#jehovahswitnesses
When shit goes down with my (2) friends I’m like, I really want to help. But it’s feels too much like situations I’ve been in before
When both sides confide in me, I’m back when my brother left the JWs. I know too much but apparently also nothing at all. I’m told everything but nothing. I want to do everything I can but this family’s falling apart regardless.
And you’re having a conversation about triggers and mental health but everyone thinks you just care so much but no one thinks maybe the reason I care so much and maybe the reason I know exactly what to say is because I’ve been here before, and I’ve failed before and I’ve thought about it a shit tonne and I’m not letting it happen again because this whole situation is FUCKING TRIGGERING JESUS CHRIST
*tw suicide*
OK so y'know how when people think of cults, they think like Jonestown and shit? So Jehovah’s Witnesses can’t be a BAD cult right?, because they’re not doing like mass suicides right?
Wrong.
Sure they haven’t gotten everyone together to drink the KoolAid or something. But think how many people have chosen to die because they won’t accept a blood transfusion, because they didn’t get an organ transplant, because they wouldn’t chose a side, because they wouldn’t carry a certain piece of paperwork… because of whatever
How many people would that be? A couple thousand? Tens of thousands? Who knows
But people *have* chosen to die because they were told to. By the Governing Body. How is it any different? How is it any better than them doing it all together in one place?
It’s absolutely not better, it’s actually worse because people still don’t think it’s a problem
I wish we could just say goodbye…
I’ve probably posted about this before but today Lady in Red came on
And I remember my dad picking me up as a child and slow dancing with me to that song. It’s one of my earliest memories. And I thought if I ever get married, we’d dance it again. It’s literally the main song I associate him with.
My dad never called me a princess or anything like that but he played this song and told me.
And he doesn’t remember that. Beyond all the obvious ‘I’m shunned and shit’ stuff, he doesn’t even remember twirling me around the living room to scratchy vinyl records. He doesn’t remember standing me on his feet to dance a waltz. He doesn’t remember it.
How the fuck do you forget that??
OK so I just had a weird moment of like revelation. Coz I know JWs are a cult. I know that. But I was watching a show about Jonestown and Jim Jones and like, a lot of it (around the middle when they’re established but before the shit hit) sounded eerily similar to JWs… like the way he spoke and the way they dealt with the rest of the world etc.
And I wasn’t expecting it because I know they’re cults and its all there in my brain but I wasn’t expecting just how much he sounded like that or how much the work ethic was like jws
It’s very uncomfortable…
