#i bought the paper copy of tsoa and im ready to cry

they say we die twice.

the first is when our bodies decay

and rot after being hammered down

by the adversaries of the earth—

the first is when hector drove his spear

into your flesh,

tearing through the skin i remembered

countlessly caressing

and ripping you to your end.

the last is when our names are said for the final time

then the world would tumble and turn

and forget of our existences—

so let me be the person who will

never forget to say your name.

you were taken from me too soon,

too fast;

my heart remains shattered as though

a taut spear that has been snapped.

so let me be the one

who will say your name

until the world will never forget who you are;

until even apollo feels the guilt of having

taken you from me;

until all i am is you.

- your name means more than i love you’s.