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Rant. And some of yall are gonna feel a way and I don’t give a **fuck**:I’m getting realllll tired of little Asian kids leaving me comments  (on Tiktok) about the 1992 LA Riots as a justification of why “the Black community owes the Asian community respect” after Asians showed up in 2020 to **start** marching with Black folks as if BLM was a new thing this year.I imagine these collective teens sitting in their rooms, looking for anything to say about Black/ Asian relations, googling “Black on Asian Crime” and finding articles on the LA Riots, proclaiming “Aha! This is it!” and going to town in the comments of these discussions.b/c ALL of them reference this singular event as some sort of origin story for the tensions between Blacks and Asians and I’m like, y'all aren’t gonna sit UP here and pretend like MOST OF yalls society isn’t antiblack as FUCK, and even if I weren’t Asian I would be saying this.

FURTHERMORE you little shits need to recognize that had it not been for the Black community yall asses parents (NOR MY MOM) would be over here in the US (Immigration Act of 1965, part of the Civil Rights movement). ALSO: it’s not like there wasn’t Black and Asian SOLIDARITY WAY before 1992. Going back to the civil rights era, you can simply google Black Power + Yellow Peril. 

Yet these little children want to be mad at me because I talk about Joe Tsai (owner of the Nets) donating 50 million to Black causes and how that does NOT give Asians the right to be like “Blacks you owe us respect” Bitch get the fuck out of here. That man makes millions off of the NBA which is LARGELY BLACK, ticket sales, ads, endorsements, concession stand sales ETC are because of BLACK PEOPLE just because these billionaires are playing Monopoly with Teams and companies and industries fueled by Black and Brown folks DOES NOT mean that they can’t get MORE money. It’s in the nature OF BILLIONAIRES. The man founded ALIBABA and CONTINUES to make money in the NBA and Lacrosse why? Because he likes collecting sports Teams? NO because he can make MORE money. So he gives Black folks 50 million. Ok. thanks. I wish more people would, but YOU little shits aren’t going to do is act like 1) The BLACK community owes YALL ASSES ANYTHING 2) That the entire Black community hates Asians. GTFOH.Little fucking kids. 

Gonna raise my pressure. 

We often talk about marginalized people and how they are the most oppressed within a society.

To be “marginalized” means that you do not fit in with the norm; it means that the way you identify is on the outside. You are not center stage and front page. You are, in fact, on the margins of the page.

I’m a supporter of most marginalized communities. I root for the underdog. I care about folks being treated fairly within a democratic society no matter how they identify or how they were born.

But there’s one group that I just can’t get behind. There’s one marginalized group that I refuse to back and support in their endeavors to bring awareness to their cause. I try not to give them my time, resources, labor, or money.

I’m talking about the group known as stupid idiots.

Now, I know what you’re going to say. I can hear you from the other side of your device screen: “They’re the majority, not the minority, not the marginalized, not the oppressed!” I can hear you screaming that “idiots are currently in control!” or something like that.

And while that might be true for politics and government, I want to focus on another kind of stupid idiot right now. Given that a lot of my focus has lately been dedicated to the relationships between Black and Asian communities, I’ve come across a lot of discourse that suggests the existence of a group of stupid idiots who believe that a race war between people of Black and Asian descent is coming soon.

The latest round of conversation centers on events that have taken place in Minneapolis Minnesota. An Asian woman was kicked in the face while waiting for public transportation.

In response to that incident an Asian man in Minnesota allegedly (we will come back to that word momentarily) roamed the streets in the middle of the night to find a Black guy to attack.

There is video of both of these incidents.

Now, most people would agree that the attackers in both videos are stupid. The teens were stupid to kick the woman in the face, and the Asian guy was stupid for attacking a random Black person in the streets.

It’s the stupid idiots that would try to justify either of these actions. Idiots would blame this pandemic on Asians and justify the teens attacking the Asian woman. Idiots would watch this man walk around a neighborhood in search of “revenge” and think “yeah he’s doing the right thing.”

It’s no surprise that these idiots mainly live in the comments sections of the outlets that post about these stories. You’ve got NextShark for Asians, The Shade Room for Black folks, and a whole bunch of other fb and ig pages to choose from; some more biased than others; some more antagonistic than the rest.

