average day at the bards’ college: rumor has it that ataf likes illdi. aia’s solo performance is about a week away but she’s fairly confident about it. jorn snuck out to see lisette again
average day at the college of winterhold: the students have released the daedric pirate.
@ariakitty is the last moodboard winner and then I’ll start on the drawings/cartoons but this will be a slow process because I suck.
Anyway, here is a moodboard for lovely Lumen who is a badass assassin of the Dark Brotherhood in her Skyrim Fic. She’s deadly, lustful, and fiercely loyal to the family she’s created with the members of the Brotherhood. I love her.
After the most recent ask I got I decided to draw up a quick look at my dragonborn Taima’s most current design (seen first in this post I made a bit back)! I love designing adventuring fits lmao
Converted a bunch of skyrim floors for Sims4! They’re for private use only, so I won’t share them publically, but you can send me a private message if you’re interested (I don’t bite!)
Converted a set of common furniture from Skyrim to Sims4! The conversions are for private use only, I can’t share them publically, but you can send me a message if you’re interested (I don’t bite, I promise!)
Hey folks, so I stream on Twitch now and I’d really appreciate it if you’d follow me!
I play The Sims, Dragon Age and Skyrim (etc.) I’m also thinking about starting a Mass Effect playthrough once things calm down a bit at work haha I’m aiming for 100 followers by August and I’m really hoping we can do it! I’m 31 off!!
I’m gonna try real hard to be a bit more active on here but this may end up being a gaming tumblr so sorry??
Ok so I’m replaying skyrim to get all the trophies or achievements or whatever with no mods (bc i always play with mods) anddd im gonna go into depth with what happened and why I’m pissed.
Ok so i was coming up on Darklight Tower from the south, bc I had just found the Ruins of Rkund and I enter Darklight Tower from the top, I kill a hagraven and a hag, and i go about my bidness.
I THOUGHT it was just another fort just filled with witches and hags rather than bandits, but stupid old me forgot about the quest “Repentance” and that I had apparently already fucked everything up by going through this bitch backwards.
Remember, this is my 100% playthrough. My aim was to finish every quest. And. I had already gone back and forth through the dungeon completely before I realized what I did and by the time I figured it out I had already used my 3 autosaves and my quicksave going back and forth trying to do this fucking fort and my last hardsave was.. too long ago.
Sosososo I looked it up and there is apparently a way to fix it.
Using console commands.
And I play on ps4.
Is it clear that I want to die yet?? Now this quest is gonna sit unfinished in my journal forever and I can’t do shit about it. I tried killing Illia hoping it would fail me but nothing happened. Now I’m just. Idk. Its really not a big deal but it really pisses me off that this happened on the one character I’m trying to 100% skyrim with.
Learn from me, kids.
Quicksaves aren’t enough.
Be SURE you hardsave too just in case you fuck up majorly like I just did.
My main OC is my apathy personified. He says all the smartass things I would say if I wasn’t a coward. He’s short small and scrawny like me. He’s got wild spiky hair like me. And his main personality trait is his and also my biggest flaw: not caring enough about anything. He’s me, and he’s valid because I’m valid.
Another OC of mine is a coward. He avoids combat at all costs, a complete pacifist just like me. He’s creative and a little eccentric and can’t bring himself to hate anyone, no matter what they’ve done. That’s also his biggest flaw, forgiving people too easily and not knowing when or how to stand up for himself, a big flaw I struggle with on the daily.
Another OC is a total anti-conformist. She’s a rebel to the grave and is for anything that’s anti-systematic. She goes out of her way to do what other people aren’t and she doesn’t trust anyone. This lack of trust is her biggest flaw and she often finds herself alone because she’s hostile to everything and everyone, even if she doesnt mean it, which is why I find myself alone a lot.
Idk where I’m going with this, this is just stream of consciousness type shit, but the point is that its okay to have self inserts. In a world like elder scrolls, or a world that you create on your own, where you can make whoever be whatever you want, why wouldn’t you put a piece of you in there? Even if it’s an ideal version of you, thats okay because sometimes people need to live out those fantasies to make themselves feel good when they’re insecure. It’s also a good way to personify your problems, like my apathy or my cowardice, sometimes its good to visualize these things if it helps you have a deeper connection to the world you’ve found yourself in.
Plus, idk how you can make a character and not have a bit of yourself in them. I feel like you have to have something to connect you to the person you’re making, otherwise you might be completely detached from them and their story. What happens to them is happening to you, and how would you know how to react as them in the fantasy world if you’re nothing like them in real life? Even if you’re nothing like them, if you’re a small coward like me and you make this brave charismatic warrior paladin, you’re living vicariously through them and doing what you wouldn’t normally do through sheer curiosity if nothing else, and that curiosity is just as much a part of you as anything else.
So in conclusion, no. Self inserts aren’t a bad thing. If it helps you form a deeper connection with the world, go for it and don’t listen to what anyone else says because odds are their character is a self insert too.
