Imagine, just imagine someone that is so in love with you is scared to lose you. Scared to lose what you have just as much as you. That desire, the fondness, the love that brings you back together. The type of love where you say, “let’s fix it together”, “I’ve got you like you got you” or “take my hand, let’s do this together”. The love where the eyes meet and you can’t stop gazing at one another even from across the room. To be so in love that you do not know anything else. The world disappears, becoming silent as your heartbeat syncs in with theirs. Just imagine, imagine a positive love filled with happiness, laughter and joy. I simply can not wait, just imagine

3 tattoos; one guys basement :)

It’s cuul to juul in skuul

With it being national coming out Day I thought it would be best to share something personal.

On this day last year I remember being a terrified girl trying to “straighten” myself out. I started partying with people who made me forget who I was and it felt so good to feel like everyone else, like I didn’t have the weight of this secret on my shoulders. I would look at myself in the mirror and not recognize that person and I would smile because I didn’t want to be that terrified little girl anymore. Until one night I completely stoped thinking and at 1:30 in the morning I was in a 4 car collision trying to forget who I was and that night I remembered.. (I was thankfully ok and so was everyone else involved) I look back realizing that I was so unhappy I couldn’t care less what could happens to me. I didn’t think about all the people I could of hurt but most importantly I didn’t care about risking my life, just so I could forget myself. I couldn’t take it that everyday I would hear people and see people online talk poorly of the lgbt community. I didn’t want to be apart of that I would tell myslef, “I’m not an abomination like the rest of them”. Oh how wrong and disgusting I was. I never took the time to educate myself about the community and I believed what people were telling me. I have never been more proud to be apart of this community then I am right now. That very next day I was invited to another party like nothing happened, I never returned their call. I promised myself I would never loose sight of my happiness and I will never compromise who I am just for others comfortability . I can now say I know exactly who I am, I am proud of who I am and no I am not publicly out but everyone I surround myself with knows who I am. I am Emily Brown and I’m proudly gay! To my fellow lgbt+ community members who are just beginning their journey, know that you are loved by so so many and never NEVER forget who you are! I’ve always known I was different but my journey truly started when I realized I was sexually attracted to girls at 13 years old. Almost 5 years later and it’s a crazy roller coaster that’s still just in the beginning!

My Brain

You ever just lay in bed wondering what The point of being put on this earth was for? Then you think about love and her smile and you get all warm inside and you feel like you answered that ever elusive question but then you realize that that feeling for that girl will never be accepted by the rest of the people you love and you will for the rest of your life have to fight for it. Ya me too, but I guess that’s the real reason we’re here; to show that love is not always handed to everyone. That some people like you and me have to fight every day to be able to have that. Love to us, love to the whole LGBTQ+ community will never be taken for granted bc WE are the only ones that will suffer everyday hand in hand and I will for the rest of my life be greatful! So thank you universe I’m beginning to understand..

RIPto Katie’s youth.

I’d sell my left kidney to be in bed with my wife. Work ain’t it at the moment.