connections to embed it into your memory and thinking
“It was in the Klondike I found myself. There nobody talks. Everybody thinks. You get your true perspective. I got mine”
- Jack London
When I actually think about it I really have no other hobbies than the male gaze
Only reblog if your not gay
All I want to do is close my eyes and when I open them be somewhere far away from where I am right now, where no one knows me but everyone wants to, and I a chance to finally be something.
trying to come up w a good song for a robbie edit… what lyrics fit him…
“It is hard to be understood, especially when one thinks and lives as the current of the Ganges moves.”
—F. Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil, §27 (excerpt).