#soberversary
Two nights ago, someone on a TV show I was watching was tripping on ‘shrooms. I have never done shrooms, but I did get nostalgic for that high where nothing matters, where you feel outside your own body, where everything is light and airy. I wanted what that character felt. Then last night was a rough night. I ended up reading too much about Omicron and the inevitability that “we are all gonna get it ♀️”. Except for me, that could very possibly be a death sentence. And my brain spiraled out into existential dread mode & I couldn’t stop it. Today I woke up knowing that I didn’t go for the nostalgic high I wanted and I didn’t treat my overwhelming anxiety with unsanctioned (& way too many) pills. I woke up today knowing I made it through both those feelings without drugs - or at least without non-prescription drugs . I woke up this morning knowing I have been sober for twelve years. #Soberversary
Today marks my Soberversary; four years of not wanting alcohol. I honestly did not think that I was going to reach 50 and in a couple weeks I’ll turn 52. That, for me, is the sort of miracle that AA talked about, especially during those horrible first months when getting through a whole day without a drink felt like an impossible hurdle.
For anyone out there battling their own demons: the struggle for sobriety is worth it. I thought that, perhaps, I might be able to stop drinking for a while, just long enough so friends would stop bothering me, but I never thought that I’d lose my thirst. I was sure that I’d always have the craving. I am grateful to say that I was wrong about all of that. In this case it was good to be wrong.
We might all hit rock bottom on our own but none of us have to be alone in battling this disease. There is a redemption story for all of us, if we want it.
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Two nights ago, someone on a TV show I was watching was tripping on ‘shrooms. I have never done shrooms, but I did get nostalgic for that high where nothing matters, where you feel outside your own body, where everything is light and airy. I wanted what that character felt. Then last night was a rough night. I ended up reading too much about Omicron and the inevitability that “we are all gonna get it ♀️”. Except for me, that could very possibly be a death sentence. And my brain spiraled out into existential dread mode & I couldn’t stop it. Today I woke up knowing that I didn’t go for the nostalgic high I wanted and I didn’t treat my overwhelming anxiety with unsanctioned (& way too many) pills. I woke up today knowing I made it through both those feelings without drugs - or at least without non-prescription drugs . I woke up this morning knowing I have been sober for twelve years. #Soberversary
