#sobriety
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Hi! I’ve officially been #sober for an entire year!! I feel fucking incredible. Never in my life did I ever think that it’d be possible, or that I’d even do it WILLINGLY! If you went to Bravo with me, THEN YOU KNOW. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I’m sorry to anyone who I may have been uncomfortable with my drinking in the past. I’m sorry to the people I never got a chance to get fucked up with! I’m sorry to myself for masking the pain I was feeling with alcohol. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I’m not tied down to #sobriety …I fortunately never became a daily drinker, but even drinking weekly was heading to that path. No judgement to anyone who has- I just want to emphasize that I no longer drink because it feels good not to. It’s okay to explore and celebrate sobriety without technically being an alcoholic!⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ It wasn’t easy at first, but now it is. I’m not going to lie, I’m not aaaaas fun at parties…but I’m also not as equally messy and annoying! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I still need to work through some social anxiety that alcohol masked. I’d like to learn how to dance freely and not worry about how others see me. I’d like to learn how to be talkative and connecting to others easier. I’d like to learn how to simply relax, ya know? ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Anyways, my eyebrows are super thin here and they’ve been growing out well! I over tweezed them so I could shape them better. I wanted them thin so that I could control the arch formation as they regrew! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Lip color: Dusk by @suavecitapomade (my favorite every day #lipstick ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Lined with StoneFox by @oxbloode my favorite #MatteLipgloss⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I LOVE these two brands! It’s so hard finding lip shades that compliment #Latina skin tones and these are perfect no matter what shade I currently am! (at Park City, Utah)
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You may try to destroy me but you will fail!
Today I add Rheumatoid Arthritis to my repertoire of challenges.
“Keep your face always towards the sunshine, and the shadows will fall behind you."—M. B. Whitman
I’m still here. Still kicking ass and taking names! So many things have tried to destroy me and they have all failed. This new challenge will be no different. I am a warrior!
Sobriety. Why is it such a struggle for me? I know people who are sober and say that they don’t even think about it anymore. Why is it that I think about it daily? I fight it everyday. Most days I win but there are days that I don’t. Regardless, I will never give up. Every day I pick up my sword and fight.
I don’t know what you think but I think the me on the right looks a whole lot happier, healthier and all around better than the me on the left! PREMIUM NUTRITION!!
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It started off as just a HEALTH KICK and now look at me ♀️♂️♀️♀️
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I have been on this “health kick” for over 10years now and I swear I had no idea about all the blessings I would receive just for taking care of myself and making health a promise. Along the way, I gained deeper knowledge about myself and how much power I have. WOW!
I rarely get sick and for the most part, I have great energy. I’ve saved lives and built some pretty amazing relationships from being on this “Health Kick.”
While I have you here let me share with you some more blessings I’m continuing to receive.
My internal bill of health is in on point, my skin is clear and I can breathe in more oxygen into my lungs. My joints don’t hurt.
I can sleep peacefully, my hair is healthy, & best of all, I haven’t had a drug or alcohol relapse in 7 years #sobriety I’ve occupied many shapes in this body, I’ve fell in love and defeated pain. My strength is solid and always supported.
I can go on and on but you get the point. HOLISTIC Health & Self Care will always be wealth for me. I leave everything else is to God.
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Chow for now
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I’m only twenty-five and I’ve definitely cut out at least as many in my lifetime.
And guess what?
I’m proud of it, and the best part is that my therapist approves!
There is so much toxic energy in this world, that I honestly don’t need.
