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Daily Horoscopes, 4.30.21

Aries: We live in a world where talking about money in spiritual circles is considered dirty. Money is for the bourgeoisie, or the capitalists to worry about. But this tidy fiction covers up the vast inequality that can’t be done away with money spells or perfect surrender. We all need a certain amount of resources to live. We often don’t get to control their inflow. How, then, do you find stability? How can money be a source of freedom rather than a site of imprisonment? There must be something else you’re valuing or working towards; let money serve that. Don’t let what you own hold you back. 

Taurus: You have the power to weave your own song of freedom, dear Taurus. Your sense of self is fused to a rebellious spirit who doesn’t want to be pinned down. How can you turn your decisions towards the unexpected while still keeping your center? Know that change is scary. Letting go of the past is always a loss of some sort. But if you try to hide from the change, it will come back bigger and outside of your control. How can you be the harbinger for change, for something new and big in your life? Can you let the fear or trepidation have a home too?

Gemini: Can you let go of control, dear Gemini? Can you let go of the thinking and planning that covers up the intimacy that comes with squarely facing the unknown? For better or worse, the power to change is not in your hands today. It is something unexpected, creeping up from out of nowhere. It is your job to surrender well, bringing all your worries and hesitations with you. What is arising comes from a part of you with which you are still uncomfortable and hence placed in the unconscious. Clear everything away. Hold onto nothing and see the wide realm of possibility before you. 

Cancer: Right now your energy is focused on your future. Right now, your visions for the next part of your life may need to be reshifted. This can be difficult for you, as your future has often been a source of grounding; now it is asking you to rise up and change. Perhaps this change is coming from a friend or community member. This transit is essentially a social one to you; how do you want to show up to others? How are potentially rigid views stopping you from serving right here in reality? Presence now is all we can rely on; the rest is out of our hands. 

Leo: You never have to commit to one way of showing up. You never have to hold onto a vocation or a role that no longer brings you alive. This transit is all about staying abreast with the neverending impermanence of the world. You are not a failure because something has ended or you need to shift your approach. Be open, instead, to unexpected opportunities to bring your new role into the public. Even better if it’s weird or hasn’t been done before. Embrace finding your own lane that no one else could fill. 

Virgo: We need to shake up our belief systems every once in a while lest we stop growing. Know that any system of thought or overarching belief is only temporary; some small part of the ineffable whole. You may find yourself drawn to books or systems of thought that seemed to radical for you. Wonderful. You may find beliefs that keep you small untenable. What journeys will you make to get to the truth of things? What outside sources can you call upon? How can you question the institutions of knowledge that constrict our thought? Learn your way. See how it changes your seeking. 

Libra: “Each that we lose takes part of us;

A crescent still abides,

Which like the moon, some turbid night,

Is summoned by the tides” Emily Dickinson tells us. Something or someone of which you were quite fond may be on its way out. Things on loan are now being asked back. Spend plenty of time in grief today, dear Libra. To prepare the ground for the next stage, you must clear what is taking your energy unbidden. You must see all the loose ends you have not cut. Consider what you really want from others. Honor the traces left behind. 

Scorpio: We may see freedom and partnership as incompatible. But this only rings true if your whole self is not included in the relating, or if distance is seen as a detriment. There will always be chasms between individuals, no matter how close they may be. In the poet Rainier Maria Rilke’s words: “But, once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue to exist, a wonderful living side by side can grow up, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole and against a wide sky!”. Trust whatever else falls away. 

Sagittarius: You are confronting the part of our lives that always seems destined to box us in: labor, chores, the actions that keep life going. We all have some tethering to the body and its many needs. But we also have the burdens of a late capitalist world that forces us to increase our work without increasing the value of said work. Such unequal arrangements will not be tenable for you. The normal flow of labor will be disrupted in some way today and it’s not because you should throw out all work. Simply point towards what gives you something back; your freedom. 

