- Having literal nightmares of disappointing the people you live with.
- Apologizing constantly for things way out of your powers (thanks again 2020)
- Falsly accepting that every frustration in other people is your fault.
- Over analyzing every interaction with every person before, after and during the interaction.
- Having a panic attack everytime you walk into a conversation
- Having a panic attack everytime you are confronted with a conversation you did not prepare for.
- Having a panic attack everytime a conversation goes into territory you did not prepare for.
- Having a panic attack running into or seeing an individual you know without context, even in the comfort of your home (ie, family members in your living room)
- Living in a constant state of stress and expectations and failures.
- Always expecting the worst reaction to your work.
I don’t know whose still around here but on the off chance a single person gives a shit, I’ve been doing really good and I’m really happy ❤️ I could go on a long post about it but the truth is I really don’t have it in me to keep up with tumblr like I used to. Forgive me but I’ve finally reached a place where my real life doesn’t need so much escapism ✨
jfc me, why does applying for a position feel so fucking unbearable??? Why do we spiral as to why we’re not good enough to get hired WHILE TRYING TO WRITE A COVER LETTER.
and i feel dizzy and nauseous from food hurting when i’m digesting it and not being able to take allergy meds and I wanna cry
what’s wrong w my brainnnnn
anyway, time to struggle through updating my commission prices
