SUN! Dazai and MOON! Poe

I’M BACK! 

Pushed down forcibly in the library with just the two of them—

“It’s all right, I’ll make you feel good. You like me, don’t you?”

Is this the pretense of a clown? Or……

Story Checkpoint

Dazai“It has nothing to do with you.”

MC “……”

Dazai “No matter who I talk to, and wherever I go, that’s none of your concern.”

Although his tone is soft, Dazai refuses MC bluntly with clear intention.

Her chest screams in pain as if being pierced through by a sharp blade.

(……But……I don’t want to leave it like this……)

If MC steps aside, she will never touch Dazai’s heart.

MC “……I don’t care, I still won’t leave you alone.”

With a shaking voice —

Dazai “Toshiko-san……”

MC “I don’t want anything to happen to Dazai-san……I don’t want you to do anything dangerous.”

MC “I like Dazai-san, so I want to get further involved in your life……”

Dazai “……”

MC “So —···”

(I beg you……don’t draw an invisible line……)

Through her gaze — as MC’s hanging her head feeling unbearable — Dazai’s shoes are right in front of hers.

The distance with him, which should have been only a few steps, is terribly different.

(I’m thinking so much that my heart feels like being torn, and yet……)

(……To Dazai-san, am I just an “*unrelated person”?) 

(*関係のない人間 - a person who has nothing to do with his matters

Dazai “Mimi-san……”

Dazai “Didn’t I tell you what kind of person I am? I’m not the kind of man who can give you such warm feelings.”

Her chest feels painful to hear such persuading words in his quiet and calm tone.

MC “My feeling……is it a bother to you?”

Dazai “……”

When MC raises her face and stares at Dazai, she feels that his eyes are shaking with a slight hesitation.

Dazai “……The only thing I have to face is the sin I bear on this shoulder.”

Dazai “When I step into someone’s life, I could do nothing but make them unhappy. I’m sure even you too —··· “

(Dazai-san……?)

From the pause on his words, it feels like MC could catch a glimpse of his heart, but —

Dazai “—···After all, I am a *sinner who acts like a clown.”

(*人でなし - miscreant, brute, beast, monster, inhuman person, ungrateful person

MC “—···You’re wrong!”

MC immediately refutes his self mockery remarks.

(That clown part of him is a lie……He’s not a sinner too.)

MC “……Dazai-san is not a clown.”

MC “Because if you really acted like a clown, you should have held me when you knew how I felt……”

Dazai “Mimi-san.”

MC “You should accept my confession, comforted me with the right words……”

MC “We could have been in vague relationship until I returned to my original world……”

MC “But Dazai-san didn’t do all that……!”

(I remember it well —)

Dazai“Listen, stop have feelings for such man, since I cannot make you happy.”

(If Dazai-san is a man exactly as he said, he didn’t have to give me such advice.)

(And yet, he still went out of his way, telling me to give up —)

MC “Isn’t it because Dazai-san thought about me properly in your own heart……?”

MC “You’re trying to make me give up before I could get hurt……”

Dazai “……”

MC “Dazai-san is neither a sinner nor a clown……”

MC “I believe……Dazai-san is a kind person……!”

At that time, MC just lets it all out.

Dazai “I am, kind……?”

Dazai’s voice suddenly tinged with disturbing sound.

MC’s arm being pulled, and then —

MC “Kya……mmn……!”

She realizes Dazai’s lips are on top of hers.

MC “Dazai —··· san, ah……”

After how long have they been doing that……

When MC lips that had been eaten at different angles were slowly released,

MC looks into Dazai’s face that is warped in pain, as if he’s enduring something —

MC “Da, zai……sa……”

Dazai “……If you’re going to say that far, then tell me.”

Dazai “What kind of *loving care goes into my kisses just now?

(*心がこもっている 

Chapter 19

Charles“Then — let’s have fun together, like we did when the three of us went out for date?”

