I think im an idiot

Ok so I’m replaying skyrim to get all the trophies or achievements or whatever with no mods (bc i always play with mods) anddd im gonna go into depth with what happened and why I’m pissed.

Ok so i was coming up on Darklight Tower from the south, bc I had just found the Ruins of Rkund and I enter Darklight Tower from the top, I kill a hagraven and a hag, and i go about my bidness.

I THOUGHT it was just another fort just filled with witches and hags rather than bandits, but stupid old me forgot about the quest “Repentance” and that I had apparently already fucked everything up by going through this bitch backwards.

Remember, this is my 100% playthrough. My aim was to finish every quest. And. I had already gone back and forth through the dungeon completely before I realized what I did and by the time I figured it out I had already used my 3 autosaves and my quicksave going back and forth trying to do this fucking fort and my last hardsave was.. too long ago.

Sosososo I looked it up and there is apparently a way to fix it.

Using console commands.

And I play on ps4.

Is it clear that I want to die yet?? Now this quest is gonna sit unfinished in my journal forever and I can’t do shit about it. I tried killing Illia hoping it would fail me but nothing happened. Now I’m just. Idk. Its really not a big deal but it really pisses me off that this happened on the one character I’m trying to 100% skyrim with.

Learn from me, kids.

Quicksaves aren’t enough.

Be SURE you hardsave too just in case you fuck up majorly like I just did.

haaaha

I wish that I had enough social skills to piss the right people off to get myself murdered.

EVERYONE WOULD BE BETTER OFF IF I WAS DEAD. SO LET ME KILL MYSELF. PLEASE

Shit

It’s sad. I went through my whole house looking for a blade. I was shaking like it was a drug that I needed. I found one. And after I cut I felt fine. I felt better. What’s wrong with me…

I’m sorry mom and dad

I wish i could just pay back my parents all the money they used on me. So when i kill myself. It was never a waste of money…

dumbledorathexplora:

dumbledorathexplora:

so many people posting negative shit about 2016 being crap like every year like… its january….chill

……..nm

I really suck at life hahahaha…

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uchidog:

reblog this and put in the tags what comes up when you type “die”

i hope i go to sleep tonight and don’t wake up

why am i still alive?

because im really tired of living