It started in high school. I was bullied, called a slut, and my “friends” often were talking behind my back. In college, the same thing. So, I simply…
I’m so sorry neighbor 2015-2019
Two nights ago, someone on a TV show I was watching was tripping on ‘shrooms. I have never done shrooms, but I did get nostalgic for that high where nothing matters, where you feel outside your own body, where everything is light and airy. I wanted what that character felt. Then last night was a rough night. I ended up reading too much about Omicron and the inevitability that “we are all gonna get it ♀️”. Except for me, that could very possibly be a death sentence. And my brain spiraled out into existential dread mode & I couldn’t stop it. Today I woke up knowing that I didn’t go for the nostalgic high I wanted and I didn’t treat my overwhelming anxiety with unsanctioned (& way too many) pills. I woke up today knowing I made it through both those feelings without drugs - or at least without non-prescription drugs . I woke up this morning knowing I have been sober for twelve years. #Soberversary
Pandemic-brain means I have no idea what the date is half the time. Which is how I nearly missed my 11 years sober - today. This last year I’ve said things like, “I can’t believe I’m living through a year like this.” But the fact is I am…living through it. Living to see it. Something I wouldn’t have thought 11 years ago - that I would not only see the year 2021, but see it with my head above the water. Even though I have to be on pain pills again bc of degeneration in my body, I’m being safe & I’m being sane about it. And that’s a strong-man’s (or woman’s, or person’s) feat right there. 2021, I’m here.
It was 10 years ago today that I looked down at the pills laid out in front of me and made a life-altering decision. I had been trying for months to scale back, ween myself, anything I could to get off of the pills. I talked to someone in my family who had gone through something similar for advice. But no matter what I did, I just seemed to keep digging myself into a bigger hole. I couldn’t call my doctor out of fear of being blacklisted for any future medications that I might, and most definitely would, need as my degenerative disease got worse. But I needed to do something. I *had* to do something. I was staring down a very black hole.
On this day 10 years ago a little voice inside of me spoke up and told me that the next choice I made was going to be between my future and my end. My life and my death. And so I chose.
I chose Life.
Today is my 10 years sober.
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We’re excited to kick off our Recovery Awareness Month #mutualaidinrecovery Campaign IG Live Series with Carolyn Collado (they/them) from @recoveryfortherevolution!
Tune in, show support, and learn more about Recovery for the Revolution and the importance of decolonizing recovery and centering QTBIPOC individuals in recovery and sobriety. ✊
JOIN US: ⏰
Wednesday, September 8th
6:00 PM (EST)
Carolyn Collado (they/them) is a writer, decolonial dreamer, and founding steward of Recovery for the Revolution. They are a queer, non-binary Afro-Taino neurodivergent human in long-term recovery and believe recovery from a decolonized, anti-oppression lens can point the collective towards liberation. They name how intergenerational colonial trauma and the pressures of capitalism impact our relationship to self, each other, the planet, and the divine. They believe bringing to light what we have hidden in shame and fear can bring about transformative healing and community.
Recovery for the Revolution reframes narratives around addiction, sobriety and recovery through a trauma-informed, anti-oppression lens and offering decolonized approaches for our liberation. R4TR holds recovery as a revolutionary practice that brings about revolution through our individual and collective liberation, and something that grows our mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual capacity as we live into these revolutionary times.⠀
Learn more about this campaign at 2b.care (link in bio!)
#mutualaidinrecovery #qtibipoc #recovery #sobriety #gc2b #2bcare #philanthropicprogram #recoveryawarenessmonth #nationalrecoveryawarenessmonth #onedayatatime
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Hey friends just wanted to pop in and update for anyone still watching this blog.
I’m currently 1.5 years sober and feeling amazing, happiness is no longer a luxury to me.
If anyone needs to talk, always reach out
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Back on my gym life
Back on trying to pull myself out of the alcohol fueled spiral I was in. If you have been following me for any amount of time you know the way I have struggled
But there are just to many things going amazing in my life for me to give back into what I used to be like.
It’s pretty hard to run a successful business, hit new weight lifting♀️ goals diet down for summer, build a future with the love of my life and still find time to be a raging miserable drunk who can’t leave the house without a drink most days.
Priorities are everything
Sometimes the only thing that gets me through the day sober is Confianza and Keto coffee☕️and knowing there is more in life.
So here we go again so to speak. It does not matter how many times you start as long as you keep trying
#TrainingforDenver #gymunicorn #getcoppered #dedication #unicornlife #soberday4 #coffeeaddict #weightlossjourney #elevationtraining #swolelife #coffeefirst #diamondbound #dreams #sobriety #highponytail #travel #stronger #faster #better #flexlife #successstory
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