I haven’t drawn anything for myself in ages, but I suddenly got the urge to paint. So here’s me practicing a little looser style and trying not to over-render things :D
I have been thinking about this day for a while now. Today I mourn the loss of a man I have never even met, but oddly have felt close to almost all my life. The fact that I suffered a devastating loss of my own last fall makes this all the more poignant.
I feel a real sadness today, as I do on October 17 of every year. It is a day ingrained in me, a day I will never forget the meaning of, even if it means I feel grief for a total stranger who has been gone long before I was even thought of. It doesn’t make any sense, and I’ve tried to make sense of it, but there is a love in my heart for Chopin that is so special - and if you’re reading this here, I bet you feel that same love. I honestly feel as if I actually knew him… never in my life have I ever felt that for anyone else I never knew.
Our lives could not be more different - and yet it does not matter. His music makes me feel a magnitude of equal joy and sadness I have not experienced elsewhere. It is deeply moving and makes me cry a decent amount of the time.
It might seem silly, penning a letter to a man who never even knew my name, but I know his… and today, above all days, I will listen to his music and keep his memory alive, for he is always alive so long as we let him live through his music. Let his name never be forgotten among the crowd of talented composers. I like to think he watches us from Heaven and is overjoyed that his fans live on.
I am crying as I type this. Why does he affect me so? I don’t know. What I do know is that I’ll love him until the day I die, and I hope I can see him in Heaven someday.
Rest in peace, sweet Frédéric.
This is such an accurate description of what I feel <3
I would like to inform you all that arn’t on the teruteru appriciation discord server that I have a huge suprise coming up in the next few days. im super excited to share it with ya’ll! Stay tuned!