Capricorn: “The quality of light by which we scrutinize our lives has direct bearing upon the product which we live, and upon the changes which we hope to bring about through those lives” Audre Lorde tells us. We need to be conscious of what we shine our attention on: it is what grows and shapes existence. Within the dark places, she goes on, is a store of unexamined creativity and potential. Poetry, or art in general, then, bridges the gap. It “forms the quality of the light within which we predicate our hopes and dreams toward survival and change”. What beautiful hidden things will you bring to light, dear Capricorn? What censure will you resist today?

Aquarius: “The meaning of freedom can never be grasped by the divided mind” Alan Watts tells us. “But to the whole mind there is no contrast of “I” and the world”. Is there a divide between who you feel yourself to be and the world in which you act? We are talking about a deep feeling of separation, one that follows us into solitude. But dare to imagine yourself as continuous with the world. Find a home in its shape, knowing you have the power to change just as it does. “No one fates and no one is being fated’. With that in mind, how will you shape the changing world?

Pisces: How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives, as Annie Dillard tells us. What you are used to relying on regularly— daily tasks, routes, places, interactions— is undergoing a shift. What is familiar may now feel stifling or else shift into something more mysterious. But ultimately, these changes just reflect a deep alteration in your own psyche and the structure of your mind. What new habits or rituals can you enact to let this new, more freedom-oriented mind state take hold. What are you accumulating into a life over these passing days? 

Daily Horoscopes, 4.29.21

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Aries: Ask the big questions. Seek to understand what is around you and don’t stop until you have found a satisfactory path or resource. Don’t underestimate the power of a clear intention and purpose undergirding the rest of your day. One of the tantalizing things about a journey is getting lost, so don’t be alarmed if confusion arises. What this space allows you to do is reassess what you value. Where does support come from? What makes you feel safe? Gather these ingredients from the deep and consider a foundation that is not tied to things. 

Taurus: While the ambient mood of the day may be hard to pin down, don’t doubt your ability to speak your truth. The power to communicate, to put the numinous into words, is yours. Your mind naturally drifts to the future, so why not explore this unknown? Try to understand your next steps without relying too heavily on the thinking mind; ask for help or guidance, and then trust how you interpret your signs or insights. Pay attention to the part of you that needs permission to speak. See what happens when you just say it, do it. 

Gemini: you are not in charge of the words; you are not in charge of what speaks. Your sense of your path may be hazy today and that is where the magic happens, if you allow it. There is always a point in the hero’s journey where the lotuses are offered or the poppies release their sleeping spores. The key is to not get caught too long on this resting place. Gather your focus once again from your intimate partners and collaborators. Treat them like a sounding board, or a focused return back to your feelings and bounded self. Then go towards the shadow again. 

Cancer: Your ambient focus today is on all that needs to get done. It need not be a burdensome task, especially if variety and play is included. See how compatible these tasks are with your current worldview. Perhaps it wants more rest from you, most inner looking. There is a direct channel of insight to the divine, so pay attention to your dreams. Call on your communities to help decipher or guide these hazy messages. Offer what you work for and create today to others; see how it takes on a life of its own, just by being shared. 

Leo: While pleasure still reigns today, take note of what arises from the deep. Engage yourself creatively today, staying connected to the message or belief that fuels your art. Deeper issues and shadowy unconscious factors may be arising as you engage with your art and this need not be a problem; as long as you feel safe enough to go their, I see it taking your art to a deeper place if you can surrender to what comes up without trying to master it. This vulnerability is a huge part of your gift and what you can share with others. Make public moves on your career path; see how other respond to your vulnerability and authentic highs and lows. 

Virgo: You don’t need to leave your house to go on an adventure; find what journeys you can take from the comfort of your usual surroundings. Find the mystery in your loved ones. It may seem like they’re confusing you with their inexactitude and anodizing presence but see your people as a portal to a deeper understanding. You have the ability for a direct message from the divine, or a deeper insight into a field of study. Pass the knowledge through your body first; notice how it lands. You do not walk your path alone, not in body or spirit. 