Dazai “……”

Dazai stares coldly at Charles who’s smiling across the table.

Dazai “……You’re a bit similar to me.”

Dazai “Pretend to be kind to everyone, but actually insincere and dependent on others.”

Charles “Insincere? I don’t have such intention. If I receive love, I’ll respond to it like really, a lot!”

For Charles, who’s inclining his head while staring blankly — seems like nothing affected from Dazai’s words.

Dazai quickly takes his eyes off him and drops his sight into the glass on hand.

Dazai “……I have no intention to accept Mimi-san.”

Charles blinks his eyes to the quiet and somewhat obstinate declaration.

Charles “Why? Thinking like that……”

Charles “Do you break Mimi’s heart……?”

Charles “Even Dazai, about Mimi —”

— コツ (clink!)

Dazai puts the glass he was playing with in his hand on the table.

Dazai “……Let us get back to the topic. About the cooperative relationship, wasn’t it?”

Charles “……”

Dazai “Is there any collateral for cooperating with you guys?”

Charles “Collateral?”

Dazai “Oh, yes.”

Dazai “Didn’t Charles-kun too revived by having a contract with Ōsama to fulfill your wish? It’s the same thing.”

Dazai “If you could make my wish come true ···— I might be interested to get on with our discussion.”

After saying such meaningful words, Dazai walks away.

As Charles’s eyes fix on the exit, he mutters —

Charles “Wish, huh. I wish you could tell me what is it.”

Charles “Even so, Dazai’s eyes when talking about Mimi……”

Charles “It’s not that he doesn’t like her though. Then why don’t he accept Mimi?” 

Charles“Hey, does Mimi likes him like any human being?”

Charles“For example — even if he’s killing someone?”

MC“Although that’s an example story, I don’t want to hate and doubt a person based on speculation.”

MC“And also……”

MC“I believe……Dazai-san is a kind person.”

Charles “……Mimi believes in Dazai. She loves him so much.”

Charles “If this goes on, Mimi will get hurt……”

His blue eyes, burned in dark blaze are shaking.

Charles “Dazai’s wish……is it more important than Mimi?”

As the mansion enveloped in the veil of darkness……

(Somehow, my head is completely confused……)

On the sofa in her room, MC remembered the story she heard from Sebastian.

Sebastian “Charles Henri Sanson, is it? The executioner who lived during French Revolution.”

Sebastian “To King Louis XVI, Marie Antoinette……”

Sebastian “Most of central figures of that era were executed by his hands.”

MC “Execution……”

Sebastian “But on the other hand, it is said that he was a kind person who appealed for the abolition of death penalty……Ironic.”

(Charles is an executioner……)

The historical facts that Sebastian told MC and the story she heard from Shakespeare, 

And the figure of Charles smiles sweetly going around in circles in her head.

(For Charles to be associated with the guy who’s trying to use great man……does Dazai know that……?)

(Knowing that, I wonder what is Dazai trying to do? Without saying anything to anyone……)

With MC’s head getting more confused, a sigh spilled from her mouth.

(……I want to meet Dazai-san.)

(So many things have happened that I don’t know what to do……)

(……Perhaps I should tell Comte the whole story and discuss with him. But……)

Shakespeare“I don’t know what Dazai is really thinking about, but perhaps —”

Shakespeare“Perhaps he got an invitation to side with Lord Vlad……as I did in my time.”

(……I don’t know whether Shakespeare’s words are true or not.)

(I don’t want to raise Dazai-san’s suspicions by interjecting without knowing anything.)

(Dazai-san……what are you really thinking?)

When MC thinks of him, her chest becomes tight and painful, and her mind makes various imagination of its own accord.

(But if Dazai really leaves mansion and goes far away —)

(I’ll definitely hate that.)

There’s a ripple in MC’s heart.

Couldn’t stand it, she opens the door of her room without thinking too much.

