#ancient greek poetry
On the Greatness of Homer
Anthologia Palatina 9.24 = Leonidas of Tarentum (320-260 BCE)
The fiery sun, whirling its axis,
Dulls the stars and the moon’s holy circles;
Just so Homer has plunged into night
All the songsmiths in a mass,
Holding high the Muses’ brightest light.
ἄστρα μὲν ἠμαύρωσε καὶ ἱερὰ κύκλα σελήνης
ἄξονα δινήσας ἔμπυρος ἠέλιος:
ὑμνοπόλους δ᾽ ἀγεληδὸν ἀπημάλδυνεν Ὅμηρος,
λαμπρότατον Μουσῶν φέγγος ἀνασχόμενος.
Homer, Girolamo Troppa, between 1665 and 1668
the curse of my death is that
i am with you
through your madness,
stranded and unable
to save you.
— and they say it is mercy
we are children running on the shore,
sand creeping in the spaces of our toes
as we stomp hard enough to leave a mark
because this is all i know the world will remember me for.
we are children running on the shore,
feet never truly touching the sea
because something lives underneath the waves
and you always try to protect me from her.
we are children running on the shore,
hands clasped tightly with each other’s
as we cherish the times we have left to spend;
marking the days we did not know were counted.
and then i was a ghost stuck on the trojan shore,
desperate, and yet unknowing how, to come back to you.
— pyrrhus, why?
goddess,
how do you want me to love?
you think so lowly of this boy
who has scraped his wobbly knees
to chase this omnipotent being
that you call your son;
worships brimming from my throat
and spilling from my wounded lips
because he is a god amongst mortals.
you think so lowly of this boy
who does not want your son to perish
even if he is forgotten through time,
because what good is his epic
when he is dust?
you think so lowly of this boy
who loves achilles
for what he is not allowed to be—
a boy.
so tell me goddess,
how do you want me to love?
how do you want us to love?
— prayers thrown at the sea
mother,
am i selfish for being afraid
and angry
at the prospect of him loving another
once i am gone?
she said,
he will rather slice his own neck
than love someone not you.
i preen at her reply.
— am i like peleus?
so many times i have lain awake in silence,
hands pawing at the emptiness seated within my ribs
as though they knew that i am never myself without you.
so many times i have whispered your name,
the only part of you that i possess,
in hopes that it will satiate the desire i have for you
growing in me.
so many times i have wished for this day to come;
when my love is fully returned,
and my heart now whole as you offer me the half of yours.
so many times i have prepared myself for you,
but nothing ever prepared me for the loss that love would bring with it too.
— this is what i will lose
he weeps in his solitude
and calls for my name
as though it would bring life back to me;
as though it would bring me back to him.
—pa-tro-clus
i remember the figs and the grass
and the quiet in mount pelion.
i remember the casual looks
driven by unnamed feelings,
unsaid but not unrequited.
i remember master’s stories
and the lessons he imparted with us,
and i remember loving each shared moments—
those that we did not know were numbered.
i remember my skepticism in some of his teachings
but now i think of how true his words had become;
the greatest grief, after all,
was sending you to your death
while life continued to run through my veins.
philtatos,
we were separated once again.
-his blessings amidst our curse
the scent of pomegranates filter through the chasm
and i turn, hoping to see you—
you have never outgrew the smell of pomegranates on your neck and sandalwood on your legs—
but it is simply the goddess,
whom is beautiful beyond words to compare,
but never as beautiful as you.
she breaks the fruit open and hands me the seeds
and it feels like kissing you once again.
they do not tell me where you are
but surely, you were not meant to be in the asphodel meadows
where my mere soul rests.
it seems, my love, that even in the afterlife
the gods do not favour us.
- semantics of the dead
he grieves in silence;
continues on for days as though
he does not know how to live without me.
he has won the war
but he does not dare to celebrate,
and the life in his eyes leave
as if it were his ashes in the urn.
“who do you blame?” the god of the dead asks.
myself.
i do not answer.
- from the other side
why does an honourable death not deserve the same surge of grief and anger?
they look at me glass eyed as i mourned for your departure
and although they do not say it outright,
i catch them whispering to each other,
voices quiet as to not rouse the anger welling in me.
“we have won the war,” they say,
“patroclus died for us,” they continue as though i do not know this;
as though i do not map out the emptiness you have left.
that when i look at the cattle i think i can see you herding them in silence;
that when i turn on my side i think i can feel your chest from my back
and your arms on my waist
and your lips on my nape—
you are so integrated in my life and i see you wherever i look,
teasing me with your wide smile and your deep voice,
leaving goosebumps on my skin.
death took you away from me and yet it feels like you have never left,
and they do not understand that this is grieving.
because despite being blessed by the gods,
my eyes are still blind to ghosts
except for yours.
- the ghost of his memories
i made peace with death–
flirted with thanatos at the face phanes
and watched as the pillars of agamemnon
crumbled before hector’s vigour
because olympus loved only you.
i sent offerings to hades
and veiled myself with persephone’s flowers
because achilles, my love,
i am simply a song to your epic–
i am not meant to be with you.
when your mother dipped you in the river of styx,
i was already cursed with death
as i whimpered before my mother’s averted gaze;
you were made for more
and i simply am not.
so when i am gone
please do not ask what else you could have done;
do not antagonize yourself for my own grievances
because before i even met you
i already knew i would be leaving.
