#anxiety disorder
“This moment felt like the movie The Truman Show. On my end, I was happy and unbothered…I didn’t think there was anything I needed to know, while everyone around me knew something I didn’t… this moment felt like betrayal, but of self.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“I feel small, surrounded by foreign objects like aliens or whatnot. I'm helpless and can’t reach towards anyone to help.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“…it felt like I was in this huge empty room and everyone was watching me from the sidelines, not helping with my tasks, but judging my every move.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“This moment felt like I was being shouted at by a million people at once and I wasn’t sure who to turn to first. I was unsure who to choose and it was very stressful.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“This moment felt dark and empty, like I was in a small box. As if I was sitting in a dark, cold, tiny box and looking at everyone else living in huge figures of different shapes and vivid colors.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“This moment felt like translucent panic. It felt like an alternate world where I was a goldfish in a tank watching humans go about their normal lives. What was watching around me looked normal. What I was feeling was a feeling that I have been through before.. but both of these things together created a situation that shrank me down to goldfish size.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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“It felt like there was a certain shape I had to be, and I didn’t seem to fit in right. I was too large, and I was not what the guideline wanted me to be.”
This is one of my favorite projects from 2018. I illustrated 8 different people’s description of their anxiety as part of a book project for DScout. As someone who suffers from anxiety, it was a truly wonderful opportunity to help bring visuals to others’ experiences with the condition.
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Two nights ago, someone on a TV show I was watching was tripping on ‘shrooms. I have never done shrooms, but I did get nostalgic for that high where nothing matters, where you feel outside your own body, where everything is light and airy. I wanted what that character felt. Then last night was a rough night. I ended up reading too much about Omicron and the inevitability that “we are all gonna get it ♀️”. Except for me, that could very possibly be a death sentence. And my brain spiraled out into existential dread mode & I couldn’t stop it. Today I woke up knowing that I didn’t go for the nostalgic high I wanted and I didn’t treat my overwhelming anxiety with unsanctioned (& way too many) pills. I woke up today knowing I made it through both those feelings without drugs - or at least without non-prescription drugs . I woke up this morning knowing I have been sober for twelve years. #Soberversary
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Just agreed to do research surveys since just sitting here waitin, but 1st 1 about opioids I take & now sweatin wondering if I shoulda put that shit on file, which is ridic bc already in my med file but this is more accessible to outside sources idk.
Two nights ago, someone on a TV show I was watching was tripping on ‘shrooms. I have never done shrooms, but I did get nostalgic for that high where nothing matters, where you feel outside your own body, where everything is light and airy. I wanted what that character felt. Then last night was a rough night. I ended up reading too much about Omicron and the inevitability that “we are all gonna get it ♀️”. Except for me, that could very possibly be a death sentence. And my brain spiraled out into existential dread mode & I couldn’t stop it. Today I woke up knowing that I didn’t go for the nostalgic high I wanted and I didn’t treat my overwhelming anxiety with unsanctioned (& way too many) pills. I woke up today knowing I made it through both those feelings without drugs - or at least without non-prescription drugs . I woke up this morning knowing I have been sober for twelve years. #Soberversary
Does anyone else here avoid becoming too close of friends with people who are extremely attractive, successful, smart, and confident because being around them makes you hate yourself for not being as attractive, successful, smart, and confident as them?
sometimes explaining to people what it’s like to have an anxiety disorder is like pulling teeth
they’re like “oh, i get stressed too! sometimes i get stage fright”
and i’m like. that sucks. for real, it does. but my anxiety means i sometimes lay in bed and feel so dizzy and out of it i can’t get up. my anxiety means i get sick if i feel stress i can’t control. my anxiety means i pick at my hands until they bleed. my anxiety means sometimes i feel like i can’t breathe and can’t stop crying.
so many people expect my anxiety to be about huge things, but honestly, for me, usually it just piles up until something small happens and i lose it. it can be so small. sometimes it seems like it’s over nothing.
but telling me “you’re worrying over nothing” does not help. because the worst part is, most of the time i feel like i’m worrying over nothing and i fucking feel so much guilt because of it. especially if it deals with other people because then i just feel like a burden.
so, please. if someone tells you they have anxiety, just listen. it means all the world if someone just nods and tells you “that fucking sucks”
Long day
Worked a solid 12 hours today at two jobs. I don’t know how people work at this pace on a regular basis. This is my sixth day of overtime hours in a row (but no OT pay) and my brain hurts.
It wasn’t until I was alone and had a chance to think that I realized that my anxiety disorder flared up this week, that though it’s a constant handicap, I sometimes don’t even realize I’m being affected until many days later.
I hate this about myself. People at work don’t understand and I can’t explain it to them. They think things like, “well, maybe she shouldn’t do this job, she isn’t suited for it,” and it frustrates me. Shouldn’t I be allowed to pursue my interests despite my handicap?
Anxiety disorders are shameful because they are misunderstood. People think they know because everyone has experienced anxiety in their lives, but how quickly they dismiss the disorder part. And then when you confess, they look at you as lesser. Every time you get upset it’s somehow less justified, more of an over reaction than a “normal” person.
Ugh. Tiredness makes me sad.