And my focus here today is actually on those outlets, and one in particular that has gained a massive following on instagram and one that I have had private run ins with in the past. “AsiansWithAttitudes” is an instagram page that promotes itself as being “pro asian”, “Asian first”, and a “voice of the asian people”

Typically I love this type of action from the Asian community. I’m a strong believer in Asian people stepping up and representing themselves in the media and in the world. For far too long, Asians have been put on the back burner, and so places like Nextshark, Angry Asian Guy, Ricefeed and plenty more pages act as a beacon of confidence for Asian people, young and old.

Unfortunately, these pages don’t have huge staff, and so the comments often get out of control when a stupid idiot enters the chat. It only takes one of them to light the flame of racist conversation, whether they’re trolling or not, whether they’re asian or not, because we know that there are plenty of bots out there behind faceless profiles saying any and everything to start some mess, and suddenly people who align with that high key antiblackness show up in droves. It happens all-of-the-time.

The good news is that stupid idiots are the minority. They’re on the margins in this specific instance, because I constantly see a lot of Asian folks also calling out the negative double standard and unfortunate situation of being a minority in the position that Asians are in, while simultaneously existing next to Black people, a people with a very long history of oppression in *this* country.

Most people are actually smart. Most people get it, and most people don’t try to compare what is happening now with the state-backed and protected murder of Black folks that has existed throughout the history of the United States.

And so, I typically leave the comments alone. Stupid idiots are going to be stupid idiots.

But what do you do when you have a page like AsiansWithAttitudes? What happens when one of the stupid idiots rises and makes an instagram page that amasses a huge following and becomes a haven for people who constantly measure their oppression against the oppression of Black people and blames them for their suffering, instead of pointing at the actual reason for the division?

If you haven’t figured it out by now, this isn’t all about a single instagram page. Rather it’s about a collective of people who think like the person running that page and their followers. These Asians who think they’re doing the right thing in their pursuit of social justice by somehow throwing one of the most oppressed groups on the ladder of privilege under the bus? They’re stupid idiots.

They may be in the minority, and therefore a marginalized group, but I feel nothing for them and I can’t support them in their misguided efforts at fake wokeness; not when they’re incapable of doing the simple algebra that it takes to realize that Black people aren’t the enemy just because some Black people are attacking Asians in the streets.

But their antiblackness shows. Their disdain for Black people oozes through their words and positions on these matters so clearly that I can’t help but shake my head at how idiotic they truly look.

If you’re out there and you’re Asian and you are looking to do something to move Asian people forward, don’t be like these people. Do a lot better.

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I have truly wanted to talk about this for a long time but I never had the first clue as to where I would begin. Even now, I’m not really sure how to begin tackling this huge subject or how to go about breaking it down.

But the longest journey starts with just the first step and so today I want to talk about Rice Queens, Potato Queens and how their nasty and vicious cycle impacts and affects my life, spirit, soul and very existence. 

And to be clear, MOST things have little to no impact on how I go about living my own life. I recognize that being able to say that comes with a mountain of privilege in and of itself, and I’ll save you the laundry list of privileges I’m talking about. 

Instead, I’ll start by defining the terms rice queen and potato queen for those of you who managed to click on this video out of sheer curiosity verses those of you who came to this video with your tea cups out and ready to receive this scalding chai matcha latte mix. 

So just really quickly: A rice queen is a person, who is usually but not limited to being white and specifically and almost exclusively only dates asian people. Thusly, a potato queen is an Asian person who solely and exclusively dates white people. 

There’s actually a documentary on youtube all about it if you want to check it out. Just search the term rice queen. I tried watching some of it for this very essay, but by god, I just can’t stomach it. 

“but why?” you might ask. Why are you so obsessed… why are you so in the business of who other people love? If you were trolling me, you might even say “you’re gay and there are plenty of people out there who don’t agree with who you love but you go on about your business and they kick rocks” right? 

Well if you’re reading/watching this on a friday, which there’s a one in seven chance that you are, then I can say “false equivalency friday!” If not, then it’s just a regular false equivalency. 

You see, because I’m Asian, more specifically, because I’m Filipino and was raised around hello Filipino and other Asian folks, growing up in southern California, and just because a whole bunch of them are so fucking attractive, I am attracted to Asian men. 

I feel like I I have to make that clear because white supremacy, which we will certainly address in more depth as this goes on, has tried to keep Asian men, both straight and gay, under its boot for the past few centuries by calling them feminine and undesirable.