- the fate of your fated
when the war is over
i will only sing of our love;
the crowds will only know
of the time we had looked at each other’s eyes
and felt our hearts thundering within our chests
with the realization that there is
no one in this world,
throughout the scattered cities,
that i rather grow old with
but you.
they will only ever hear
of the way your hand shyly sought out mine,
tangling our fingers as we rested amongst
the sheep,
backs pressed on the grass
and eyes watching the clouds,
thinking of nothing
but the heat we share through our palms.
they will only ever see
of the love dripping from my eyes
as i recount the stories from our youths—
when we had yet to grasp swords
and only held each other.
love is all i will tell the people;
your name is all they will hear
because the war is unkind
and i will bury these memories
as i bring you back to life
through my stories.
i will only ever sing of our love
because that is the only way
i am able to keep you with me.
- poets and singers
they did nothing.
they knew how i felt about you;
saw the way we loved,
watched as promises spilled from our lips
and did nothing.
they knew what was going to happen–
planned the fallout before it began,
whispering amongst the stars
as we remained unknowing
and did nothing.
they led him to you,
led his spear on your body–
knew that the one behind the armour
was not me but you
and did nothing.
they did nothing
but take you away from me–
pawned your body to fight their games
and made me watch
as i lose the only person i have ever loved.
they did nothing
and that is when i knew,
it was not only mother
who was against us
but all of them too.
- how to fight the gods blind
[not a poem! but i really just want to talk about how stark the difference is between modern heroes and ancient heroes.]
see, modern heroes would sacrifice their lovers for the world—that was what made them heroes after all. they would abandon the very person they treasure the most just to save the people who shouldn’t matter to them from the villains.
but ancient heroes? so much of their stories are about vengeance for their dead lovers. i.e.: achilles killed hector and dishonoured his body because hector killed patroclus. achilles, in the same breath, refused to fight the war even if his brothers in arms were being killed by the trojans because agamemnon took briseis from him. twist his story, publish it in this modern context, and watch how achilles would be the villain.
so much of selfishness is associated to villainy these days, but back then? selfishness was what differed the heroes from the gods. so who’s to say which of the two versions is “better”?
when persephone visits me, i gain a part of my consciousness
enough to feel time pass by slowly.
i rise from the depths of nothingness,
only aware of his name.
i struggle from her hold,
fear gripping me taut and only then
does she gather me in her embrace.
she brings me flowers and places them
on my head, tucking them deep within my hair.
in her embrace,
i remember more.
i remember his eyes—
pools of green that reminded me
of life.
he is beautiful, i remember now.
when persephone visits me, i shake the
emptiness that engulfed me whole,
reminded of who i am still here for.
persephone must have seen herself in me—
a lover who can only wait.
- achilles, when will you come for me?
they say we die twice.
the first is when our bodies decay
and rot after being hammered down
by the adversaries of the earth—
the first is when hector drove his spear
into your flesh,
tearing through the skin i remembered
countlessly caressing
and ripping you to your end.
the last is when our names are said for the final time
then the world would tumble and turn
and forget of our existences—
so let me be the person who will
never forget to say your name.
you were taken from me too soon,
too fast;
my heart remains shattered as though
a taut spear that has been snapped.
so let me be the one
who will say your name
until the world will never forget who you are;
until even apollo feels the guilt of having
taken you from me;
until all i am is you.
- your name means more than i love you’s.
counting the stars as though they are the scars
licking your face
simply to ask you
do you ever wonder why we hurt?
you must think i am mad
for turning to you in search for the answer
as to why the fragility embedded in this world remains constant;
for looking at you as though you are all that mattered.
and maybe i should have made clear—
that when the battalion was assembled
and i was made to tuck my heart
deep within my chest,
that when you handed me your beloved armour
and i turned to the field
pretending you were embracing me—
you are everything my being calls for.
that when divine apollo led hector’s sword to my being,
all i felt was you.
- my lover, we meet in death
helen must be the only woman
who had been seduced by a goddess;
that when aphrodite bewitched paris,
so did she kiss helen.
- sappho’s jealousy
love comes so easily to me
that i was able to recognize the fire
ignited within the eyes of father’s champion.
aphrodite’s muses had always sung about
the different forms of love,
but i think this is the first i have seen of
love binding itself with anger;
with grief;
with mourning.
the first i have seen of love
born from hatred.
-come here young achilles, let me show you why they call me hecatus, the shooter from afar.
The Woes of Mortality
Sappho, fr. 91 Edmonds (=Aristotle Rhetoric1398b)
To die is an evil,
For so the gods have judged;
For were it otherwise,
They too would die.
…τὸ ἀποθνῄσκειν κακόν: οἱ θεοὶ γὰρ οὕτω κεκρίκασιν: ἀπέθνησκον γὰρ ἄν.Vanitas Still Life in a Niche, Adriaen Coorte, 1688
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Bene. Latine:
…Mori malum: Dei enim sic iudicaverunt: morerentur enim.