#heartbreaka
I have bruises on my body that was not created by your hands
But I ran before you could feel the scars
My heart sometimes doesn’t know the difference in pain and love
Loneliness devoured me from the inside out
So I tried to fill the void with what I craved instead of you
Somewhere in the ocean I got lost and ruptured my heart trying to get back to where I knew I belonged
And now that I am whole
Now that I am home
I am still sore from the bruises of before and stitched together in some of the wrong places
You are being punished for something you didn’t create
But I destroyed unwillingly
When the pieces of me I saved for you were stolen I was too late to save them
I was ruined and demeaned
All I wanted was to un-taste the poison that was placed inside of me
Stripped of everything I thought I could survive the cold
Any storm that shook the ocean but I had nothing left to shelter the important parts inside of me I went too far and had no way out so I let go and gave in to sins I were ashamed of
I drowned myself while learning how to fight to breathe
I was too tired to stay But chained by my guilt and grief I was far away in a place I wasn’t welcomed
I was ruined and used and alone
and I couldn’t find your love at the end
I placed my soul in the devils hands begging for mercy
I fought to live
I fought to taste life instead of my salty tears I dug myself out of hell
Naked and alone
And now I am begging for you to stay
To love the pieces I ruined
And mend the parts of me you didn’t destroy
I will never forgive selling my soul for tasting a poison that was never mine Because I need your forgiveness more than my own
I could never tell you how it feels to be loved by a man who soothes my brokenness
To allow you to openly touch the vulnerable parts of me
And expose the places I’m ashamed of the most
I crave your love to forgive the pieces of me that gave into temptation and place the parts that belong back inside of me
But sometimes they don’t fit quite right
And sometimes my sewed up wounds open and for a moment I almost drown
So on the days it seems the hardest please forgive me the most
Because that’s what my soul craves
Unconditional love
And you
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