TC UPDATE #36 (7/11/21)

hiiii everyone! first of all, i want to apologize for my absence. i’ve been so busy with work and school, but i finally got some motivation to post on here and give you all a well-deserved update pertaining to M & i.

so, unfortunately, M & i are not officially together at the moment. in fact, it’s been a while since i’ve seen him in person. maybe it’s because we’re at different places in our lives rn, and while i’m at college, we’re about an hour and a half away from one another. i’m thinking about reaching out to him and asking him if he’d like to grab food somewhere and catch up. i miss seeing him everyday so much.

also, i’ve temporarily turned off anonymous asks. i’ve been receiving a lot of anonymous hate (most likely from one person), and i figured if you are going to bash my life or make false assumptions about my life then you should be brave enough to show your true identity. one blog tried to start drama with me, and it is all false information pertaining to photos of myself. it was a mistake to ever show who i am, and i regret it and now realize how unsafe it was. i’m choosing to ignore the hate/drama and keep doing what i love. to my supporters, i love you always!!

i’ll keep you all updated on M. i might end up texting/calling him tonight!

I just want to lay on your chest and listen to the sound of your heartbeat.

soo I start college in 2 & and a half weeks and idk if I’m ready! I’m super pumped for it but I also realize it’ll be a huge change I’ll have to get used to. M texted me (above) and said he wants to meet with me this week to discuss my schedule bc I’ll be returning to my old high school to get service/volunteer hours for one of my lit courses.

hi everyone. I decided to make this post to simply share my feelings on some things that I have recently been going through. first of all, I cannot express to you all how sorry I am for the fact that I have been inactive on this blog after school let out. I’ve been juggling so many things at once and traveling and going to conferences that it’s very easy to forget - and quite frankly, difficult - to update you all on my life. however, I have aspirations to post regularly again. but, it’s hard to find any kind of inspiration when I log on Tumblr and my messages and asks are FULL of hate messages. people calling me names you can’t imagine and tearing my posts apart. I remember when Tumblr was a way for me to comfortably and positively share my experiences with you all but it only takes one person to ruin that. I created this blog so that I could safely get these things off of my chest and vent to people I can relate with and people who share similar experiences with me. however, I almost can’t do that anymore. don’t get me wrong, I know is still have so many wonderful supporters and followers who I love greatly!! but like I said, it’s that one hate message that can make a person rethink everything and even considering deactivating. however, I’m bo, and I want to stay strong and positive for you all even if it’s hard sometimes. so, I just ask that you all bare with me. I’m at a very stressful point in my life trying to grow up and prepare for college all while maintain healthy relationships with the people I love, including M. you all mean the world to me, and I love posting updates for you guys and I will. just give me time to think and cool down. ❤️

Y’ALL I’m going to have dinner with M this evening just to catch up because I haven’t seen him in a couple of weeks. I lowkey miss him so bad