Libra: Pay attention to the conversations you have today; they will take on a more subjective hue and can serve as a reflection for your own inner state. Keep your body and mind in motion, though know the real work comes from knowing when to rest. Keeping up your normal level of productivity may be difficult today, so shift your focus toward inner work as much as possible. Ground this work in ritual or regular practice, whether that be praying at an altar, meditating for twenty minutes, or writing intentions down in a journal. Your mind is skilled at getting to the bottom of deeper issues, so writing through those is also a useful activity. Expand that definition of “useful,” anyway. 

Scorpio: Today you are well aware of what you have and what you are willing to spend. Be judicious in how you spend your energy and go all in on something that brings you joy. You need not understand it or know what it’s “for,” but follow the artistic muses to the very bottom. Be replenished by the satisfaction that creative work can bring when unencumbered by time, space, limiting ideas. If having trouble expressing your vision, call on a close friend or partner. They will help unlock your voice in a grounded, fertile way. 

Sagittarius: You may still be more emotional than usual but you also have the power to direct your powers of nourishment. Do you need free space to roam? New ideas? Lively conversation? Indulge yourself, sweet Sag. Don’t neglect your downtime either; it is a portal that comes out when comfort is achieved. Deep dreaming takes place there. Let the replenishing aspects help in your work life as well. Don’t be afraid to give voice to your new ideas or speak up when you need rest or different boundaries. Find the mysterious eye in the center of activity; who are you when your borders aren’t closed? 

Capricorn: Take plenty of time to rest today. Take note of your dreams. You are apt to receive important messages from liminal places; if feeling lost, call on the language of runes, tarot, I-Ching or any other divination tool that helps ground you. Your conscious understanding may not be satisfied, but trust that some mysterious part of you is keeping the score. The best way you can metabolize these messages is through art. Do something that brings joy to your life and connects you to your body. See what you have to say. 

Aquarius: Find some way to stay connected; reach out to networks or communities that sustain you and make you feel alive. Spend time envisioning your future; where you want it to take you. What resources do you still need to enact that future? Your priorities may be shifting. Resource is more than just money and you are apt to notice when your psychic reserves are low. Your inner capacity is a valuable asset. Take some time to replenish these sources of power. Express yourself freely. Tune into your body’s messages. Emerge again. 

Pisces: You feel good with a healthy amount of visibility today; it spurs your further on your own becoming. What public role or vocation feels good to you? How does it connect to what you already are, who you already feel yourself to be? We are not trying to become something we’re not, but unlock the deeper levels of our own potential. What steady, embodied practices can you engage with regularly to connect in with your sense of self? Are there skills you want to cultivate or rituals you want to maintain? These regular actions are crucial. They make you. 

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Daily Horoscopes, 4.28.21

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Aries: What you’re feeling isn’t behold to sense. What you’re feeling need not be useful or in search of larger aims. Keep this in mind as you find yourself down rabbit holes you normally consider yourself too composed to fall into. There is strength in accepting forces larger than you, whether that be feelings, familial cycles or the exchange of money. By trusting the opportunities that arise from presence and surrender, you can access the next piece of the puzzle. Trust your curiosity and your desire for understanding after you’ve undergone the necessary initiation. 

Taurus: You will most likely experience a lot of emotional action surrounding your relationships today. It is up to you to consider whether this intensity is welcome healing and when it just adds further complication to your life. The creation of boundaries can be helpful today but remember that boundaries don’t have to always be rigid. What we need to protect one moment may want to be open again the next moment. Notice the flow of connection and contemplation in your day and the power of merging not simply because someone else demands it. 

Gemini: Going inside can feel like a struggle. Like a trudge, or somehow distracting from the Good Stuff. But part of this feeling arises from taking on more than you can handle. Just because you can detach and process a lot of information at once doesn’t mean you don’t need to pause, or be judicious with your energy. Take on what you can handle of your own baggage first, then go for those who help you better understand these tasks. Your people should make you feel bigger. They should help you find your intuition in the midst of all your thinking. 