MC comes to visit Dazai’s room but there’s no reply.

She is so worried that she turns on her heels to a certain place —

MC “Dazai-san……”

Dazai, who sits at the chair of library, smiles at MC when he sees her.

Dazai “Oh, Toshiko-san. I was wondering if you would come to read tonight.”

MC “Eh……were you waiting for me?”

Dazai “Yes. There are a few things I want to ask you.”

(Dazai-san to me……?)

It’s a little unexpected for Dazai to be the one who’s breaking the ice.

(We haven’t talk properly since that day.)

(The day when I heard of Dazai-san’s past and he drew a line.)

When MC remembers that day, her chest tightens at the love that she couldn’t receive.

At the same time, she’s a little nervous……

MC “What do you want to talk about……?”

Whatever the content would be, MC plans to face him properly this time.

While thinking that way, as she looks straight at Dazai, he leaves his seat and slowly walks towards her.

Dazai “You don’t have to be that prepared. I just want to confirm something.”

Dazai “Did Toshiko-san meet Charles-kun recently?”

MC “Huh? Well……after 3 of us went out together last time, I just met him once in town.”

Dazai smiles at ease with MC’s reply.

Dazai “Really? Okay then.”

(Asking whether I met Charles……why? It’s Dazai-san who actually met him though.)

MC’s getting even confused with Dazai’s intention. Then……

Dazai “I’m sorry if you heard it like I’m prying. I think I’m a hindrance to your reading, so I’ll take my leave.”

MC “Wait!”

As MC tries to stop Dazai to pass by her, she rushes over to the door before him — and locks it with a click.

Dazai “……”

She’s catching her breath, and her heart feels like jumping out in a steady stream.

(……It’s all right, I have to do this……)

Dazai “……Isn’t this too much of a joke from you?”

Dazai “Despite being alone with a man, you take the initiative to create a closed room.”

A dangerous look fills Dazai’s narrowed eyes.

His usual soft voice is so low as if to rebuke her.

(I know I did something bold, but……)

MC “If I don’t do this, Dazai-san will run away again, right……?”

Dazai “……”

MC “Please tell me. Why does Dazai-san care about me and Charles?” 

(What is Dazai thinking, what is he doing……I want him to tell me.)

Right now, something is stirring out of her sight.

MC couldn’t understand Dazai’s real intention who was acting alone……

(I can’t help but to worry……)

MC “……Please, I just want you to tell me properly.”

MC “You usually dodge the matter by saying it out of jealousy, but if there is other reason —”

Dazai “Dodging, huh.”

Dazai “How I wish I could dodge this feeling of mine……”

(Huh……?)

Dazai “Nothing. …I’ve told you the reason before, right? Charles-kun seems like he’s *quick with his hand, so I was worried as your guardian.”

(*手が早そう - to be fast in forming relationships with women

(Again……)

The murmurs spilled fade away beyond his smile.

Even if they face each other, it’s vexing that he still keep everything hidden.

(……This cannot go on.)

Resolving herself, MC looks straight at Dazai.

MC “……Today, I saw Dazai-san with Charles.”

MC “What were you two talking about? You aren’t involved in something dangerous, are you?”

Dazai “……Dangerous?”

Dazai “Toshiko-san, do you know something?”

MC “Ah……”

Too late to withdraw the words she just blurt out, MC has no choice but to tell him everything in order to urge Dazai ahead from being silent.

MC “That……I heard from Shakespeare-san that Charles is a vampire.”

MC “And, he also adores a dangerous guy who’s using great men……”

Dazai “……”

MC “I……I’m worried.”

MC “It feels like Dazai-san will go somewhere.” 

As Dazai keeps silent……he fixes his gaze on MC.

She returns the stare with desperate thoughts, what is it he’s putting into from his eyes, but……

Eventually, Dazai — showing MC his “usual” easygoing smile —

Dazai “It has nothing to do with you.”

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