Love Like The Saxifrage2/?

Summary: A tragic romance blossomed in the darkest corners of hydra, much like the purple saxifrage that blooms in an ice desert. Their story was destined to be forgotten as fate changed its plans for the poor couple.

Warnings:Angst, hydra, killing, mentions of panic attack and depression, cursing, insinuating to torture/trauma

Pairing: Winter soldier x reader (For now known as Nyx which is the assassin name but will eventually go to Y/N)

Word count:946

A/N:Okay so I didn’t think that many people would actually like my story so I didn’t have plans to make more parts but here you go I Guess. I hope you like it and i really appreciate the likes and reblogs! And there will be romance soon. :)

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“Look if we wait until shes alone we’re going to end up staying here for a couple of weeks. She’s in very high position so the chances that she’ll be alone without a few bodyguards is very unlikely” ‘Nyx’ concluded with an exasperated sigh, wanting to get the mission over with.

He grunted and kept staring into his binoculars, clearly blocking her out. “That’s it” Grabbing her headset she got out of the car and slammed the door. He bored into her retreating figure before grumbling a few curses under his breath and going after her.

Her air was pulled from her lungs as she was roughly jerked into a secluded wall before she reached the apartment building, “What the hell are you doing!?” He whispered harshly, eyes looking hostile. “Don’t. Touch. Me.” She shakily seethed; feeling her chest tighten and her breathe pick up its pace as she slumped her shoulders and stepped away from him, pressing herself against the wall.

The soldier gawked at her, perplexed at her sudden change of behavior. He reached out towards her, unsure how to handle the situation. After all, hydra needed him to be unfazed when his victims begged for their lives in distress. ‘Nyx’ flinched away from his touch and pointed her finger, threateningly, towards him.

“I said don’t fucking touch me!” ‘Nyx’ growled.

He stepped away and slowly brought his hands up finally registering her sudden change of attitude. He cursed in his mind. How could he be so stupid? Of course she was scared, she had been forced into submission by hydra just like him and she clearly didn’t enjoy it.

“Listen, i’m not going to hurt you… We-we’re partners, okay?” He clarified, stumbling over his words unsure of how to comfort her shaking form. She looked into his eyes. Searching for something, anything. She needed to grasp onto some sort of comfort. Finally nodding and relaxing her stance she took a deep breathe. “Okay. Okay, I’m ready” She mumbled looking straight into his eyes.

He turned around and headed towards the building. He felt her grasp his wrist and he looked back at her. “Forget about this… Nothing happened.”

“They’ll wipe my mind when we get back. I won’t remember anything.” He mumbled. Her gaze softened and she nodded. As soon as they broke through the front door they were met with 10 strong and burly men. The two assassins made quick work of the men and headed towards the bedroom where the women would likely be. She turned around and continued her phone call with a shaky breath.

“Mommy’s gonna be gone for a little bit okay? Tell daddy I love him very much. I have to go now… Make sure to listen to daddy okay? I love you” She mumbled and hung up as a few tears slipped down her face.

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I gulped as she finished her call and faced us.

“Well? What are you waiting for? Just put me out of my misery already” She mumbled.

“We were ordered to bring you back to hydra, not to kill you.” She stared at him with shock, quickly being flooded with panic.

“W-What? No-nonono. Please. You can’t! They already know all the information I have on them! You can’t take me to them… “ She hysterically yelled, eyes darting between the both of us.

I bit the inside of my lip and closed my eyes momentarily trying to regain some control of my emotions. Hearing her pleading sobs shouldn’t have affected me this much. It wouldn’t have affected me if I didn’t hear that fucking call. I quickly pulled out my gun and shot her between her eyebrows and inwardly cringed when a bit of blood splashed on me. “Lets go” I ordered and headed to the motel.

Once we returned to the motel winter slammed the door, it almost came out of its hinges

“What the hell was that all about!? Hydra is going to punish us. Both of us!” he scolded me.

“You heard her, hydra already knows the information she gathered on them.” I replied calmly, justifying myself. “It doesn’t matter. That’s not what they told us to do”

“We are going to tell them she took the bullet for one of the guards, got it?” I turned around and glared at him but he stayed silent.

“If they find out that you were weak you will be severely punished by the head of hydra.” He growled.

“Thats if they find out. The only way they’ll find out is if you tell them. And you know what? I don’t care! Go ahead tell them! Maybe they’ll finally decide that they’ve had enough of me! Maybe they’ll finally kill me!” I screamed, storming off into the bathroom. I quickly peeled off my uniform and climbed into the freezing shower.

I slumped against the wall and slid to the floor, hugging my knees, “Please, I can’t do this anymore” I silently begged to anyone-anything. I hoped the sound of the water droplets slamming into the floor covered up my wet sobs and wishes of freedom. After a few minutes I gulped down the lump in my chest and rubbed the hot tears from my eyes before stepping out of the shower.

I grabbed a cigarette and smoked near the door. The winter soldier came and sat by me. “I won’t tell them.” He mumbled and took it from my hands. He took a long puff and exhaled before he continued, “I said it once and i’ll say it again: We are partners.” He stretched his right hand out to me and I stared at it for a few minutes before I snorted and shook it.

“Okay.”

IM A SEBASTIAN STAN

I’ve accepted that im a weak bitch for Peter Parker, Bucky Barnes, Loki Laufeyson, and Thor Odinson thanks

Ok so I’ve been thinking about how common it is for Bucky fics to include people being disturbed/uncomfortable bc of his arm BUT hear me out:

Bucky is chillin at a coffee shop with his s/o right and then they notice a mother and her son who keeps starring at his arm. His s/o notices that and they’re like “hey we can get outta here if you want” but Bucky’s like “it’s ok, I’m used to it”. Just as their s/o is gonna say something the kid and the mom goes up to Bucky mouthing a ‘I’m really sorry’ before the kid starts excitedly talking to Bucky asking things like “you’re arm is so cool! Can I touch it!? Is it real!? Can I take a picture with you!??!” And Bucky is surprised but genuinely smiles and he’s like “sure kid” and for like 10 minutes the kid is admiring his arm before the mom thanks Bucky and peels the kid from his arm and Bucky is happy.