The tapes are the eye, the tapes are the web, the tapes are jon…
Consider with me. The tapes are Martin.
(This is not a theory post this is basically an au concept but I’m obsessed with it)
Consider a world where the last little threads Jon always had to cling on to, the tapes that told his story, told Martin’s story, helped him cling to his sanity and his humanity and chase Martin into the Lonely like a Big Damn Hero, none of them were there. I mean, tape recorders exist, but they’re just hunks of plastic and magnetic tape. Nothing supernatural about them.
Martin goes into the Lonely and there’s no helpful tape on Jon’s desk letting him know. By the time he tries to rescue him it’s too late, he’s fading into obscurity and emptiness with no connections and eventually Bad Ending—Lonely!Martin lost and lonely Jon.
But! The world doesn’t end. Elias fails because Jon basically vanishes. And Martin has vanished quite literally, now that he’s a lonely avatar who has embraced his invisibility powers. And he can’t stop thinking about Jon and everything he’s lost. And finally he decides not to just sit around, he’s Martin fucking Blackwood he needs to figure out how to fix it.
So he goes to the rift in hilltop road and he figures out his way through it and poof! He’s back at the beginning (yes this is another time travel au but HOLD ON WITH ME PLEASE)
But he’s still a lonely avatar, he’s still invisible, he’s too far gone to interact with anyone. He tries to talk to jon and he can’t, he passes through him like a ghost. He can’t fix anything. He can’t warn anyone. He’s just gonna have to watch it all play out again, and it’s almost too much to bear.
But then as he’s sitting and watching his old self, old jon, he hears again that conversation that feels so so very long ago. About how all Jon wants is to not be a mystery. And he thinks, even if I can’t save him, at least I can give him this.
And when he focuses, he can click on the tape recorders.
Just turn them on when he remembers things were important, at first, but later he feels solid enough to carry whole tapes around and slip them into Jon’s bag or put them down when he wants to capture something. Some of it is guesswork, he wasn’t there for all of it, but well, he is a writer. He can recognize a relevant moment in the plot of Jon’s life. His own life? Mostly incidental.
Though he does stand silent and invisible in the room as Elias mind breaks his former self, and he makes sure the tape gets it all. Someone wants to hear this. It can’t go unrecorded.
That is, up until the moment he sees himself disappear into the lonely again, but this time he can leave that tape on Jon’s desk. And isn’t it shocking to see how beautiful it is, Jon who has the strength of remembering who he is, that martin is there, he pulls them both free from the Lonely together. Future martin hadn’t even thought that was possible. He hadn’t thought the world allowed this kind of happy ending.
So he leaves them mostly alone, their happiness together can be just for them, until he’s caught just off guard as they are by the apocalypse. Elias hadn’t managed it in his universe, and he doesn’t know what to do. All he can do is drift along behind them as they go, trying to continue recording the story.
Until one day, Martin walks into his own domain, and for the first time in years and years and years, someone can see him. And well.
Also martin thinks it’s only polite to offer a cup of tea.
Me, at my character whom I created, whose dialogues I write, whose actions I decide, whose development and personality are completely under my control: Why are you such a bitch
hi hello have any of you ever been to veritas ATL, ERC Denver, Renfrew FL, or Montenido/Oliver Pyatt? Desperately trying to decide where to go and I really do not need any more trauma or character development
So obviously, I have stopped being active on this blog. I’ve recently branched off into filmmaking on a more consistent basis and photography is something I do much less frequently.
That being said, I probably will always upload photographs; the documentation/ sharing of my life is soothing, but my current focus is solely film.
In addition to my photos, from now on I will also upload the film projects I’ve worked/created now on. Enjoyy<3
I hope all is well and everyone and their families have remained untouched from COVID-19. With that out the way, I’ve been dugged up out of my “Pandemic Grave” because I wanted to discuss the topic of the Covid vaccines/getting vaccinated. My question is: What is it that actually makes you think the government is trying to poison you? What possess you think that this vaccine is some sort of biological chemical warfare? What gives you the audacity to “TRY” and control a woman’s uterus but we can’t even ask you ungrateful bastards to wear a mask, wash your hands, and get vaccinated without hearing about some unwritten constitutional rights being trampled upon. This human population control theory and rhetoric has begun to get old and stale quick. I understood being hesitant in the beginning, I was hesitant in the beginning as well, so I let the first round go first, and they’re still here. However, 700,000+ Americans aren’t here because COVID KILLED THEM. COVID KILLED THEM! Not the vaccine. COVID has successfully exterminated more people than ALL 3 COVID vaccines combined! Now,I understand everyone hoping on the bandwagon of some celebrity calling it a hoax, I get it, I do, because we regular folks think that they some how have the upper hand, some New World Order organization is sliding them information that we don’t know about. NEWS FLASH: Beyonce and Ellen or whom you mf’ers look up to is not sitting around a table with the elite plotting on our demise. The FUCKING Rockafellars aren’t sitting plotting our demise.
Y’all so damn smart you’re dumb. One, it was much better ways to take out billions of people much faster than this. Just think about it. Analyze it, and ask yourself if it makes sense. Secondly, YOU, YES YOU are paying the top 1% their money. You work for them, why would they intentionally eliminate basically they’re slaves? Why? A cease in their everyday Net Income gone make everybody think twice. Lastly, they need you patriotic Americans to fight in wars that only benefits them.
Another thing, I don’t give af if you’re democrat or republican, black/white/green, gay or straight, atheist or Christian we ALL bleed RED blood. Our genotypes may differ in certain DNA sequences but we ALL bleed RED blood. CORONA, however, don’t care about any of that, all Corona thinking about is attaching to a warm-blooded homosapien-sapien and thriving until it leaves you in an ICU bed, with machines alarming every minute, your family can’t be there, and you’re gasping for air. That feeling is real! THIS SHIT IS REAL! This shit way above Donald Trump and Joe Biden. It’s way above black/white/Asian/Hispanic. COVID is killing all of us. You know damn well politicians are using it for political gain and y'all falling for the okey doke, easily. Use your common sense, Pick up a book on Virology and learn a thing or five. Use your brain, you don’t go to a politician when you’re sick, you go to the doctor, right? So, why in the hell are you getting health recommendations from fucking Ted Cruz and Beto O’Rourke, why? Lastly, what gives you the authority to feel as if your right to autonomy trumps my right to live. We all deserve the common decency to wear a mask in public; unlike you healthy individuals out there who lacks the knowledge of how it really is to be ill, I, as an immunocompromised black woman, my 80 year old grandmother, your 80 year old mother, your dad with diabetes, your 6 month old cousin, and children under the age of 5 do; we have the same the rights under the Constitution of these United States that says and I quote:
“No State shall make or enforce any law which shall abridge the privileges or immunities of citizens of the United States;nor shall any State deprive any person of life, liberty, or property, without due process of law; nor deny to any person within its jurisdiction the equal protection of the laws.”
Loosely translated to:
“If you can monopolize off of my pussy to win an election, I can damn sure tell your ass to get vaccinated.”