So yeah, Asian men are a type of men that I’m completely into; rightfully so and very much within my right. But to be clear, I’m into all types of men; so let me stop you before you come at me with the “well I’m white and I’m into Asian men and you’re making a whole essay about me and that hurts my feelings” thing. 

So, because I’m into Asian men and because Rice Queens and Potato Queens, a match made in Heaven (or hell depending on your stance) have a dynamic that is so prevalent in gay society, along with the way Anti Blackness is set up, I, a person of Black and Asian descent, am often left out of the mix when it comes to who Gay Asian Men are willing to date. 

I don’t make this claim lightly at all. I have been waiting years to say something about this, and aside from maybe one public instagram post and a few rants dancing around the topic on instagram stories, which have all disappeared and no longer exist except in my personal archive, I have yet to speak directly and confidently about this; but it is a thing. It is SUCH a thing. 

And because it is such a thing, I’m often left out in the dust. While gaysian men everywhere are just living their lives and having their preferences which almost always exclusively lean toward white men, I’m on the side lines taking notes. 

When the topic is raised within gaysian communities, just so that you know I’m not the only one who complains about this; yes non rice queen gaysians take issue with rice queen gaysians as well; there will undeniably be that moment when one gaysian says to the rest of the group, either digitally or daringly in real life, that who one dates is none of anybody else’s business and that we  should all be able to like, love, have sex with or be attracted to whomever we desire.

We are, after all, individuals. 

But when you’re stuck on the sideline for so long. When person after person is seen with a white man, when white men who objectively do not look as good as you do KEEP on scooping up the guys; there is a problem. 

And just for this moment I want to remove the non rice queen gaysians from the equation as I was just using them as a way to show you that while I am mostly ranting about something that annoys me, this dynamic has an impact an entire other community within this LGBTQ community. Removing the non rice queen gaysians because they don’t have the added layer of Blackness that I do.

Let me stop those of you out there who are about to pounce on the fact that I’m attributing struggle to my Blackness: I love being Black and I wouldn’t change that for anything. 

That being said, it IS an added layer of challenge for ME when considering who to date where Asian folks are concerned. Not only do I have to ask myself “Is this gaysian a rice queen, I also have to ask are they a racist POS” as well. 

There’s a lot swirling around here and so I want to wrangle it all in while I’m on the note of my Blackness and talk to you about a little thing called White Supremacy and how it’s basically the cause of all of my woes and the driving force behind why potato queens prioritize white men when they could do so much better. 

That sounds harsh, but I challenge you to just pay attention to some of these couples; and I say some of because when I talk about looking better than these white men, I’m talking about those relationships that usually involve older white men and younger asians. 

There are entire organizations and circuits that have developed in the United States, devoted to enticing young immigrant gaysians with a promise of wealth and luxurious lifestyle by older white men. And plenty of gay asian men play into it. 

And while that is a conversation under the umbrella of both white supremacy and rice queen/ potato queen relationships, I do want to consider another vein of this same discussion; one that involves all parties, myself and people like myself included, being just around the same age and how white supremacy plays a roll in the decision making, where white men are concerned, of gay Asian immigrants’ as well as Americans of Asian descent. 

I feel like all of the puzzle pieces are there, but many of us involved in this conversation never spend enough time to actually put them together. I see plenty of Gay Asians who pontificate and preach about the oppression of Black and Brown people, but are dating white men and not realizing how their small contribution to this dynamic reinforces the grip of White Supremacy. 

Did they ever consider going on a date with a Black or Brown person? Or has the white beauty standard, which has tricked all of us, the entire world over, colonized their desires as well? 

Have potato queens had their heads buried in the sand so long that they truly cannot see how common it is to find a White/Asian couple whilst they chant “Black Lives Matter” at their local Gaysian collective meeting?

By now, I realize that my gripe is more with the Asians than it is with the White folks, because white folks gonna white folk. They’re going to continue to be mediocre in both the things that they can and can’t control and they’re still going to get rewarded for that mediocrity. 

I just wish that Gaysians would clock that, and do better. 

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Superman is bi?! And has a boyfriend?! And in an interracial relationship?! Heck yes.

I can’t wait to shoot this one day with a Jon Kent!

Happy Lunar New Year from me and my pandas! May the year of the tiger bring you safety and joy.

God said ✅