Cancer: Today is a great day to both work and play. Musician Bill Callahan said this when speaking of his creative process: “Writing can be many things besides just writing, right? Looking at art, listening to music, going for a walk—it’s all part of the process sometimes”. Expand your idea of productivity to include all the threads you follow and all the little desires you give into. By taking a bigger view of labor, we can see the usefulness in what resists easy consumption or the assignation of exchange value. Work for what you love, dear Cancer. 

Leo: Start the day reveling in the psychedelic quality of your inner life. Where does it come from, your thoughts, feelings, imaginings? Consider all of the unknown ancestors who gave you your qualities and affinities, and find a way to honor the past. There is meaning there and later on you will be inspired to do something with what you find in this inward searching. Value your privacy as a site for creation. Let pleasure and curiosity guide you. 

Virgo: If feeling bogged down by feelings or worries, I recommend writing. Not trying to control the flow of words, simply let them fall out like a stream and see what next images or insights arise from this exercise. Notice the way you speak to yourself or communicate your needs. Do you honor your desires or button them up? In the latter half of the day, you may find yourself needing more alone time. Treat this going inside like a journey. See how your inner life can expand and breathe without the presence of others? Erecting boundaries teaches people how to love you best. It teaches you how to love you. 

Libra: What are you holding onto? What concepts, things, situations does your happiness feel dependent upon? Don’t be afraid if you have to let go. Find ways to relax into presence, accepting what you cannot change rather than disrupting your peace over it. You don’t have to play the role that no longer suits you. By taking a deep look at your resources, you can find opportunities for new paths and discoveries. You support this process by devoting yourself to the daily practice of ritual. What in your everyday life is meaningful? How can you do the work to draw it closer?

Scorpio: Emotions are going to be a big part of how you make decisions today, dear Scorpio. The rub comes, of course, when you try to please every instinct and feeling that arises. Watch for paralysis in the face of deep feeling; something taking a step back from the issue is the best decision. I expect the pathways to get cleared out eventually, especially if you prioritize security. What do you need to feel safe? What can you draw closer? From there, you can explore and expand safely. Let your insights contribute to your sense that nothing is wasted. 

Sagittarius: Your emotions take on a blurry quality today. Your dreams may be hazy. Your needs may feel contradictory. Know you are also especially porous today. Be careful of what you let in. Notice what makes you feel larger than just a body. This liminal exploration will help you feel bigger in your thoughts. From there, your emotions become extremely clear and much more buoyant. Let your feelings guide your actions in the latter half of the day, especially if they are coming from a place of joy. Trust that the truth is closer to happiness than judgement. 

Capricorn: You can keep your dreams to yourself today. Give them plenty of free space to roam and imagine all of the things you want happening. Think of the people or resources you need to get there. Be open for a potential opportunity springing up around midday that contributes to your larger vision. Then confusion may set in. You may feel unsure where to go next, or some unhelpful feeling may arise out of nowhere; perhaps a longing without a name. Imagine yourself in a fairy tale or myth, exploring a strange new land. You don’t have to know the rules to find the treasure or magic object; you just have to keep walking. 

Aquarius: What do you share with others, dear Aquarius? Your sense of privacy and discretion may be stoked when you think of sharing your gifts in public but your vulnerability is a gift to all. Think about how you can include more of yourself in your public image or social role without straying too far away from your comfort zone. Notice who comes forward as a source of support or possibility. See how your true community fortifies and expands your efforts. By sharing yourself, you let others know they aren’t alone. You aren’t either. 

Pisces: Your intelligence need not fit into institutional ideas of education. Your intelligence need not be divorced from your feelings, and actually benefits from your own, unique perspective. Indulge your curiosity today but pass your findings through your sense of what feels true, letting this intuition guide your journeying. Soon enough, you will have plenty to share with others, or at least help you click deeper into your specific calling. Your presence is a gift. Celebrate this act.

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