Out of Body - 15/25

Out of Body - Chapter 15 - GuineapigQueen - Super Junior [Archive of Our Own]

Kyuhyun finds himself more irritated at work than normal. At first he just felt achey, which isn’t abnormal for him so he decides just to push through. He’s his usual combination of hungry, cranky, tired and achy. He spends most days now looking at the clock, wishing it was time to go home already. He has a few more weeks before he goes on maternity leave. He could take some leave earlier but the longer he waits it out the more leave he’ll have once the baby is born. He thinks that he’ll want it more then. This sucks but he can make it work.

Maternity leave will be great though. He imagines being able to lie down during the day when he gets tired. Now he just has to sit at his desk and force himself to stay awake. If he has a poor sleep the night before he can try to make it up during the day. Maternity leave low-key sounds like paradise.

Out of Body - 14/25

Out of Body - Chapter 14 - GuineapigQueen - Super Junior [Archive of Our Own]

Kyuhyun is beginning to feel like all that he is to other people is just an incubator. Whenever people talk to him, at work, or on the bus or something all they want to talk about is the baby. And Kyuhyun understands that it is exciting, he sometimes just wants to have a regular conversation… he’d even take talking about the weather. It’s just that he has an identity outside of being pregnant. People used to see him as an individual, not a baby-carrier. Now he feels like that’s all he is to the outside world and it’s frustrating.

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“Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of all children”

-Eric Draven (The Crow)

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I am not a mother myself and I don’t wish to become one, but I am a daughter and a sister, a child of a broken home, as many others, I’m someone who witnessed and endured several common mistakes our parents made with my younger sister and I, but also, someone who knows with complete certainty those mistakes weren’t conscious.

So, once again I’m trying to convey what I’ve learned through what this brave woman shared with the world, with the main goal to help others and prevent them from going through what she and some other mothers, fathers, siblings and families have suffered unnecessarily.

I firmly believe Sue isn’t guilty or responsible for the crime her younger son perpetrated 20 years ago, tho, I know she committed some serious mistakes, out of ignorance, about the struggles that young man was enduring right before his suicide.

That’s why I pictured here what she tried to be for him as for his older brother: just the best mom she could, maybe not a perfect one and not even the one her son needed at that time, but the absolute best she could and that’s something no one, not even him and what he did, can take away from her.